Withering Tights

Chapter 15

He’s like a wild animal

A winking, snogging, wild animal

As we walked along Honey said, “They’re vewy thexy in a no good way.”

I looked back to see Cain looking back at me. Then he did a clicking sound and one of the village girls, I think she’s called Beverley, came out of the shadows. She got hold of Cain’s arm.

Cain shouted out, “Night-night girls, don’t do nowt I wouldn’t do.” And he laughed.

Ruby said, “That Beverley has been forbidden ever to see Cain since the last time.”

Honey said, “What happened?”

Ruby said, “Well, she was right keen on Cain and he, you know…”

We all went “What???”

Ruby said, “Well, he snogged her and that, and then she was all keen, and he gave her a ring and so she started telling folk they were engaged.”

Vaisey said, “What happened then?”

Ruby said, “Beverley turned up at one of The Jones’s gigs and Cain were with someone else.”

Jo said, “What, she just turned up? He didn’t say anything? What did she do?”

Ruby said, “She went down to the river and she threw herself in it.”

We all went, “Oh my God.”

Vaisey said, “Did she drown?”

And we all looked at her. Then she realised and went a bit red. She said, “What did happen?”

Ruby said, “Well, the river was only a few inches deep, so she sat down in it and ruined her frock, and that were abaht it. But she went to bed and wept for weeks, and that. Her dad were livid and started a family row with the Hinchcliffs, and she’s not to speak to Cain again.”

Cain is a bounder and a cad.





When we reached the Dobbins’ house, Jo, Flossie, Vaisey and Honey decided to try and, accidentally on purpose, find the boys. They were going to have a look round to see if they were playing snooker in the village hall or having a game of football.

I said, “My legs are tired after all that trotting. I think I will hit the hay.”

Flossie gave my head a little squeeze.

“That was very nearly a joke.”

Ruby said to me, “What? What about the eggs?”

I said, “Maybe tomorrow.”

She said, “Huh. I’ll come with you lot, then.”

Vaisey said kindly, “It’s a bit late, Rubes, and I don’t want your dad on my case.”

So Ruby went grumbling off home to play with Matilda and her new squeaky bone. That Matilda is scared of

As they left, Jo had one last go at persuading me.

“Ben or – Charlie might be there.”

I was too fed up. I said, “No. I would love to, but I think I have pulled a fetlock.”

I went in back to the Dobbins’ house. They were still out. The last time I had seen them, they were telling the rough lads from the pub about their skipping rope. And Harold had his special Christmas pipe out.

I went up to my squirrel room.

I sat in my squirrel room.

Looking at my horsie legs.

What a night.

I love my new friends, but they can do stuff. And they are not all weird and self-conscious like me. Like Vaisey. Even though her whole head was painted blue and she was charging about in bits of old rag, she enjoyed it. And Honey sang in a lovely voice, and Jo waggled her sword about and slapped the audience with it. And Flossie, well Flossie was just Flossie…

And Ben hasn’t sent me a note or anything. Even though he did jabby-tongue business. That seems a bit rude.

I wish Matilda was here, trying to get up into my bed.

I may as well get in it myself, there’s nothing else to do.

I even broke my rule about not being childish and put the squirrel slippers next to me. Because they were soft and furry.

I wrote in my performance art notebook:





I feel all hot and restless.

I feel like there is some big mystery I don’t know about.

Some thing, wild, rising up inside me.

Calling to me.

Maybe I’ve got a touch of the Wuthering Heights.

Out on the moors,

The lonely moors,

I roll around in sheep poo.

Heathcliff, it’s youuuuu,

I hate you, I love you tooooo.

Let me in, I’m here, it’s meeeee,

Catheeeeeeee.

Look out of your windooooow.





I got up to look out of the window towards Grimbottom. That could have been named for Heathcliff. Maybe I’ll read the book Harold gave me, Heathcliff: Saint or Sinner?

Um. The first chapter is about him being an orphan.

