I came to this realization slowly over the course of my senior year—especially after the failed attempt with the weight lifter who spent more time looking at himself in the mirror than at me.
By March, I decided as soon as graduation was over I was going to drive to Michigan and tell Henry I wanted him back. Should I beg? Or play it cool? Because I was totally ready to beg.
That’s when it happened.
About a year after I’d broken things off with Henry, I happened to go on Facebook. I saw a picture of him with his arms around another girl. He was wearing a tux and she was in a green sequin evening gown. They must’ve been at some sort of formal.
First, I wanted to challenge the girl to a fight in a cage match.
Second, I wished I were the one on his arm. Not wearing that dress, because I had always hated dresses, but, man, did he look good in that tux. It reminded me of prom. How he rented a limo and we piled in with all our friends. Henry demanded the driver take the limo to the Burger King drive-through, and we all got paper crowns to wear. We had slept together for the first time that night.
I missed him. I loved him. I’d never stopped.
I hopped in my truck and drove four hours to Michigan, arriving in the middle of the night. I passed a few cars as I drove through the city of Ann Arbor, but the campus itself was quiet except for the trees swaying in the wind. No one was outside.
I hadn’t seen Henry in a year. I wasn’t sure if he still lived in the same dorm. There was no way he’d spend money to live off campus when he could live on campus for free as part of his scholarship, but he could’ve switched buildings or rooms.
I parked and banged on the glass door of the dorm’s lobby. The student receptionist looked up from reading a book and pressed a button to let me in.
I rushed inside. “Does Sam Henry live here?”
Slipping a bookmark into her book, the receptionist sat up straight. “We’re not allowed to divulge information about our residents.”
“But I need to tell him I love him!”
“I’m sorry, but I’ll need his permission before I can allow you to go up.”
“So he does live here!” Before she could stop me, I darted up the ramp to the elevators. I could hear her calling somebody on the phone.
“Security! We have an intruder!”
Oh my God. I was on the lam. Henry’d better be here, because he’s going to have to bail me out of jail.
I rode the elevator to the fourth floor and ran down the hallway to the room Henry had last year. The dry-erase board he used for messages still hung from the door, his name scribbled across the top of it.
I missed him so much.
I took a deep breath and raised my hand, prepared to knock. What if the girl in the green dress was in there? I was already in trouble for breaking and entering. The cops could add “threatening to beat up girl in a cage match” to the list of charges.
I pounded on the door.
A minute later, a shirtless Henry answered the door in a pair of loose pajama bottoms. He was rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
“Jordan?” he mumbled.
I threw myself his way, hugging him. For a long moment, I worried his arms wouldn’t fold around me in a hug. But then they did. He sighed into my neck, relieved.
“I love you,” I said.
“I’ve always loved you and I always will,” he replied. Then he pulled me into his room, where we stayed for two days, only emerging to pay the pizza guy. Oh, and so Henry could tell the university police that there was a misunderstanding with the dorm receptionist, and no, he would not be pressing charges against me for breaking and entering.
However, he did ask them, “Can we borrow your handcuffs?”
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Jordan Now
It’s time to play football.
Henry came home after “fixing his mom’s ceiling fan.” Which I don’t buy for one second because their house does not have a ceiling fan.
He’s up to something. I will get to the bottom of whatever Henry is hiding after we finish tossing the ball around. I don’t mind surprises.
Henry drives us over to College Street, a playground where we played Pop Warner football as little kids. This is where we first met.
When I was seven, Mom signed me up to be a cheerleader for Henry’s team, the Hornets. That first game, I wore a yellow-and-black skirt, and Mom put ribbons in my hair. But it was boring watching the game from the sidelines, so I ditched the pompoms to look for crickets. I was always on the lookout for good bait for trout fishing with my dad.
Henry was playing quarterback and threw the ball out of bounds. He never was much of a quarterback. I ran to grab the ball and hurled it back to the field. It flew farther than any of Henry’s passes. The crowd gasped.
Henry caught the ball and ran over to me. “Darn, you’re good,” he said. Then he invited me to join him and the team for pizza and video games. That’s when I traded my pompoms in for cleats and Henry became a wide receiver.
That’s also when I first gave him my heart.
Which is why I love playing at this playground. It’s our go-to spot.
It’s chilly outside, so we’re bundled up in sweatshirts and track pants, and he’s wearing a black knit cap that looks very sexy over his curly blond hair.
“I like your hat,” I tell him.
“I like yours too.”
It’s a blue Titans cap my brother gave me. With a quick movement Henry shoves the bill down over my eyes. I playfully shove him away, and with a laugh, he turns my hat backward so he has better access to kiss me.
“Mmm.” His hands caress my lower back. “Why did we get out of bed again?”
“Don’t try to get out of exercising with me, mister.” I wrap my arms around his waist. “If you play good, I’ll reward you later.”
His eyebrows shoot up. “Game on.”
Our first couple of passes go fine. I catch the ball, and in a fluid movement, throw it right back to Henry. I haven’t lost my game at all since college: when Henry catches some of my passes, he makes a grunting “Ughhh” sound because I’m throwing so hard. He’s not faking those grunts either. I grin.
Then he runs back several steps, winds up, and rockets the ball way over my head. It goes so far, the ball flies into somebody’s fenced-in backyard. Before we leave, I’ll have to go knock on their door to see if I can have our ball back. Luckily, I have had two more balls with me, just in case. Ever since a huge St. Bernard took off with one of our balls, I’ve come prepared.
Boy do I need them today.
On the next throw, Henry bombs another over my head into the same yard.
“This is why wide receivers shouldn’t play quarterback!” I tease. “You’re terrible.”
He laughs, grinning back at me. I swear, his smile is brighter than the sun.
When he throws the ball over the fence for a third time, I lose my patience.
“What the hell?” I call out.
“I’ve got another ball.” He goes over to his truck, climbs up into the bed, and fishes around in the junk he’s got back there.
He launches a ball at me. This one’s got some heat on it. I jump in the air and catch it. When my feet hit the ground, I twist the ball around to line the laces with my fingers so I can throw it back.
Then I see it. Something’s written on the ball in black marker.
Woods—Darn you’re good.
Will you marry me?