Hee heee, I think to myself, he called me his girlfriend but he’s obviously on the phone to an ex, so I hold off on the smile.
“Ha, your girlfriend, that's funny. I have tickets for the Footy Grand Final and wondered if you wanted to come with me, we could make a night of it, get a hotel and stay over in the city?”
He turns to me and says “What do you think babe, do you mind if I go to the footy and stay in the city with Alyssa over night?”
He’s grinning from ear to ear. I shake my head at him, bastard,
“Sure baby, go for it”
His face is a picture as he shakes his head and mouths “WHAT” at me. I can't help but smile... That'll teach him, smart arse!
“Sorry Alyssa but I have plans for that Saturday so no but thanks for the invite… .And Alyssa, please don’t call me again, ever”
He ends the call before Alyssa can respond.
“I can't believe you said that” I try not to laugh but can't help myself. He shakes his head. “You are so gonna pay for that”
“You get a call from some random bird inviting you to a dirty night in the city and I'm gonna pay, I don't think so sunshine and who the fuck is fucking Alyssa anyway?”
He's still shaking his head.
“You sounded so English when you said that, I love it when you’re angry and that accent makes an appearance”
“Don’t avoid the question Gabriel, who is she?”
“Just some girl I hooked up with about a month or so ago, one of the few I saw more than once but that was it and I've not spoken to her since”
“Did you bang her?”
Do I really want to know this? Well I’ve asked now. Bring it on!
“Yes I banged her”
“Lots?”
“I only spent two nights with her but yes, I suppose over such a short period of time, it was lots yes”
We are back at his house, sitting in the car that’s now parked on the drive. I can’t make my legs move, so I stay in my seat.
“Was she good, in bed I mean?”
“Why are you doing this Lauren, why would you want to know these things, why are you punishing yourself like this?”
And there it is, it hits me. That's exactly what I'm doing. I feel guilty about going behind Jason's back and taking my stuff from the house, I feel guilty because I have had sex with another man and I feel guilty because, I do already have strong feelings for this other man. Punishment, that's what this is all about.
“Was she good Gabe? Just answer the fucking question”
“Yes the sex was good but that's all it was Lauren, sex, two people fucking, nothing else. I had and I have, no feelings for the woman what so ever, I haven't accepted her calls since the last time I saw her and If I wasn't driving today and had seen my caller ID I wouldn't have taken her call then. I can't change something that I did five weeks ago, something that happened before I even knew you existed”
I move to get out of the car but he leans across to grab the door and stops me
“Don’t get out without saying something, fucking talk to me Lauren, I'm sorry okay, I'm sorry she called and I'm sorry you heard but there's nothing there, she means nothing”
“I know”
“Good”
“Can we get out now?”
He lets go of my door and we both get out. We put all of my stuff in the guest room. I rummage through it and find a pair of jeans and my favourite hoodie. I slip my feet into a pair of thongs and go out to the family room.
“What was that? Exactly what did me telling you all of that achieve, what did it prove?”
He's seriously pissed and has every right to be. I've just caused an argument with him, to make me feel better about what I have done to my husband. Totally fucked up. I seriously need help.
“I'm sorry, I just lost it for a bit, it was hard, you know, going back there, then her calling and I just flipped, I'm sorry”
He shakes his head as he walks towards me. He pulls me gently to him and kisses me on the mouth, gently, softly, his tongue flicks in and out and over my lips and a moan escapes from me. Suddenly the world is better. He moves his head back and looks at me.
“Let’s not argue Lauren, especially about things we can't change” He kisses my nose as I nod and tell him I'm sorry, again.