Trying Not To Love You

We were finally back in town late at night but Dominic claimed he had to pick up something from the drug store before he dropped us off. He ran in quickly, got what he needed and then we pulled up to Hailey's house first. It didn't make any sense to me since he lived closer to her.

"So I'll see you in the morning, I guess. Cooper said they were coming home tomorrow at some point." I said to Hailey as she was pulling her last bag out of the trunk.

"Yeah, I'm just going to unpack and then I'll be over."

"Ok see you later."

"Thanks again Dom." Hailey said.

"Sure no problem."

We got into the car but pulled over right up the street from Hailey's house.

I looked over at Dominic, "What are you doing?"

"I need to talk to you and if I have you in my car, it's a lot easier. Besides, now there isn't anyone else around."

"Dominic, please just take me home. I can't do this with you right now ok."

"Just listen to me ok."

I crossed my arms over my chest and stared straight ahead.

He cleared his throat. "I know this isn't any of my business but did you sleep with Hunter?"

Groaning, I dropped my head to the back on the seat. "I'm not talking to you about this Dominic. It's none of your business. I don't ask what's going on with you and Brittany; don't ask about me and Hunter."

"I know but just answer the question, it's important."

"It's not important and it's none of your business." I spat back at him.

"Damn it Kenzie, just answer the question!" He raised his voice to me.

I was fuming but I knew him well enough to know if I didn't answer him, I would be here all night and I really just wanted to go home. Huffing I said, "Yes."

He ran his left hand through his hair and then reached in the center console with his right, grabbed the drug store bag and handed it to me. "You need to take this."

I opened the bag that he handed to me and I shot my eyes up to him, "Are you f*cking kidding me? I'm not pregnant a*shole. You know how I am when I get upset over shit." I closed the bag back up and stuck it back in the console then crossed my arms over my chest again. Was he crazy?

"I can't be pregnant, I'm on the pill and you know this." I told him after a few minutes.

He looked over at me and said, "Please just take it when you get home, just to make sure. I know how you get when you get upset over something but this, what you have, is different. You're different."

"Fine, I'll take the damn test but I already know the answer. Now can you please take me home?" I huffed still looking straight ahead.

Dominic put the car in drive and took me home. I got out of the car and went to grab my bags. He came around his side with the drug store bag and handed it to me. I took it and shoved it in my purse.

"Thanks for the ride; I'll see you back at school I guess."

"Yeah sure, let me know if you need a ride back."

I nodded and grabbed my last bag that he had in his hand and went into the house. "Kenzie," Dominic called out.

"Yeah?"

"If you need to talk or anything, call me." He didn't wait for me to answer; he got back in his car and backed out of the driveway.

My mom was pacing the floor when I walked in; I knew something was wrong when I saw her. "Mom? What's wrong?"

"Oh thank God." She ran towards me and squeezed me.

"Mom?"

"Hunter has been calling nonstop looking for you. He said your phone is turned off and he couldn't get a hold of you."

Nice, why is he calling now? "Well Hunter shouldn't worry about me; he hasn't for the last two weeks. Hailey and I got a ride home from Dominic."

"What do you mean he hasn't worried for the last two weeks? Are you guys fighting?"

"Yeah, because of Mason's bullshit."

"Oh baby girl, I'm so sorry." She started rocking me back and forth slowly as she did every time she comforted me. The swaying was doing nothing for my stomach.

"Look, I'm really tired and I just want to go to sleep. We'll catch up later." I kissed her cheek and started for the stairs.

"What do you want me to tell Hunter when he calls back?" she asked.

"Tell him whatever you want." I don't care if he gets pissed off because I took off again or because Dominic took us home.

"Alright."

I went upstairs, dropped my bags, slipped off my shoes and curled up in bed. I fell asleep for a little while but that drug store bag was taunting me. It was after three in the morning when I finally had enough and got up to take the test just to prove to Dominic that I was not pregnant. Ok, maybe to myself too.

I grabbed the bag and walked towards the bathroom. Hailey was standing in the hallway talking to Mason. What the hell was Mason doing here this late at night with Hailey?

I tried to walk past them, but Mason grabbed my arm stopping me. He pulled me into his chest and hugged me. "I'm sorry I've been such an a*shole lately."

I pushed off him a little. "If you don't mean it, then don't apologize to me Mase. I know you're only saying it because I'm not with Hunter anymore."

Taken back a little by my remark, he frowned and said, "I am sorry. I just don't want to see you hurt and from what Hailey's told me you are hurting." He pulled me back to his chest and kissed my forehead. "I'm sorry. I'll talk to Hunter tomorrow."

Shaking my head and trying to hold in the tears, I said, "Don't worry about it. It's over between us."

"I'll fix it; it's my fault. I just don't think he's good enough for my little sister, but I don't want to see you like this every day."

