Chapter 10
I kept what I had seen to myself. It wasn’t my business to discuss it with Hannah, Meg and especially Jesse. He acted as if nothing had happened and treated me the same as he always did. It was probably embarrassing to him that I knew his father had gotten drunk that night. I would have been mortified if my mother had gotten publicly drunk. The look on his face, the pained expression said it all. I had to respect his privacy.
Dylan’s party was a couple of days away and I was dying to go. I had never gone to a real party before— the kind of party with kegs and bonfires, and most importantly, no adults. The last party I had been to was Chloe’s tenth birthday party. Going to a real party, the kind of party seen in movies, appealed to me. I was anxious and nervous at the same time. Going by myself was not an option. I asked Hannah and Meg to go with me. Hannah said no immediately stating that she wouldn’t be caught dead in Dylan’s house again and that I shouldn’t either. “Be careful, Finn,” she said. I didn’t want to pry about why she didn’t like Dylan. He seemed so approachable. I couldn’t imagine what happened between them that would make her hate him so much. Meg agreed to go with me. She wouldn’t admit it to me, but I knew she wanted to see Blake. His name usually came up in our conversations. They had been broken up for a few months but Meg still had strong feelings for him.
I sat on the bar stool, my elbows resting on the counter. The diner was quiet. I could hear the sounds from the dishwasher.
“Your soup will get cold,” my grandfather said, interrupting my deep thoughts.
“Huh, oh, I’m not that hungry,” I said suddenly aware of his presence. He stood behind the counter.
“You need to eat,” he ordered.
“Grandpa,” I said. It still felt awkward calling him that but he had insisted. It would have been more suitable to refer to as Mr. Hemmings or Grandfather but he wouldn’t have answered.
“Yes,” he said. He took a sip of his coffee.
“How long did my dad work here?” I asked.
He stopped drinking his coffee and put the cup down on the counter. He looked at me scratching his chin. It felt like several seconds had passed before he answered. “For a few years. He was a good cook and a lousy server. Don’t get me wrong. He was friendly with people, but he’d get so wrapped up talking to people, he’d forget to refill their drinks. Now cooking, that was what he was best at.” He chuckled lightly.
“What dishes did you like that he made?” I asked curiously.
“Oh, lots of them. His meatloaf was his best dish though,” he said, he took another sip of his coffee.
“He must have learned how to cook from you,” I said.
He laughed again. “Well, actually, he learned how to cook from your Nana,” he said looking directly at me.
“Really?” I said surprised.
“Yep. She’s quite a cook. But you wouldn’t know it. She stopped cooking long ago,” he said reflectively.
“Do I remind you of him?” I asked, hoping that some part of me was like him.
He looked at me, but was really looking beyond me, deep in thought. “A little,” he said quietly.
“How?” I wanted to know.
“When you set your mind to something, you do it.” He grinned and laughed quietly to himself. He patted me gently on the head and walked away. It was the first time he had ever shown affection for me. I didn’t mind it. He was a hard man to decipher. He was like an onion with layers and layers before anyone could get beneath the surface. I wondered if I would ever get to that point with him.
***
I waited impatiently for Meg to pick me up at my grandparents. It was the night of Dylan’s party and I was anxious. It was my first real party. I had told my grandparents where I was going and neither of them seemed to pleased about it. “Just be careful,” Nana said. She added, “Have you and your mother talked yet?” She wouldn’t let this go.
I sighed heavily. “I texted her that I was fine.”
“She must miss you,” Nana said.
“I’m sure she does. I’m not ready to talk to her yet. Can we let this be?” I asked, pleading for her to respect what I wanted.
She placed her arm around me. “I’m sorry, Finn. I don’t mean to boss you.”
“I know you mean well,” I said giving her a faint smile.
Meg beeped her car horn. “That’s her,” I said.
“Do you have money?” my grandfather asked.
“Yes,” I said.
“Be careful. Hannah dated that boy for a while. He’d come into the diner a lot and have this stupid smirk on his face all the time. There’s something about him I don’t like,” he said.
“Grandpa,” I said, trying not to roll my eyes. I walked outside and got into Meg’s car.
She tugged on my pony tail. “Finn, really,” she sounded exasperated.
“What?” I touched my hair feeling self conscious. I had made some effort to get dressed and thought I looked nice.
She shook her head, almost in disgust. “We’re stopping at my house before we go to Dylan’s party,” she said.
“It’s fine, really.” I said.
“No, it’s not. You cannot go looking like that.” She frowned pointing at my outfit.
I glanced down at my jeans and t-shirt. “What’s wrong with what I’m wearing?”
“Finn,” she shook her head. “Just trust me. This is obviously not your area of expertise,” she said almost condescendingly.
