I let my grin show through, hoping the blood makes it more gruesome. “I disrespectfully disagree. It was more than a ruse and is far from being over. Mia and I came to a slight disagreement about priorities and my notorious penchant for anarchy. Despite my dramatic entry, I’m not here to stir up any shit. On the contrary, I came to propose a long-due truce between our clubs.”
“Not even when you’re buried six feet under,” Nikolai snarls.
“I wouldn’t be so quick to rule it out.” I meet Mia’s gaze. “This rare chance will work out so well for both of us if you just give it a go.”
“My sister is not for fucking sale.”
“I never suggested that. Unlike what she said, Mia came to meet me every night. There was no coercion involved in our nighttime rendezvous.”
Nikolai’s eyes slide to her again and she looks hotter than a ripe tomato before she meets my gaze. “Whether the truce happens or not, I’ll never go back to you.”
“Never say never.” I was going to add muse at the end, but I’m not in the mood for the extended audience to have their nose in my business.
It’s enough that I’ve made this very public display of affection.
Her chin trembles. “You’re insane.”
“Guilty as charged.”
“You won’t have me.”
“I had you once.”
“Won’t be happening again.”
“We won’t know until I try.”
“Stop being delusional.”
“Stop fighting the inevitable.”
Nikolai steps between us, accompanied by his dull sidekick Jeremy, and puts a sudden halt to our harmless banter. “Leave before I fuck up your face.”
“Last I checked, that’s not a good starting point for a truce, no?”
“Let’s just go.” Bran pulls on my arm, but I don’t move.
“I won’t be taking a step outside unless, one, you give me your word about the truce.” I meet Jeremy’s gaze. “You know this is for everyone’s benefit. Cecily and Glyn included.”
“Not happening,” Nikolai grinds out.
“It can be for your benefit, too,” I say casually. “In return, I will refrain from breaking your face for the damage you inflicted on my brother.”
“Forget it, Lan.” Bran pulls harder, his fingers digging into my arm. “I’m fine.”
“No, you’re not.” I tilt my head in Nikolai’s direction. “I don’t like it when others harm my family.”
“Funny coming from you.” He tries to free himself from Kill’s grip. “Once I’m done with you, nothing will be left for anyone to recognize.”
“Please stop,” Glyn pleads with him and I realize that she’s also on my side now, her hands slightly shaking. She looks at her joke of a boyfriend. “Lan isn’t the type who offers truces, so can you take it?”
My baby sister knows me, after all. Because she’s right. Truces don’t exist in my vocabulary of fucked-up anarchy.
But then again, drastic measures need to be made to trigger a considerable change.
“Even if we agree to the truce,” Killian says, “Mia is off the table.”
“That’s not for you to decide, is it?” I smile and meet her gaze.
“She already told you no,” Jeremy says.
“I can work with a no.” I step toward her, followed by Glyn and Bran, who install themselves as my amateur bodyguards.
Mia keeps watching me with that tense expression as I slip a small box into her palm, then say so only she can hear me, “Happy Birthday, little muse. Remember, a future where you don’t belong to me doesn’t exist.”
Nikolai shoves me back so hard, I half fall on Bran and Glyn, who wince at the brute’s animalistic force.
The fucker is pushing it, and I will make him pay. Just not today.
“I’ll take that as you said yes to my offer. As for the Mia issue, I’ll leave that to her. Just know that I won’t take lightly to any censorship or attempts to keep me away from her. You can torture me if you fancy. I’ll also leave my door open in case you want to kidnap me and exact revenge for past travesties, so let me know your plan. Or don’t. I’m open to surprises.” I stare at Killian. “You and I are even, considering the whole Glyn situation.”
He steps forward, but Glyn and Bran are already pulling me back.
“I’ll be out of your hair,” I call. “For some reason, it feels like I’m not welcome here. I wonder why.”
“You motherfucking—” Nikolai comes for me, but Killian, Jeremy, and Cecily drag him back.
Mia stands there, one hand balled into a fist around my gift and her eyes blazing with inextinguishable fire.
I physically have to stop myself from running back there and kidnapping the fuck out of her.
Then it hits me.
The reason behind the horrible feeling I’ve been experiencing ever since she fucked off out of my life.
The peculiar emptiness.
The absolute lack of motivation for anything but creating schemes for how to get her back without fucking up what she cares about.
I’ve become categorically obsessed with Mia Sokolov. My mind has filtered the whole world out and all I see is her defiant face.
In every corner.
On every statue.
Every-fucking-where.
And now that I’ve seen her again, the last thing I want to do is leave.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Bran asks as soon as we’re out of the pretentious Heathens’ mansion and in front of my car.
I shake myself out of the strange phase I’ve been trapped in and focus on the disapproving faces of my siblings.
Glyn crosses her arms. “This is ballsy even for you.”
“I’m nothing if not full of surprises.” I grin and wince at the pain that explodes in my mouth. “That being said, I love your loyalty and the feeble attempts at protecting me.”
“More like we were trying to protect people from you.” Glyn releases an exasperated breath. “Can’t you just stop?”
“Stop what?”
“This whole thing with Mia.”
“No.”
“But you don’t care about girls.”
“She’s not just a girl.” She’s my muse. There’s no other explanation for this need to possess her until she wholly belongs to me.
The inexplicable urge to have her with me at all times.
It’s getting to the point where I don’t recognize myself when I’m not with her and that’s a serious problem.
“You mean to tell us you won’t discard her the moment you’re bored, which is due to happen very soon?” Bran asks.
“If I were going to get bored, I would’ve been so weeks ago.”
“But you will, Lan,” Glyn says. “That’s what you do. You get bored and you hurt people to feel a form of pleasure.”
“Thanks for the amateurish psychotherapy, little princess. But if you want to make your psychological endeavors more realistic, you should’ve inserted your boyfriend as a plug. Doesn’t he get bored easily as well?”
“Kill is different.”
“In what sense? You’ve managed to understand him because he’s similar to me, so why, suddenly, is he the love of your life while I’m the forever devil?”
“Because you’ve never made an effort to love us, Lan!” she screams. “I know you’re wired differently and no one can change your nature. I understand that. What I don’t understand is why you expect us to behave according to the lines you trace, and when we act out, you squash us until we fall back to where you want us to be. You protect us because of your sense of possessiveness and the fact that we make you look good. Bran and I protected you just now because, despite everything, you’re our brother and we care about you. We don’t calculate in our relationship with you and we certainly don’t use you just because we’re bored. All we want is for you to make an effort and stop following your narcissistic instincts when dealing with your own brother and sister.”
Tears gather in her eyes and Bran holds her by the shoulder, his expression as wretched as hers.
As the scene plays out in front of me, I recall the conversation I had with Uncle Aiden right after I cornered Mia in the tiny bathroom stall.
I’d intended to pretend to let her go just so I could sweep in again and remind her that I’m her only option.
But then I called Uncle Aiden. He’s Eli and Creighton’s father, but we’ve always been close because I’m that loveable.
Well, that’s a lie. He’s one of the few people who doesn’t judge me, despite my extreme chaos-oriented nature.
He also encouraged my dad to just let me be when I was developing my holier-than-thou personality.
Uncle Aiden has always treated me and Eli with respect, even though we’re different from everyone else.