Tears were streaming down my face and soaking his shirt, "Please don't; just let it be, for me."

Sighing he said, "Ok," he grabbed my face and wiped the tears away. "Just because you asked I won't say anything."

"Thanks Mase." I turned towards Hailey and said, "Can I talk to you for a minute."

"Yeah, sure."

I grabbed her hand and pulled her into the bathroom with me. I turned on the faucet so Mason couldn't hear us. I pulled out the test from the bag, and her eyes flew open wide. "You have to be shitting me!"

"Shh, Hailey." I flipped the box over and read the directions, then opened the box and set the test on the sink. "Turn around. When I'm done, I need you to look at this and tell me its negative, ok?"

She turned around and nodded. I pulled my pants down, sat on the toilet, peed on the stick and quickly put the cap on. I cleaned myself up, all the while not looking at the godforsaken test.

"Ok, look at the test and tell me it's negative."

Hailey slowly turned around, gasped and put her hand over her mouth. That was not the reaction I wanted. "Hailey, it's negative right?"

She just looked at me but didn't say anything.

Fine, I guess I had to do this on my own. "F*ck!" I yelled and then put my hand over my mouth. Five, ten, twenty minutes went by and we both just stared at the test both in disbelief.

Mason must have been worrying because he came banging on the door, making us both jump. "Kenzie, Hailey you guys ok? You've been in there forever."

Startled and worried he would pick the lock, I picked up the test, threw it back in the bag and shoved it under my shirt. I looked over at Hailey, "Don't say a word to anyone Hails."

I opened the door and walked straight into my room; I took the test out from under my shirt and shoved it in the back of my underwear drawer. I paced the floor for the rest of the night. The test had to be wrong. I always took my pill at the same time every day, and I never missed. There had to be a mistake.

Around eight the next morning, I still could not even think about going to sleep. I need to talk to someone. I couldn't talk to my mom; Hailey had no idea about being pregnant. Chloe! I went over to my purse, grabbed my cell and dialed Chloe.

"Kenzie, what in the hell are you doing up so early?" She yawned and I heard Alex crying in the background.

"Um, can I come over? I need to talk to you." I was already walking downstairs to grab my keys.

"Yeah sure but stop and grab us coffee first. Alex has been up most of the night and it was my turn to stay up with him."

"Yeah sure, I'll grab you a coffee. Should I get one for Jackson?" I started the car.

"Better pick him up one so when he gets up, he doesn't bitch about it."

"Ok see you in a few."

Fifteen minutes later, I pulled up to Jackson and Chloe's little house that they just recently bought. I grabbed the coffee and made my way inside, Alex was lying on his back on his little play mat and Chloe, who looked like she hasn't slept in hours, was in the kitchen making bacon. As soon as I smelled it, I ran into the kitchen, dropped the coffee down on the table, spilling some in the process and darted to the bathroom to throw up.

I heard mumbling outside of the bathroom door and then someone knocked.

"Kenz let me in." Chloe said.

"Hold on a second." I quickly got up and rinsed my mouth out before I opened the door. "Sorry, I just had to pee."

Shaking her head at me, Chloe said, "Not buying it. You're pregnant aren't you?"

"Shh, I don't know. That's why I'm here." I grabbed her hand, pulled her into the bathroom, turned the water back on and said, "I took a test, but it can't be right Chloe. I take my pills every day. What the hell am I going to do? I need you to fix this."

She raised her eyebrows at me. "You didn't use protection?" I shook my head. It was a huge mistake on my part for telling Hunter it was ok. "You're smarter than that Kenz. I'm not going to lecture you though. Have you taken another test since last night?"

"No, that was the only one. I didn't even think about any of this shit until Dominic mentioned it to me. He gave me the test to take."

"He what? How did he know?" She asked confused.

"I don't really know, I never asked." I sat down on the edge of the tub. "What do I do? I'm freaking out."

"Freaking out isn't going to help you at all. Let me go throw on a pair of shoes and I'll tell Jackson I forgot to grab eggs. We will run to the store and grab another test. Although I'm pretty sure that one is right. I took twenty tests in three days because I refused to believe I was pregnant."

"Alright, let's go."

We walked out of the bathroom. Chloe went into the living room to grab Alex and take him to Jackson who was still in bed. I covered my nose with my shirt to keep from smelling the bacon that she was still cooking.

"You're pregnant." She said when she saw me holding my nose. "I was the same way; everything smells nasty and turns your stomach."

"Alright Dr. Oz, can we go please?" She laughed at me, clearly amused by my panic.

We ran into town to the nearest drug store, picked up a test and made it back to the house within fifteen minutes.

"Go take the test, and I'll go distract Jackson." Chloe said when we pulled into the driveway.

I walked in and went right in to the bathroom to take the test. Five minutes later, I still had the same damn results.

PREGNANT.