“Fine,” I acquiesced. She was right. Fashion was not my forte. It was hers.
***
I became Meg’s doll once again. She curled my hair, put make up on me and dressed me in a pair of skinny jeans and a light blue sleeveless shirt. I felt like a sausage as I was squeezed into the jeans. They were tight, almost unbearably tight.
“Fashion is pain sometimes, Finn,” she said showing me the red marks on her feet from her strappy high heels. I grimaced at the sight of them. “You look beautiful. If I had your hair and your skin,” she said not finishing her sentence.
I looked at her in disbelief. “Are you kidding me? You’re a goddess!” I envied Meg’s tanned skin and golden hair. Instead I was stuck with pasty white skin and auburn hair that was much more red than brunette.
“Ha, goddess,” she scoffed. She smirked to herself. “I’ve never been called that before but I could get used to it.”
I smiled. She smiled back at me and then looked at me, studying. “Finn, you should know you’re beautiful. I can tell you this, but it doesn’t matter if you don’t believe it.”
My face turned red, almost in embarrassment. I looked down, away from her. I had never thought of myself that way. It felt awkward to hear someone say it out loud to me. Meg put her hands on my shoulders and made me face the mirror.
“Believe it,” she looked at me in the reflection, her expression was confident. I smiled at her in return, too quickly. She knew it was not real.She sighed heavily and shrugged her shoulders. “Let’s go to this party. I want to make Blake regret the day he dumped me,” she said. “Cut the light will you,” she said.
On my way out of her bathroom, I looked at myself again in the mirror. I liked what I saw in the reflection. I felt my face and gently touched my hair. It was me, just one I had never known existed.
***
My instincts were right. Dylan definitely had a lot of money, more than enough to share with the entire town. We had to enter a gate to get to his house. He lived in a large, garish, ostentatious house that sat on top of a rolling hill with acres and acres of land surrounding it. The house itself was odd. It didn’t fit with the rest of the area. Most of the homes near it were small, older, and more common. His house screamed money and it seemed his family wanted everyone in the town to know it.
We parked on the grass, hundreds of feet away from his house. His yard was filled with cars. The party had barely started and he already had a full house. Walking in Meg’s cute but highly uncomfortable flats for hundreds of feet was excruciating. I complained, which fell on deaf ears. Meg told me to suck it up. I was tempted to take the shoes off and walk on my bare feet, but I knew I’d never hear the end of it.
There were large Corinthian columns outside the front of the house. Marble covered the entire front entrance. I looked up, seeing a large stained glass window with an image I couldn’t recognize. The house was a bad mix of elements that didn’t mesh. It made me think his parents had told the architect that they wanted every single thing they liked or admired in one home and no one was smart enough to challenge them on it. I had heard rich people could be strange. This was proof.
We walked inside his house: music blaring, and people talking. I could not hear myself think, let alone anything Meg said. The staircase was enormous. A large chandelier hung from the ceiling. The floor was checkered black and white. The inside of the house was just as bad as the outside, I thought to myself.
With all of the people in the house, I’m surprised I immediately spotted him. He was talking to some blonde haired girl, who was grinning from ear to ear, twirling her hair with one hand, touching his arm with another. “There’s Dylan,” I said to Meg.
“What’d I tell you? Player,” she said and rolled her eyes.
My eyes plead with her to stop. I looked over at him again. This time he saw me. He smiled and starting walking my way. “Here he comes. Don’t say anything,” I said to her.
“I’m going to be sick,” Meg mumbled sarcastically.
“Hey,” he said.
“Hi.”
Meg rolled her eyes at us. “I’m going to get a drink. You two can gawk at each other all night,” she said and left us alone.
Dylan looked at me. “I’m glad you came.” He brushed his hand lightly against my arm, the same move that the blonde had done to him.
My heart beat rapidly. “Thanks for inviting me. You’re popular,” I said gesturing to all of the people in the house.
He shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know half these people. They hear there’s a party with alcohol and they show up.” We stood in silence for a few seconds. “Do you want a drink?” he asked.
“If you’re getting one,” I said without thinking. I had never had a drink in my entire life and wanted to know what the hype was about.
“I’ll be right back. Don’t leave,” he said and touched my shoulder, rubbing it gently. I stood there watching people. Some were talking, others were dancing. Some were making out. I tried not to stare at them all. I felt awkward, standing there alone. He handed me a drink. I took a sip and made a disgusted face. He laughed.
“This is strong,” I said. My throat was burning. It didn’t taste like soda. It was strange tasting, strong and definitely not good.
