“Just the thought of you and him…..like that…..it makes me wanna fight him.”
AJ’s expression was so serious as he stared off into the distance, but I couldn’t suppress my amusement. He looked at me for a moment as I continued laughing uncontrollably. Out of nowhere, he caught me off guard with a kiss. I quickly met the enthusiasm of his soft lips. We were spellbound and didn’t bother trying to fight the pull that we felt toward one another. Antonio never made me feel like this; not even when I’d finally won his heart after obsessing over him for so long. This was different than anything I’d ever experienced and my mother was right; it would’ve been a crying shame to miss out on it.
It was time to return home before one of us got caught, so I stood up to stretch and AJ wrapped his arms around my waist. I brought my arms down to rest on his shoulders, returning his embrace. As we stood there unmoving, it felt like there was something that he wanted to say. His lips were pressed against my neck as he whispered, “I love you too.”
He was finally responding to my admission on Saturday and his timing was perfect. If I hadn’t been fully convinced before, there was no question about it now; I was unmistakably and unavoidably in love with him. As our tryst came to an end, I fought back the feelings of sadness that began to overwhelm me. AJ was quiet which made me think that maybe he felt the same way. We listened to the radio and held hands the entire way and it felt as though there was an invisible bond between us that was drawing us together and getting stronger as the minutes wore on. The feeling was indescribable.
After an evening like that, it was safe to assume that sleep would evade me as my thoughts of him would surely keep me too occupied. If this night never ended, it would be too soon. I allowed my thoughts to drift way into the future, imagining that AJ was mine….really mine and I wouldn’t have to be away from him at all anymore.
Moments later he pulled his car up to the corner down the street from my house and came to a stop. I was trying to think of some way to procrastinate when AJ grabbed the back of my neck and greeted my lips with the most passionate kiss we’d shared by far. I was too weak from his touch to lift my hands to his face. When he pulled back I wasn’t even able to open my eyes right away, but I was sure that he hadn’t gone far because I could still feel the warmth of his skin near my face. His breathing was unsteady as I imagine mine must’ve been. I pulled myself away from him quickly, opened my door and jumped out of the car. This was my only chance to escape this power he had over me. When I looked back, he was laughing to himself at my clumsy, yet necessary, exit. I smiled, closed the door and made my way in the house.