A small tilt of her head indicated her answer. I drew in a deep breath. I was not going to let her dwell on this. “Your lovemaking more than fulfills me, but I need to be honest. No, I’m not satisfied.”
Her eyes widened. Leaning down, I kissed her warmly, capturing her gaze with mine. “I will never be satisfied, Rabbit. Before we have finished making love, I want you again. When I watch you make one of your delicious pies, I want you. When you laugh or scowl at me, I want you. Fiercely. Christ, don’t even get me started on how I feel when I see you curled up in the chair wearing my shirt. I can hardly fucking see straight. I’m surprised I haven’t taken a header down the stairs yet. And just thinking of you sitting in the hot tub, your skin wet and glistening …” I groaned deeply and squeezed her chin lightly, my forehead resting on hers. “All the time, Rabbit. I want you all the time. And every time you are more than enough.”
“He always said I was cold. Unresponsive and awkward. The few times we tried it was … awful. He said it was my fault. That I was frigid and not stimulating. And … you heard what he said earlier,” she whispered. “I didn’t have very much experience before him … and I had never, ah … really enjoyed myself ...” her voice trailed off.
“He said a lot of really inane things out there. None of which I or anyone else paid any attention to, Rabbit. Don’t let him do this, baby. Don’t let him get to you.”
I cupped her face and kissed her deeply, again and again, until she was breathless. “You are, without a doubt, the most innately sensual lover I have ever been with, Rabbit. If you didn’t respond to him then the problem was his, not yours. I have no doubt he was a selfish bastard.”
I kissed her again. “I've felt things with you I’ve never felt before. You’ve taken me places I've never been, Rabbit.” Again our lips met, softly, sweetly moving together. “And I want you to take me there again.”
I held her closely for a minute, giving her a chance to think about what I’d said. “It doesn’t matter that you don’t have a lot of experience. In fact, I’m rather grateful for that. I get to discover all of this with you. And if you’re telling me I’m the first man to give you an orgasm, then I am beyond thrilled.” I tapped my chest, waggling my eyebrows at her. “I’m rather possessive when it comes to you.”
I was pleased to hear her soft giggle. Leaning closer, I nipped at her ear. “In fact, I’d be thrilled to show you again … just how unsatisfied I am when it comes to you,” I whispered, pressing my growing erection against her leg.
She looked up at me, surprised.
I raised an eyebrow at her. “I told you, Rabbit. Never enough.”
“But there are people here,” she protested half-heartedly.
I slid my hand up her side, caressing her soft skin under her shirt. “I can be very quick and very quiet, my sexy little Rabbit. But I promise to be thorough. How about you? You wanna be naughty with me?” I whispered lowly, desperately wanting her to forget about everything but us for a few sweet moments. I wanted her to feel how good we were together. I wanted her to smile and feel me loving her.
And most of all, I wanted her to forget the cruel words flung her way earlier and to know that they were just empty lies told by a desperate man who wanted to inflict pain on her one last time.
Her eyes glowed in the dim light and I watched her lips curve into a smile. I smiled back before capturing her mouth with mine.
And then, quietly, thoroughly and not very quickly, I made her mine, happily swallowing her cries of ecstasy deep within myself, keeping them private and safe. I loved her with everything I had until she knew, without a doubt, that she was more than enough.
She was everything.
Chapter Forty
Joshua
My breathing was harsh and its sound filled the cabin of the truck. I looked down at my hands which were clasped so tightly on the steering wheel in front of me, that my knuckles were white. The key sat in the ignition, just waiting for me to turn it and start the engine, but I couldn’t. I was desperately fighting for control, feeling confused and angry at myself.
I had done this once before. I had left the confines of my property to go and get Rabbit. I should be able to do it again.
I could feel the beginnings of a panic attack starting and I closed my eyes, trying to concentrate on slowing down my breathing. The feeling of Rabbit’s arms coming around me from the back seat was a welcome comfort and I released the steering wheel, instead grabbing onto her forearms and holding her against me.
Adam’s voice from the passenger side startled me. “You know, Joshua, I’m not an expert or anything but it seems to me the most important thing here is getting Lizzy to the hospital. Does it really matter if you are the one behind the wheel?”
I shook my head silently.