“You’ll get used to it,” he said. I didn’t know how I would ever get used to something that tasted this bad. He took several long sips of his drink. Even though my brain told me not to, I imitated him, taking long, hard swallows of the disgusting stuff. My head told me to stop, to quit being so stupid. I tuned out all reason and kept drinking despite my better judgment.
“So, do you want to go where it’s more quiet?” he asked.
“Okay,” I said and followed him upstairs. He took a key out of his pocket and unlocked the door. I looked at him confused.
“I lock all the bedrooms. Otherwise people would use them as their personal motel. And this place, as you can see, is not a cheap motel,” he smiled and opened the door. We walked into his bedroom. It was immaculate, too clean for a boy.
“It’s so clean,” I said looking around. The furniture was all modern and shiny black, the walls a dark gray. I looked at the pictures on the wall. Most of them were baseball and wrestling pictures. Trophies adorned his bookshelf. I studied the books on his shelf; most of them required summer reading with the exception of a few sports biographies. We definitely did not have our reading choices in common. He came up from behind me.
“I’m not into reading,” he said.
I turned to face him. Our faces inches apart. My heart beat rapidly. This was the first time I had ever been alone with a boy in his bedroom. He put his hand behind my neck and moved me closer to him. Slowly his lips touched mine. He kissed me quickly on the lips. He let go of me and smiled.
“You have nice lips,” he said. “They’re soft.”
I turned red, my face flushed. “Thanks,” I said. I didn’t know how to respond to that aside from the fact that it was an obvious observation. All lips were soft weren’t they?
“It’s so much better hanging out with you up here. We actually get the chance to talk,” he said.
“It’s hard to hear anything down there,” I said. The music blared in the background. My head was beginning to spin. I felt a little dizzy.
“Do you want another drink?” he asked.
“Sure,” I said, mad at myself for saying so. I knew better but chose stupidity over reason.
“I’ll be right back. Don’t let anyone else in,” he said and then closed the door.
I walked around his room, snooping, trying to catch a glimpse of him. I was trying to find the common thread we shared, to see what attracted me to him besides his good looks. We didn’t read the same books and I was not interested in sports. Deep down under, I hated to admit to myself that his good looks were the quality I liked best about him. I had become another one of those girls and it bothered me.
He tapped lightly on the door. “Finn,” he whispered. I opened the door. He had a beer bottle under his arm and a cup in one hand. He gave me the cup then shut the door behind him. He opened the beer and took a huge gulp. Then he sat down on the bed.
I took a sip of my drink. It was just a gross as the first drink. I made a disgusted face.
He patted the bed. “Come sit next to me,” he said.
I sat down next to him. He drank the rest of his beer. “You drank that fast,” I said.
He laughed. “You need to drink yours,” he said referring to my nearly full cup.
“It’s not easy to drink fast,” I said. I took a huge gulp, the back of my throat burned. I drank again, leaving the cup nearly empty. My body felt warm and the room was definitely spinning.
“Are you okay?” he asked.
“I just need to lie down for a minute,” I said handing him the cup. He took the last sip and put the cup on his desk. He plopped down next to me. We lay silently for a few minutes. The room kept spinning.
“You don’t drink much do you?” he asked.
“No,” I hiccuped and then laughed. He laughed with me. He was suddenly so funny. Things were blurry and the room felt like it was moving. I turned to face him. He looked at me and then moved me closer toward him and began kissing me. His breath smelled of beer and cigarettes. The taste was making me sick. I wanted to stop kissing him. His mouth was full of saliva, his tongue was jammed into my mouth. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. His hand started moving up my shirt. I pushed it away. He laughed and kissed me again. He placed his hand under my shirt again. I pushed it away, hoping he would stop. The more we kissed, the more repulsed I became. He placed his hand on my chest and touched my breast. I instantly moved it away. “No,” I said annoyed.
“Oh come on. You’re being uptight. Loosen up,” he whispered to me. He placed his hand on my shirt and began unbuttoning the top button. I pushed his hand away, this time harder.
“Cut it out,” I said assertively, more angrily. I sat up. He sighed heavily and got up off the bed.
“You’re a tease,” he said glaring at me. “You came up to my bedroom. What’d you expect? That we’d talk, hold hands and sing camp songs? Grow up. This isn’t play school, Finn,” he said.
“I expected you to be a nice guy but I was wrong,” I said. I got off of the bed, glaring at him. My head was still spinning and still felt dizzy. I started walking toward his door.
He stood in front of the door, blocking me from leaving. “You don’t go into a guy’s bedroom unless you want sex. God, you’re naive,” he said condescendingly and with contempt.
