She raises a skeptical eyebrow, but accepts the bottle.
“It’s our rain, Beth.”
Her head barely shakes to show her
confusion while I rub the back of my neck and search for my courage. “I told you I loved you in this rain and when you doubt my words, I want you to look at this bottle.”
Beth’s forehead wrinkles and she stares at the gift I’ve given her. “I don’t…” she starts. “I don’t have anything to give you.”
“You’re here,” I answer. “It’s all I want.”
Her fingers tighten around the bottle. “I still can’t say it.”
“I don’t care.”
Beth crawls onto my bed and I join her by lying like we did the first night she came to my room. If she needs space, I’ll give her space.
This time, Beth immediately places her head on me. The bare skin of my chest screams in protest of her cold, wet hair. I focus on not flinching or shivering. I won’t give her a reason to turn away.
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Her arm relaxes over my stomach and, in
her hand, she clutches the bottle of rain.
“I’m scared,” she says.
Are her running days over? Am I handing
my heart to a girl who’s going to break it? I choose not to think about it and instead wrap my arms tighter around Beth and bring her closer to me. “So am I. But we’ll be okay. I promise.”
“You could really hurt me if you wanted.”
“But I won’t.”
“Say it again,” she whispers, and there’s heartfelt sincerity in her voice that tells me everything I want to hear. My heart explodes and a surging, powerful warmth rushes through my bloodstream. She loves me. I know she does.
“I love you.” I kiss the top of her head, never feeling so complete in my life.
“Can I stay?” she asks.
“Yes.”
She willingly molds her body to mine. We
snuggle closer together and I shut my eyes, welcoming sleep. Beth’s here and she’s mine and I silently promise to never let go.
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Beth
SITTING ON THE BED of Logan’s truck, Ryan keeps me tucked close between his legs and his hands rest on the sides of my hips. Ryan’s sweatshirt wraps around me like a minidress and the heat from his body protects me from the chilly autumn Friday evening. He’s enveloped me in a small, warm bubble. Wood in the bonfire crackles and snaps and creates a rich scent that relaxes me. I cuddle against him, and the deep rhythmic vibrations of his voice lull me into a sense of ease. Ryan has created the sensation of comforter-out-of-the-dryer warmth.
He runs his hand through my hair and
whispers, “You’re falling asleep. