I flinched self-consciously when he lifted the side of my shirt just enough to slide his hand underneath it. His fingers moved over my skin slowly as I permitted him to explore me in ways I hadn’t allowed anyone to do before. Strange and unfamiliar sensations flowed through me and I didn’t want him to stop. With ease, he reached behind my back and unfastened my bra to make my body more accessible, and I didn’t try to stop him.
It was beginning to feel like our clothes were a hindrance. Without a second thought, I pulled my hand free and removed AJ’s shirt. The brief interruption didn’t slow us down. In fact, my advances had inspired AJ as well. He gripped the hem of my shirt and gently pulled it over my head, tossing it to the front seat. My lips were on his again and the anxiety began to fade a little, but came back full force when he backed away for a moment and took off his pants and then the boxer shorts he wore underneath, completely exposing himself to me. I was speechless and I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. He sat back and watched me as I appreciated what was before me – this being the first time I’d ever had the pleasure of seeing the nude body of a man in person. My chest heaved up and down as I allowed myself to look at every inch of his physique without turning away.
A few seconds passed and I was finally able to look him in the eyes again. When I did, I knew that I was ready. So, I lay back on the seat and took a deep breath while I waited for him to take off what little clothing I still had on. My heart was racing a mile a minute, and when he laid on me and pressed his chest to mine, I could feel that his was too. His body heat was radiating through me and I’d almost forgotten how cold it was outside.
This was really about to happen. Soon, I’d be immersed in passion like I’d never experienced, and I knew that I’d found the right person to share this moment with. AJ was more than a crush or a boyfriend to me. Even at my age, I knew deep down in my heart that I’d never feel this way about anyone else in my entire life. He filled a place in my heart that I hadn’t even realized was empty. And now that he had, I couldn’t understand how I’d ever lived without him. That’s why this felt right.
Our eyes locked on one another and AJ took a deep breath that he didn’t intend to exhale right away. I shuddered unwillingly and sucked in uneven gasps of air the first time he eased in. A few seconds passed before I was able to calm myself. AJ stared down at me caringly and gave me a chance to catch my breath before starting again. I imagined that it wasn’t easy for him to be this gentle, but he was patient for my sake. Every single one of my senses was consumed by him. AJ was all I could hear, see, taste……or feel.
“Am I hurting you?” He whispered breathlessly into my ear.
I pressed my face against his cheek and softly replied, “No,” after finally regaining the ability to speak.