I continue, “No sex. At least not yet. I just need to know that you’re close, and perhaps I’ll actually get a night’s sleep.”
Noah stares at my hand grasping his, but he doesn’t call me on what I’m saying, or not saying, and I’m grateful for that.
Until I’m ready, the words of love that I used to profess easily to him are going to stay hidden from him. He knows how I feel but it’s different hearing the words.
Tightening my hold on his hand, I lead him to our room and let him have his hand back so he can remove his clothes.
Not wanting anything to weaken my resolve of no sex, I turn away and climb beneath the covers.
Seconds later, the rustling of covers, followed by the dip of the bed, tells me he’s willing to be with me like this.
He doesn’t reach for me like he used to do, which makes me wonder whether or not he’s waiting for me to make my move.
I want, no…need, to feel him snuggled up against me, and only then will I be able to relax into sleep.
Lying here, listening to each other’s breathing, isn’t helping me fall asleep and it makes me feel like a young boy during his first experiment with another guy.
About to roll onto my side to face him, Noah says, “Fuck this,” and it echoes around the room as he suddenly moves. His hands are on me, pulling me close as he spoons against my back.
I sigh into his embrace, unable to hide what he makes me feel. As his hand slips to the front of my sweats, my cock pushes against his palm.
My breath catches in my lungs. I want him to continue, and to disregard what I said about no sex. But I know Noah well, and he’ll do as I asked.
His hand withdraws, allowing me to catch my breath.
“Just checking to make sure I’m not the only one affected,” Noah whispers into my ear, which sends shivers down my spine and to my dick.
Shoving back into him, I smile when I feel his pulsing cock between my ass cheeks. I grasp his wrist and pull him tighter against my back. Finally, before drifting off to sleep, I feel his fingers entwine with mine.
Chapter Six
Ramon
Coming awake slowly, I lie still, not wanting to move. I don’t remember the last time I had uninterrupted sleep. I usually toss and turn with something on my mind, but last night I slept like a log.
Noah.
The weight of his leg over mine reminds me that he’s still in bed with me. I smile. He hasn’t left.
Yesterday I’d given him mixed signals because I seriously couldn’t decide what I actually wanted. Or rather I know what I want, but I’m afraid to reach out and grab hold.
Seeing his duffle bag packed, and knowing he was about to walk out the door, had me panicking, which is why I dragged him to my bed. I needed to know that he was still here.
I’ve been away from the site longer than I should have been, but having Noah back in my life is making me want to throw everything away. But I know what we need. What I need, and that’s to take him to my cabin. Over the weekend, we’ll go and have dinner with my family.
The thought of taking Noah for Sunday dinner doesn’t frighten me like it once did. Whether that’s because my brothers know about my relationship with Noah, or if it’s because I want to show Noah that I care enough about him to be honest with my parents, I don’t know. Although, I’d like to think that it’s the latter.
My love for him is going to override all my common sense. I trusted him once, and I know I’ll end up trusting him again.
In order for our relationship to work, I need to give a little and show him that I want to try this again. My only hope is that he doesn’t break my heart again. I need to make today about us…about Noah.
Once I’m up, I’ll call Eric and see if he’ll cover me on the site. He probably knows more about what’s going on at the moment anyway.
Deciding to test the waters with Noah this morning, I turn over and bite back a groan when our hard dicks make contact. We might be wearing sweats but the contact has my dick throbbing for so much more.
“I guess we’re both awake.” Noah stretches and pushes against me.
I straddle his hips without closing the space between us as I rest my hands on either side of his head. The lust on his face matches mine.
We both need this.
Grabbing hold of his sweats, I yank them from his waist and start shoving them down. When he tries to get mine off, we get tangled.
Laughing, I quickly roll from him and shove my pants down my legs and watch as Noah does the same.
As soon as I’m free of my sweats, I’m back on top of him and, this time, I give him my weight. My legs quiver with the feel of him fully against me. Skin to skin. I groan into his mouth as our tongues slide together just like our cocks are doing.
His hands grab my ass cheeks as he rubs his dick against mine. Then I feel his finger probing against my ass. Arousal drips from my crown onto his groin as I push back against his finger, but he teases and won’t give me what I want.