Well, I’m practically an orphan, but I don’t go round setting dogs on people and shouting. And being mean. In fact, Matilda likes me very much. I am a tall doggie treat to her.

Boys don’t like me, though.

Ooooohhhhh. I can’t concentrate on Heathcliff. I’m too hot and bothered. Where’s the James Bond book that Dad gave me? Here it is.

Now where did I get to?

Oh yes. In Jamaica, it’s the bit where Honeychile is so hot and the fans are going round and round in the hotel room. And the waves are crashing against the shore. And so Honeychile took off all her clothes and stood by the window. Yes, this is the good bit.





Bond went across to her and took a breast in each hand. But still she looked away from him out of the window.

“Not now,” she said in a low voice.

How does that work? Is that what you’re supposed to do? Should I have said “Not now” to Ben?

If I act it out, I might get an idea of what it feels like.

I won’t take off my jim-jams, I will just imagine that bit.

Although it’s hard to imagine someone putting their hands over my corkers as I haven’t really got any.

Maybe if I put socks down the front of my jim-jams that would be more like corkers. Yes, but then I wouldn’t know what it felt like to have a hand over each one.

Maybe, if I put the socks on my hands, that would give me more of an idea.

I’ll use my big thick hiking ones.

OK.

Right, I am walking in a sexy way to the window. Phew, I am hot. I am imagining the Caribbean Sea crashing against the shed at the bottom of the garden. James Bond coming over to me. He is putting a hand over each breast. Oooh, the hiking socks are a bit prickly. I am looking away from him out of the window. I am saying, “Not now…”

Oh, dear Virgin Mary and all her cohort, there is someone down there looking up at me!!! I bobbed down beneath the windowsill.

The light was on in my room.

Had they seen me fondling myself with hiking socks??

I stayed absolutely still.

Perhaps they hadn’t seen anything and were just looking at owls or…

A voice shouted up. “Have you gone all shy now? Why don’t tha come out and play with me?”

And a girl’s voice further away said, “You think you’re something.”

And the boy said, “Correction, love, I KNOW I’m something. I’m Cain Hinchcliff.”





When I was sure they had gone off I went and shut the window. For about twenty minutes, I lay on my bed. Those Hinchcliffs are not like anyone I’ve ever met before. Cain is wild. Not like a human being, more like an animal in trousers. He will love this. It’s like he gets pleasure from being bad. He’ll probably make up a song about it, like poor Beverley.

Just then, something banged against my window.

Someone was throwing stones against it.

He was back.

Bloody Cain.

He thinks he’s so funny.

But he’s not.

Well, I’m just in the mood for the big lairy lug. I’ve got nothing else to lose. He’s seen me in my horsie legs and now, rubbing my corkers with hiking socks. What else can he do to me?

I went to the window and opened it and shouted down, “Where do you get your kicks…casualty?”

And Charlie said, “Er…no. I have come in friendship to worship the knees. Come down.”





Gadzooks. I looked at myself in the mirror. Oh, what the bejesus could I do about myself?

Take my pyjamas and the socks off, for one thing. I did that and I put my jeans and a T-shirt on. And shook my hair about.

When I opened the front door, Charlie was slouching against the garden gate. He looked really cool. He’s lovely looking. And I realised how glad I was to see him again. It had been a bit awkward last time, thinking about why he didn’t come to the cinema. But he must like me as a friend if he has specially come round to see me. So I beamed at him. And he did a mega grin back.

He said, “You’ve covered the knees and I specially came to see them. Can I just feel one? To get the impression of knee.”

He was making me laugh.

I said, “OK. Just a quick feel, though.”

He said, “Bend your leg up, like you are a horsie standing on one leg.”

I said, “They told you, didn’t they?”

He said, “Who? What? Oh yeah, go on then, they did tell me. They’re over by the bus stop wagging about. Show us your horse costume.”

“No.”

“Well, describe Sugar Plum Bikey to me then.”

I was outraged.

“They have broken the rule of—”

Charlie said, “The Tree Sisters?”

“Yes, yes, the Tree Sisters’ rule.”

