“You were a great brother to him, Kai, and I know you feel guilty over what happened but I don’t believe he could’ve ever been mad at you for a second.”
“I don’t know. When everything was explained, sure, I believe that he understood there was nothing I could’ve done or I would’ve done it. But I fixed things, always had. I was the one that mended his toys and took his floating fish to the vet and brought it back healthy. When Mum told him he had poorly blood he said…” Clenching his jaw, he blinked hard and took a deep breath. “He said ‘that’s okay, Kai will fix it’ and I’d never felt so utterly helpless as I did in that moment. I knew then that he wouldn’t make it. I could fix most things but I couldn’t fix his blood.”
The pain in his voice cut me open. My heart hurt for him. I wiped a tear, unsure of what to say. It was so unfair that Isaac lost his life; he was just a child.
Guilt over what you couldn’t control was something I had first-hand experience with, so I couldn’t preach too much to him and make myself a hypocrite.
“I’m sorry, Kai,” I whispered, swallowing the ache in my chest. “It was a horrible, terrible and devastating situation.”
“Yeah,” he replied, bringing us to a stop.
“Tegan, I love that you’re here and that you want to talk about Isaac and help but can we please talk about something else. I just… I need to not think about it for a bit.”
I hugged him because he broke my heart. The way he held on to me made me ache for him. “We can talk about whatever you like.”
Burying his head in my hair, he replied, “Thank you, princess.”
He pulled back abruptly and covered his mouth over mine, kissing me fiercely and fisting my hair. I gasped into the kiss and wrapped my arms around him once the initial shock had worn off.
His mouth was urgent, tongue practically fucking my mouth. I was all worked up and ready to screw his brains out in under ten seconds. “Kai,” I said as he broke out of the kiss to lick and bite my neck.
He groaned and lifted me with one arm, sinking us to the floor. Jesus. I was left straddling his hips and hyperventilating on the forest floor as his lips and teeth grazed over the sensitive skin below my ear.
“Kai, what’re you doing?”
He groaned and pressed his forehead against mine. His eyes were wild. “I need you, Tegan,” he whispered before kissing me again. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pressing my body against his.
Kai wasn’t in the mood to take things slow, he got to work on my jeans, undoing the button and tugging until I stood up. He slid them down my legs and sat up straighter, holding my hips as I tried to sit back down.
Shaking his head, he said, “I want to taste you.”
My legs trembled at the thought and I felt like I would spontaneously combust, which, let’s face it, would be disastrous in the woods. My thong was the next thing to go. Kai peeled it off, trailing his fingers over my skin as he went. His touch had my head rolling back.
“Kai,” I whimpered. The cool air felt amazing against my overheated body. His lips connected with my inner thigh and I moaned. “Please.” Two minutes ago he was out of control and now he was torturing me.
He licked up my leg and attached his mouth to my clit. Crying out at the sudden pressure of his tongue, I arched my hips into his face and gripped his hair. If he kept that up I was going to collapse soon.
I ached almost instantly, desperate with the need to come. His tongue lapped at me, swirling around the bud and dipping into my core. I burned. Fucking burned. I was so close and had totally lost all control I had, moaning loudly without shame and meeting every thrust of his tongue.
“Kai,” I said. “Fuck.” My body shook. He sucked on my clit and I came apart on his mouth, clenching around his tongue as he rode out my orgasm.
The very second I let go of his hair he ripped open the zip on his jeans and got them down. Not taking his eyes off me, he pumped into my hand with wild eyes. Jesus, that was so hot.
“Come here,” he said. His voice was so low and so husky it didn’t even sound like him. He continued pumping until I’d straddled his hips and he guided himself inside. His eyes rolled back and I moaned as he filled me. I bit my lip, still oversensitive from coming just seconds ago.
“You feel so good,” he said and kissed me again. One of his hands was in my hair, tugging lightly while the other wrapped around my back and guided me to the rhythm he wanted – fucking fast. I raised my hips up and slammed down as he pulled me onto him.
I bucked harder as I felt another orgasm building. Kai groaned into my mouth and thrust his tongue inside, fighting against my own. His fingertips bit into my scalp and hip. It didn’t hurt, it would probably bruise but it felt oh-so bloody amazing. Tearing my mouth away from his, I cried out as my orgasm hit me like a tidal wave, washing over me again and again.