‘He’s upset.’ Alicia went to Justin, placing a hand on his arm.
‘Upset? Jesus!’ Justin pulled his arm away, looking at Taylor in bemusement. ‘You know what,’ he said, after a second, his expression somewhere between cynical and bitterly disappointed, ‘I think getting “aggressive” might just help, actually. Then again, maybe you’re right. I mean, my son being murdered and my daughter going missing is hardly worth getting upset about, is it? I tell you what, why don’t we go shopping instead, hey, Alicia?’ he suggested flatly. ‘Or maybe we could catch up with a few old “work colleagues” for a drink. What do you think?’
‘Justin!’ His words cutting her to the bone, Alicia called after him as he strode out, shaking his head at Jessica who was standing in the hall, looking alarmed.
I’m sorry! She wanted to scream, to break down right there, right then. But she didn’t deserve his forgiveness. She’d ripped his life apart, thrown everything he’d ever given her – his love, his commitment – right back in his face.
Desperate, feeling utterly anchorless without him, powerless to help him, she stayed where she was as Justin slammed through the front door.
Thirty
SOPHIE
‘Nice pad,’ Sophie said, glancing around the open-plan living area. It was a brand-new Central Plaza apartment, decorated in white and greys, with a hardwood floor, great globular chrome lights and a huge L-shaped leather sofa. It must have cost a bomb.
‘It is pretty cool, isn’t it?’ Paul said, closing the front door and nodding her on in. ‘It has a residents’ gymnasium, twenty-four-hour concierge service and a fantastic view over the city centre. Not mine, unfortunately. I’m flat-sitting for a friend.’
‘Ah. Nice friend,’ Sophie commented, her eyes boggling at the size of the flat-screen TV, which had to be seventy-five inches at least.
‘There are plenty of flats available though. Out of most people’s price range, I guess. The building’s still practically empty. I might buy one when I move back from Dubai.’ Paul followed her awestruck gaze thoughtfully. ‘With a bedroom decorated to your specifications, of course – assuming you’d like to stay over occasionally?’
‘Yeah, maybe,’ Sophie said, smiling in his direction.
Looking pleased, Paul smiled back. He really did seem all right. She’d been a bit worried when he’d suggested she crash at his – she’d never met him before, after all, and weird stuff happened – but she’d figured she was safe when he’d turned up with a bag of chips, looking like a nervous schoolkid. Handsome, but definitely nervous.
‘What do you fancy?’ he said, walking over to a table lined with so many bottles of booze that Sophie’s eyes boggled all over again.
‘Something seriously strong,’ she said, ‘but I’d better not. Mum and Dad would go ballistic.’ Realising what she’d said, Sophie dropped her gaze. She was missing home already. Missing Luke so much, she didn’t think her heart would ever stop hurting.
‘How about a small wine?’ Paul suggested. ‘I promise I won’t tell if you don’t.’
Sophie nodded, but kept her gaze fixed down.
‘Hey.’ Paul walked across to her, placing a hand on her shoulder as her eyes filled up. ‘It can’t be that bad, can it?’
Sophie sniffed hard and dragged a hand under her nose. ‘It’s my fault,’ she blurted. ‘What happened with Justin. It’s my fault.’ She hadn’t told Paul that Justin had found out he wasn’t her dad – somehow she’d felt she would be betraying him – but she’d told him some of what had happened in the Bull Ring. ‘I shouldn’t have run. I should have at least gone back and told them it wasn’t what they were thinking. Do you think they might have called the police?’
‘I very much doubt it.’ Paul smiled reassuringly. ‘And, in any case, Justin’s an articulate man. He would have soon put them right.’
Sophie shrugged. ‘I suppose.’
Paul reached to ease her chin up. ‘I have no idea why you would think any of this is your fault, you know,’ he said gently, his smile now bemused. ‘The problem is your mother, not you.’
Gulping hard, Sophie nodded. He didn’t have the whole picture, but he was right. She’d done nothing wrong except be born. Lately, she’d been wishing that she hadn’t been.
‘Do you want me to drive you back home?’ Paul asked her, his brow furrowed with concern. ‘I don’t like the idea of you going off to your friend’s upset.’
Sophie scanned his eyes. Like hers, they were dark espresso-brown, sympathetic and kind. Justin’s eyes had always been kind. She couldn’t remember him once ever losing his rag. Why had her mum done it, strung him along for so many years? Sophie got that people had affairs, but she didn’t get why her mum would have built such an elaborate web of lies. She must have known it was bound to come tumbling down like a house of cards.
And why had she done it in the first place – not just lie, but have an affair at all? It wasn’t like they’d didn’t get on or had monumental rows or anything. They’d had their mental moments, but mostly they’d been solid, or so Sophie had thought. Justin definitely loved her mum. Sophie only had to think of the way he’d looked at her, that quiet smile in his eyes, to know that. Whenever her mum had been upset about a child at work who’d been abused in some way, he would go to her and massage her shoulders, kiss the side of her neck and hold her. Her mum always turned to him, buried her head on his shoulder and told him how much she loved him.
She was a kind person. That’s why she kept on doing the shit job she did, even though she said the traumatised kids, who had to live their reality while she was tucked safely up in her bed, haunted her dreams. What she’d done to Justin was plain cruel. It just wasn’t her. It was no wonder he’d been so shocked. Sophie’s mind went to him, and she tried not to hear the words he’d said about how he’d lost his son and his daughter. Whatever he was feeling, she knew he’d loved her too. She’d felt it. He could hardly love her now though, could he, the spawn of her mum’s affair with another man?
Sighing, Sophie shook her head. ‘No,’ she said, though she wished more than anything that she could go back, to a home that felt like a home, like it used to. But that place didn’t exist any more. Her baby brother was dead, her mother was a lying bitch, and Justin… After what she’d done to him at the shopping centre, Sophie doubted he’d ever want to set eyes on her again. ‘They’re going through shit,’ she said, still not wanting to divulge too much. ‘The house got broken into while we were at my little brother’s funeral.’ Trailing off, she shrugged and forced back her tears. There was no way to go home, as far as she could see. No home to go back to.
‘I’ll be okay.’ She smiled tremulously up at him.
Paul didn’t look convinced. ‘You really are going through it, aren’t you?’ He shook his head in commiseration. ‘Tell you what, how does a holiday sound? It might do you good to get away from everything for a while.’
Sophie gawked. ‘A holiday? Where?’
‘Wherever you’d like,’ Paul said, going back to pour the drinks. ‘Florida, maybe?’
‘Florida?’ Sophie’s eyes grew wide. Accepting the glass of white wine, she drank thirstily. ‘But… what about my passport?’ She knitted her brow. This was happening way too fast. ‘And clothes and stuff.’
‘Well, now Alicia knows we’re in touch…’ Paul took her glass and walked back to the table to top it up. ‘I’ll ask her about it. I’m thinking, under the circumstances, she might think it’s a good idea, a way of allowing you all some space.’
Sophie was happy to give them as much space as they needed – and then some. Still, she wasn’t sure. A holiday to Florida? Was he made of money? Yeah, she was his daughter, but he hardly even knew her. It sounded a bit too good to be true. As far as he knew, she could be a total brat.
‘And I’ll buy you some new clothes,’ Paul offered, causing Sophie to do a double take. ‘You won’t need much anyway, in that climate.’