Charlie reached down and touched my knee.

I said, “Ouch.”

He said, “Whoaaa, that’s better. I can feel myself full of a strange energy. I normally only get it when the headmaster sees me win the six-mile run and he knows that I haven’t been in it.”





I suddenly felt a bit shy. I don’t know why. I mean, Charlie and I were friends, he’d made that clear, hadn’t he? So I should just be friendly.

But I’ve never had a boy who was a friend before. What is friendly? Oh, I know.

“Do you want to see some owl eggs?”

He looked at me.

“Do I want to see some owl eggs?? Do I want to see some owl eggs?”

I was looking at him.

He was going on. “Who wouldn’t want to see some owl eggs?”

I said, “Come on then, they are down here.”

He said, “Tallulah, the answer to who wouldn’t want to see some owl eggs is…me!!!!”

I said, “Really?”

And he looked at me.

“You’re serious, aren’t you, you are genuinely thrilled that you have found some owl eggs?”

I nodded. I felt really stupid now.

And he smiled.

“Come on then, you crazy-kneed girl.”

And we set off down the track to find the eggs.





When we went into the barn, the door creaked back. And in the gloom we could see a glow of whiteness. The eggs were lying there, all white and weird. They looked like they were a bit cracked. I hope Connie hadn’t sat on them too hard. I also hoped she wasn’t around anywhere. It is quite spooky in the barn and a whistling wind blew up from nowhere. Whining in the beams.

Charlie said, “Yes, they are definitely eggs.”

I could hardly see his face in the dark of the barn.

What a night I had had: Mummers play, corker rubbing, and now Charlie turning up and me bringing him to look at eggs.

I said, “It’s a bit odd, isn’t it? Me and the knees, and showing you the eggs. I’m sorry I’m so odd and…odd.”

Charlie said, “You’re not odd…you’re great, I think.”

And he sounded like he meant it.

I could hardly believe it.

I’ve never had anyone, well, a boy person, say that to me before.

I felt like singing my little song. But I know now to resist the call of ‘Hiddly diddly diddle’.

Charlie came nearer to me.

“Lullah, things can be quite, erm…complicated in life, can’t they? You know, it’s not just you.”

Was now the time for the Irish dancing?

Just then there was the most horrible screech, and something swooped low and brushed against my face. I was so shocked, I actually grabbed Charlie. Like in a really crap film.

Oh, it was so scary. In fact, it was Connie. Come to check on her eggs. I could hear her chuntering and screeching up in the eaves of the barn.

And suddenly I burst into tears.

Everything in my body seemed to just dissolve into tears.

Charlie said, “It’s alright, Lullah, it’s not going to hurt you. It’s just checking on the eggs. Come on.” And he got hold of my hand and took me outside.

He looked so kind and caring in the moonlight, and sort of handsome and brave.

Like Mr Darcy.

Maybe he would pick me up and carry me home. In his breeches.

And for a second, he just looked at me. Then he put his hand under my chin. And stroked my cheek with his other hand.

Cheek stroking! Did that come before snogging? Oh my God. Was this my second kiss???

But he didn’t kiss me, he said, “If I’d known that you were going to the cinema, I might have come. And that would have been stupid.”

What did that mean?

And then he looked at his watch and said, “Come on, otherwise I get the usual thrashing from the headmaster, if I’m late.”

As we walked along, I felt shaky and strange.

To fill in the gaps I said, “I don’t think you are allowed to beat school kids any more, it’s against the Geneva Convention and European Euro thing.”

He laughed and said, “Lullah, you’ve not seen our headmaster. I am taller than he is. And I’ve got more legs.”

More legs?

When we got to the Dobbins’ gate, he gave my arm a little squeeze and said, “See you soon.” And he went off into the night.

I was just going through the gate when he came back again.

“Lullah, I…”

I didn’t know what to say. I said, “Oh.”

He said, “Yep.”

I said, “OK, well, good.”

And we looked at each other, and then he said, “Night, night.”

What did that mean?





