Never Enough

chapter 10



The crowd was going wild for the band tonight. After about three songs, Marcus did a drum solo and I could hear Halley whistling at him. She loved watching Marcus perform. She was so proud of him. And he was pretty damn good at what he did. Chunky was still sitting in front. Her eyes were on Trevor. I glanced toward him and his eyes met mine. He smiled and blew a kiss. I stared at him. I couldn’t return it. I was lucky to be seeing straight at this point. The green shirt he wore tonight fit him perfectly. I could make out the definition in his abs. Those were my abs and chunky was looking at them. I hated her. If my uncle didn’t own this bar and I wasn’t afraid of him I’d go hit her. Trevor looked at me concerned. My eyes felt dark and empty. All emotion was pushed aside. I tried though. Tried to smile at him. It was just hard knowing she was down there.

I waited on customer after customer. The tip jar was filling up, it was a good night. It was definitely keeping me busy. The guys started playing ‘Crazy Bitch’ by Buckcherry. The crowd got even wilder. More people were up front and that gave me a break that I needed badly. Some were dancing. Everyone was having a good time. Then it happened.

Halley was in her positioned spot keeping an eye on chunky. Trevor began singing the song and I could see both girls singing along. I fixed a few drinks constantly keeping my eye on them. I turned to tell Gary something when I heard a bunch of hollering. I turned to see the chunky bitch’s breasts flopping around. She was flashing the band and Trevor sure wasn’t turning away. I watched her head turn and look at me. That evil grin was flashing in my direction and I wanted to puke all over the bar. Shots five and six came back to back. Halley jumped up and confronted the girl. She slapped Halley in the face. Halley retaliated and slammed the girls head into the table. She put her shirt back on and backed off. I tried to leave my post and go meet Halley, it wasn’t working. My brain and my feet weren’t cooperating. I fell flat on my face when I tried to move. Scrambling to get back on my feet, I watched chunky walk out the door and I cheered silently on the inside. I win, always.

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I have no idea when the first set ended and the second began. I had taken too many shots and he never came up to me that night. We rode together so he’d have to talk to me. People were leaving and I pretty much assumed that it was time to close. Surprisingly I had done my job correctly. I didn’t want to hear Gary bitch at me for being irresponsible by downing drinks like they were water when I was working..

I could hear Marcus, Halley, and Trevor around the corner arguing. Dammit. Time to face the music. This wasn’t all Halley’s fault. She stepped in to help me.

“Halley what the hell was that all about? You’re lucky you didn’t get kicked out. You can’t just walk up to women and bash their face into the table. She could press charges.” Marcus practically had steam coming out of his ears. Trevor looked just as pissed but he wasn’t saying anything. He was waiting for me I know he was.

“Marcus it’s not like that hear me out....”

I walked up and cut her off. “Marcus, don’t blame her it’s my fault. She just did what I asked her to.” I refused to let Halley take the fall for this.

Marcus looked between the two of us and then back to Halley. “Is this true? Macy put you up to this?”

“Yes, Marcus I put her up to this,” I replied. Halley didn’t get to answer. She just nodded her head.

“Well then you two,” he pointed at me and Trevor, “need to talk. I don’t like getting in arguments with Halley because of you two. So whatever it is figure it out.” Halley mouthed she was sorry to me and he put his arm around her waist and they walked off.

I stood in front of Trevor too ashamed to look at him. Never did the consequences of my actions cross my mind. My hand reached for his and he moved his hand away from mine. Tears began forming and I blinked them back.

“Trevor, I uh..”

He was angry. “You what Macy? You screwed up? You embarrassed me? You’re drunk. You smell like you’ve bathed in it tonight. What is wrong with you?” He was practically yelling at me. No one yelled at me. No matter how much I screwed up, no one ever yelled. The tears I fought to hold in were now falling down my cheeks uncontrollably. I couldn’t speak, but I prayed my feet could move because right now I wanted nothing more than to run far away from here.

I spun on my heel to walk away but he grabbed my arm, trying to get me to stay. “Mace, talk to me. You’re not walking away from this conversation.”

