Spiralling Skywards: Falling (Contradictions #1)

“Only once when he landed. His flight was delayed because of fog and he didn’t get there till lunchtime.”

He stopped what he was doing and rubbed his hand over the stubble on his jaw for a few seconds before turning around to face me.

“If he didn’t get there till lunchtime, I wouldn’t be surprised if he doesn’t make it back tonight.”

“I don’t know why he doesn’t just come back tomorrow anyway. I don’t like the idea of him driving from the airport after such a long day.”

“He didn’t wanna leave you.”

“He has no issue with leaving me any other time. It feels like he only comes home to sleep lately. We don’t even eat together these days.”

Luke looked at me without saying anything for a few seconds before turning back around and lighting the fire. Once it had caught, he came and sat next to me on the sofa.

“He doesn’t like being away from you, but this is a new business, Sares. We’re the new kids on the block, and we need to work hard to get our name out there. You know the situation, we’ve talked about it before.”

“I know all of this.”

“Do ya, though? You make it sound like he chooses to be away from you when that’s the furthest thing from the truth.”

“I just don’t see why you both have to work so hard or why you both have to put in such long hours.”

“Because we’re just getting started. We knew when we first set this thing up that we had between five and seven years of hard work, long hours, and a lot of traveling in front of us. When he agreed to all of that, he hadn’t factored you into the equation.”

“Well, sorry for existing.” I snapped.

“Stop being a brat. That’s not what I meant, and you know it.”

“I already feel like I’m last on his list of priorities, and you saying shit like that doesn’t make me feel any better.”

My brother shook his head and let out a frustrated sigh.

“You,” he pointed his finger at me and then down at my belly, “you and that baby are his number one priorities—don’t you ever be in any doubt about that. He wanted to get Shain to fly to Scotland from Australia for this meeting so that he wouldn’t have to leave you.”

“So why didn’t he?” I knew it made me sound selfish, but in all honesty, I didn’t care.

“Are you fucking kidding me? No, I said no to that idea. Me, that was my call. Stop being so precious Sarah, it’s not like you. He’s working his arse off to build this company up. In ten years, we’ll be able to sit back and hopefully reap the rewards, but until then, it is what it is and we just have to put in the hours.”

I sat back with a huff and folded my arms across my chest. I knew all the reasons why they had to put in the hours, but I was sick, I was tired, and I was full of pregnancy hormones. Most days I was teary but that particular day, I just felt like being a bitch.

“Well if you’d have got Shain over, you would have made me happy because Liam wouldn’t be flying up and down the country while I’m feeling so rough. You would have made Liam happy because he could’ve stayed home and looked after me, and you would’ve made Sasha happy because she would’ve gotten to spend time with her boyfriend.”

He stared at me for a few seconds with his eyebrows drawn tightly together and his lips pinched into a tight line. I knew that I’d pissed him off but I didn’t care.

“What the fuck is wrong with you? I tell ya, Sunshine, these pregnancy hormones are seriously messing with your head. I’ve never known you to be such a bitch. No wonder Del stays at the office. I wouldn’t wanna be coming home to you either.”

My mouth actually hung open. My brother had never spoken to me like that before.

“You’re just pissed off because I mentioned Shain and Sasha. I’ve seen the way you look at her. I know there’s something going on.”

“You know nothing.” He bit out before getting up and storming into the kitchen. I heard the fridge door open and glass bottles clink.

Luke stayed in the kitchen for a full five minutes, and before he came back, the fridge opened again and there was more clinking of glass bottles.

“Finished your little hissy fit, brat?”

“You gonna tell me what the deal is with Sasha?”

“There is no deal with Sasha.”

“You’re a liar. I’ve seen you, Luke.”

“Seen what exactly?”

“The way you look at her. You look at her like Liam looks at me. She looks at you like I look at Liam.”

I didn’t wanna betray my best friend, but surely he must have realised how much she liked him.

“All of us Luke, everyone, including Sasha, have been waiting for you to make a move. Even now, she doesn’t love Shain, if you finally grew a pair and stopped pussying around she’d drop him for you.”

I didn’t think I’d ever seen my brother look so angry. Well, at least not since he first found out about me and Liam. He was grinding his teeth and working his jaw as he stared at me.

“And you know all of this how? Has she told you she doesn’t love Shain?”

“Yes.”

“Has she told you she wants to be with me?”