I woke up dreaming about Mrs Rochester cantering around my bedroom and then realised that the horsie legs were draped over the end of my squirrel bed.

I had my breakfast and sat on the wall, waiting for Ruby to come out of The Blind Pig. I am not keen to go in there after last night and the Mummers play. Already, one of the regular lads in the darts team has passed me by, neighing. Uh-oh, Mr Barraclough has seen me, he will have a field day. He did.

He said, “Ay up, I’ll just go get thee an apple, my beauty. Now don’t you poo on my front path.”

Oh, this is appalling.

Ruby came skipping out like a whirlwind with Matilda. When she saw me, she started jumping up and down.

“They’re here, they’re here! The owlets. Hooray! Hooray! Say ‘hooray’, Matilda. Say ‘hooray’, like I taught thee at obedience class.”

Matilda lay on her back and looked up at me with her lovely buggy eyes. She put her legs in the air.

I said, “Is that hooray?”

Ruby said, “Aye, she’s so excited, she’s had to have a bit of a lie down.”

I gave Matilda a big scratch on her tummy and she quivered like a jelly dog.

Ruby was chatting on. “I’ve called them Ruby and Lullah. Do you like the names? One of them is bigger than the other and it’s got reet long gangly legs, so I thought that one should be thee.”

I laughed at her, but I’m secretly loving it that she called the owlets after me and her.

We went down the back way to the barn and opened the door really carefully, shielding ourselves from Connie, if we needed to.

Ruby said, “We’ll just peep in and scarper. That was what I did this morning.”

I yelled, “Yarrooooo!” But nothing happened. So we went over to the corner where the eggs were, but they weren’t eggs any more, they were living, breathing owlets!!!!

Oh, I love them.

Ruby picked one of them up gently and said, “Do you see what I mean about Lullah’s legs?”

I said, “Yes.”

I felt a big surge of love for little Lullah. She was cheeping and blind and had gangly legs. I said to Ruby, “I am going to become like a big sister to them and always look out for them, and defend them against…”

Ruby said, “Right big mice?”

She was grinning through her gap teeth. Then she held little Ruby down for Matilda to sniff. Little Ruby cheeped and Matilda nearly fell over backwards, and raced for the door.

I started laughing, but then I said, “Maybe Matilda has used her dog hearing, and knows that Connie is coming back.”

Ruby started to say, “Dog hearing? I got in her dog basket once when she was snoozing and she didn’t even—” Then something creaked, and we shoved the owlets back in the nest and legged it for the door.





As we jogged away from the barn, Ruby said, “Any more lad stuff? Did the lasses track down the Woolfe lads?”

I said, “Yes, but something funny happened to me when I went home. I was—”

And I was just about to tell her about the Charlie incident when Ruben came strolling by with his pigs. Matilda ran away from Smoky and Streaky.

Ruben winked and said, “Ay up, Rube.”

And she said, “Ay up, Rube.”

And we both laughed.

It was water off a duck’s back to Ruben. He said, “Either of you fancy a snog, as I’m doing nowt?”

Ruby said, “Yeah, that would be great, wouldn’t it, Tallulah?”

Pardon?

Ruben said, “Really?”

And Ruby said, “Oh, look there’s a pink pig, can you see it, up there in the sky?”

As he sloped off, clicking his fingers, she said, “All of the Hinchcliffs have been like that since they were about two.”

At which point we noticed Cain, sitting on a gate sucking on a piece of grass.

Ruby said, “What’s he up to?”

I said quickly, “Why don’t we have a proper run for a bit?”

Too late. Cain saw us and shouted over, “Alright, girls? Going to play with tha dollies? Or have tha got something else to play with?”

I do officially hate him.

I turned my back on him and started walking on, but then Ruby said, “Oh my God, this time he’s done it.”

I looked round and he was snogging a girl. What was news about that?

I said to Ruby, “That Beverley girl wants her head testing.”

Ruby said, “It’s not Beverley.”

And it wasn’t.

Ruby said, “It’s Seth’s girlfriend.”