Quickly, I think back through the reasoning behind the doctrine from which I come. “No, that’s why the parents do it. You’re baptized through your parents…you have to be baptized to go to heaven, right? That’s why they do it as babies where I come from.” I exhale and smile slightly, feeling like I’m standing on my own two feet in this conversation.
Bridgette cocks her head from side-to-side. “Not exactly. Baptism is meant as a symbol of washing someone clean of their sins. It’s not a sacrament, it’s a ceremony. Like, okay…” she shakes her head as if it’s an effort to organize the thoughts in her head. “God knows that babies and little kids can’t be held accountable for their actions. They don’t have enough consciousness to make a decision about anything salvation related. God’s not going to send a six-month-old to hell if they’re not baptized when they die.”
I nod slowly, because she’s making perfect sense.
“But,” she continues, closing her Bible, “there comes a time when people need to take responsibility for themselves. When they gain the ability to recognize that they need to invite Jesus into their hearts and lives. To choose to follow the way.”
“And what age is that?” I ask smugly.
“Between eight and thirteen, I guess. Each pastor views the age of reason differently. That doesn’t matter, though. What matters is, at some point, we all need to consciously decide to follow Jesus.”
“So then you’re saying I’m not saved?” My cheeks heat and my eyes flash to Eden, who continues to stare at me sympathetically. “That I’m going to hell if I drop dead right this second?”
Eden shoots to her feet. “No, no, no…that’s not what we’re saying. What we’re pointing out is that you’re at an age where you need to consider if you want to invite Christ to live in your heart.”
“When were you baptized?” I ask of both of them.
“Ten,” Bridgette replies.
I look to Eden, who answers. “Sixteen.”
I walk over to my backpack and throw it over my shoulder again, planning my escape. “Look. I was baptized, raised in church, and believe in Jesus. Isn’t that good enough?”
Bridgette looks like I stepped on her Easter eggs. “Don’t you want your relationship with God to be more than good enough?”
My throat constricts and I feel faint. To my right is a doe-eyed Eden, looking at me as if she’s trying to toss me a life preserver in the river of Hades. Straight ahead is a broken-faced Bridgette. Her words bounce around like a spiked ball through my brain.
Don’t you want your relationship with God to be more than good enough?
“I’m taking a walk,” I say, moving toward the door.
I hear Eden behind me, and Bridgette’s chair slides back as she stands.
Turning around, I spit out, “Alone.”
They don’t move another inch, allowing me the peace of hearing the door latch behind me before I lower my head and race down the hallway. I briefly consider stopping at my RA’s room, but decide against it. She’s probably on their side, anyway.
I’m going to hell.
The thought doesn’t scare me as I move across campus, the library in my sights. Because it’s not true.
Right?
Flustered, I rest against a brick wall and dial my sister’s cell phone number.
“Hey you! How’s Jesus U?” she answers amidst her own laughter.
I sigh. “Am I going to hell because I haven’t been baptized as an adult?”
“Wow,” she deadpans, “that good, huh?”
“Jenny!” I growl.
“Calm down,” she quiets her laughter. “Why don’t you give me some context?”
It’s not just medical school that’s given her such a clinical turn of phrase. She’s always been that way. Scientific and ordered, my gorgeous, Barbie doll-like stepsister passed up her senior prom—where she would have most certainly been crowned queen—to attend a stem-cell research symposium. An extra credit paper she’d written earlier in the year was being discussed by a panel of top-notch researchers.
I take a few minutes to catch her up. From my mom’s insanity on the drive to campus, through my first meetings with other students and lunch with Roland, and ending at my eternal damnation, I pause and wait for her response.
“All this in forty-eight hours? Impressive.”
Before I can cut in, she continues. “How much of this does your mom know?”
“That I had a failed lunch with Roland. But no details there.”
“Okay. Look, I don’t know if they’ve tapped your phone there or not,” Jenny jokes, knowing all about the strict media rules ordered by Carter University, “but I don’t think you should tell your mom any of this. Sugarcoat it if you must, but if she thinks you’re being spiritually bullied, she’ll throw a fit.”
She’s right. My mom wouldn’t think twice about driving out here and giving everyone a piece of her mind.
“As for your soul?” She takes a deep breath, exhaling directly into the phone. “All things considered, you’re probably better off than I am.”
“Jenny…” I echo her sigh and look at the clouds.
Jesus Freaks: Sins of the Father
Andrea Randall's books
- Sacred Sins
- Sins and Scarlet Lace
- Sins of a Ruthless Rogue
- Bed of Roses
- Son Of The Morning
- Cover Of Night
- Affairs of State
- A Profiler's Case for Seduction
- Because of Rebecca
- Conflict of Interest
- Eclipse of the Heart
- Flames of Attraction
- Illusions of Love
- Keeper of the Moon
- Keeper of the Shadows
- Legacy of Love
- Love Proof (Laws of Attraction)
- Miles of Pleasure
- Of One Heart
- Off Limits
- Off Sides
- Out of the Dark (The Brethren Series)
- Out of the Depths
- Pool of Crimson
- Prince of Wolves
- Rules of Entanglement
- Shadow of My Heart
- Something of a Kind
- Son of a Preacher Man
- Taste of Desire
- Taste of Love
- Translation of Love
- Web of Deception
- Words of Love
- The Lady of Bolton Hill
- The Scars of Us(Scars Series)
- Dreams of Lilacs
- House of Ivy & Sorrow
- A Question of Honor
- The Owner of His Heart
- The Heir of the Castle
- Tower of Glass
- The Last Prince of Dahaar
- Terms of Engagement
- Secrets of a Bollywood Marriage
- David Lord of Honor
- Return of the Prodigal Gilvry
- Killing Me Softly(A Broken Souls Series)
- Starting Over(Hart of Seattle)
- The Resurrection of Aubrey Mill
- OFF SIDES
- Confessions of a Royal Bridegroom
- Stolen: Warriors of Hir, Book 3
- The CEO Buys in (Wager of Hearts #1)
- The Law of Moses
- A Pound of Flesh (A Pound of Flesh #1)
- Arouse: A Spiral of Bliss Novel (Book One)
- Awaken: A Spiral of Bliss Novel (Book Three)
- The Art of French Kissing
- Leo (A Sign of Love Novel)
- Echoes of Scotland Street
- Stinger (A Sign of Love Novel)
- Ten Days of Perfect (November Blue #1)
- The Song of David
- The House of the Stone
- Ashes of Honor: An October Daye Novel
- The Weight of Feathers
- Blood Brothers
- Face the Fire
- Holding the Dream
- The Hollow
- The way Home
- A Father's Name
- All the Right Moves
- After the Fall
- And Then She Fell
- A Mother's Homecoming
- All They Need
- Behind the Courtesan
- Breathe for Me
- Breaking the Rules
- Bluffing the Devil
- Chasing the Sunset
- Feel the Heat (Hot In the Kitchen)
- For the Girls' Sake
- Guarding the Princess
- Happy Mother's Day!
- Meant-To-Be Mother
- In the Market for Love
- In the Rancher's Arms
- Leather and Lace
- Northern Rebel Daring in the Dark
- Seduced The Unexpected Virgin
- Southern Beauty
- St Matthew's Passion
- Straddling the Line
- Taming the Lone Wolff
- Taming the Tycoon
- Tempting the Best Man