My eyes watered. “I should have listened to Meg,” I said. “You’re a real jerk. Move out of my way!” I shouted at him. He rolled his eyes at me and threw his arms up in the air. I slammed the door. He shouted something back at me, but I couldn’t hear him. I tried walking steadily down the stairs, but it was too difficult. I almost fell twice. My balance was off from the alcohol. I was still dizzy and things were not clear. I had to find Meg. I wanted go home immediately.
I wasn’t so out of it that I didn’t know where I was or what I was doing. I searched the crowds, trying to find her. She was on the couch, making out with Blake. I stared at her shocked and then tapped her on her shoulder.
“Meg,” I said clearing my throat.
She stopped kissing Blake and laughed. “What Finny?” she asked strangely. She was drunk.
“I want to go home,” I said, my eyes were still wet.
“Just wait a while,” she said and started kissing Blake again.
“We’re getting reacquainted,” Blake added. He starting kissing her again, ignoring my presence.
“Meg,” I nearly shouted.
“What?” she asked annoyed.
“I want to go home now,” I said. I held onto my head, trying to control the spin.
She laughed. “Oooh, Finny’s mad,” she said pinching my nose. I shooed her away.
“You can’t drive us home. Call Hannah and ask her to pick us up,” I said, this time with more authority.
She ignored me and began kissing Blake again. I grabbed her purse and took out her cell phone, searching for Hannah’s number.
“Hannah, it’s Finn. Meg and I drank too much. Can you come pick us up?”
“I can’t. Matt and I are at his grandparents. They live over an hour away. Call Jesse. You and Meg should know better,” she said getting the last word in. I didn’t respond. I hung up the phone and looked for Jesse’s number.
“Hello,” he answered groggily.
“Jesse,” I said urgently.
“Who’s this?” he asked. He sounded tired.
“It’s Finn. Meg’s drunk and I had too much to drink to drive us home. Can you come pick us up at Dylan’s party?” I hiccuped loudly. I heard him sigh with exasperation. I waited for him to answer.
He sighed again this time more heavily. “Why didn’t you call Hannah?” he asked.
“I did. She told me to call you,” I said a little annoyed.
“Fine. I’ll be there in fifteen minutes,” he said reluctantly.
“Thanks,” I said hanging up.
***
It felt like forever, not fifteen minutes. Dylan had made his way downstairs and in the arms of another girl by the time Jesse arrived. Jesse was dressed in an old t-shirt and jeans, his hair disheveled. He was searching the room for us. He looked disgusted, like it was the last place he wanted to be. I waved at him to get his attention. He saw me and walked toward me.
“Where’s Meg?” he asked curtly.
“I tried to get her to stay out here with me. She and Blake went upstairs.” I felt helpless.
He rolled his eyes. “She doesn’t think. Come on,” he said grabbing my hand helping me off the couch. The room wasn’t spinning as much. He walked urgently up the stairs and banged on the doors while shouting her name. I heard her giggle from one of the rooms.
“Jesse. She’s in there,” I said pointing to the door. He reached for the door knob. Of course it was locked.
“Meg, open the door!” he yelled.
“Get the hell out of here!” Blake shouted. “We’re busy,” he added. Meg giggled.
Jesse ran toward the door, using all of his strength and shoved it open. His face was red. He was angry. Meg was scarcely dressed and looked at me incoherently.
“You’re a real dick for hitting on a drunk girl,” Jesse said.
“It was mutual,” he said. “She wants it, don’t you Meg,” he said in a creepy, soothing voice.
“Doesn’t look that way to me. You’re not drunk and she is. How’s that mutual?” Jesse asked getting closer to him, his fist balled.
I put Meg’s shirt back on her and tried waking her. “Jesse, she just passed out,” I said shaking her.
He walked over to me and picked her up with little effort, tossing her over his shoulder. “You and your rich a*shole friends think you can treat everyone else like they’re nothing. But you’re the one who is a piece of shit. I don’t know what Meg sees in you,” he said loudly, his head shaking in disgust.
“Whatever,” he said arrogantly, blowing off what Jesse had said, as if his opinion didn’t matter. “You’ll be working for people like me the rest of your life. Just like your loser drunk dad,” Blake said with a smirk.
Jesse walked over to him, Meg still dangling over his shoulder. His fists were balled, his facial expression furious. Blake looked afraid. He suddenly cowered, scared of Jesse’s reaction. I thought Jesse was going to hit him. I wanted Jesse to hit him and I don’t know why. It was a low comment, lower than low, that didn’t need to be said.
“It doesn’t matter who I work for, money can never buy you respect from anyone,” Jesse said jabbing his finger into Blake’s chest. He looked at me, still angry but a little more controlled and said, “Finn, let’s go.” I obsequiously followed him out of the room. He slammed the door and walked down the stairs.
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