“What do you want me to say Trevor? I screwed up ok. Shit happens. You weren’t exactly looking away from her tits. Go take her home since you enjoyed the show so much. I’m done.” I practically screamed at him to show him he’s not the only one who can yell.

“You’re done? You nearly cause a fight in the bar that your uncle owns and you’re done? Why did Halley and that girl fight? Answer me.”

I didn’t want him to know the truth but I spit it out, “Because she walked up to me at the bar like she owned the damn place and told me she was going to steal you away and I’d be yesterday’s news. I didn’t trust her then and I asked Halley to watch her for me. Then she flashed you and I watched you stare at her.”

“You think I want her? Just because she flashed me?” His tone sounded hurt but I didn’t care.

“Look my head is spinning because yes, as you put it I am drunk and I have been bathing in it because I couldn’t handle tonight.” My words were beginning to slur more than normal and I felt my legs almost turn to jello but I held my own.

“Why didn’t you just talk to me?”

“You were busy Trevor. Playing your songs.” I mocked an air guitar and he shot me a look. “I can’t just waltz onto the stage and pull you down when I have a problem. You can’t be there all the time. Look can we leave. I don’t want my uncle hearing everything and frankly I’m ready to go home.”

He grabbed my hand and we began walking. I stopped at the bar for one more shot on the way home. I needed it to finish numbing myself for the fight it seemed we were in for. He shot me an unhappy look but didn’t say anything. I’m pretty sure he knew better than to say anything to me at this point.

We rode home in absolute silence. Just as we were about to pull into the apartment he grabbed my hand and broke the silence, “You should have said something Macy. I can’t believe you’d even think I would want her.”

My brain kept going fuzzy. The shots were going to my head. Trevor just said something but I had no idea what he had said. All I know is we were still sitting in the car and I loved the way he looked in the dark car. If only I could really find which face was his, they all were looking alike right now. I climbed onto his lap and opened his mouth with my tongue. He hesitated then kissed me back. I nibbled his ear lobe and whispered, “Take me upstairs and make love to me.”

Like nothing, he opened the door still holding me. My legs wrapped around his waist, my lips kissing his neck and lips. He opened the door and laid me on the bed. He looked at me and said, “I hate fighting with you. I love you so much.”

“Oh yeah, show me.” I felt like a daredevil. I was burning with desire for him. I had to have him right now.

He fumbled around with the button of my skirt but I grabbed his hand and slid it underneath. He grinned and slid my black lace panties off then the skirt. I removed my shirt with ease. He took in my body with his eyes then let his mouth explore. I moaned in pleasure begging him to take me now but he took his time. My head continued to spin but I was swimming in so much pleasure I didn’t care. His breathing was ragged. He wouldn’t let me touch him. I wanted to touch him so bad. He slid his fingers inside me and I almost screamed. I moved with the rhythm trying to reach his jeans. Finally I got ahold of the button and I undid the zipper. I reached inside his jeans for his length and ran my hand up and down. He moaned and tried to kick his jeans off.

“Please Trevor, I want you.”

With ease he slid into me and I moaned in delight. He took his time with me savoring every inch of me. He felt so amazing inside me. We moaned in release together and he rolled on the side of me and kissed my forehead.

“Don’t ever doubt how much I love you.”

I kept telling myself I trusted him. More than anything. I just didn't trust her. She'd never been in The Lounge before and she waltzed in like she owned the place.

This was our first test and I about got Halley in trouble.

"I'm so sorry Trevor. Can you forgive me? I jumped to conclusions. I was just crazy jealous and scared I'd lose you. I can't lose you." Tears filled my eyes and I let them fall.

"Baby you won't lose me. Ever."

"Promise?"

"Cross my heart." He actually crossed his heard with his finger then held me.

I lay there content taking the whole moment in. He was everything to me. I couldn’t imagine what my life would be like without Trevor there. This was all surreal with him and there wasn’t a single moment that passed where I wasn’t absolutely thankful for him. His arms were my safe place. Within a few minutes I was sound asleep.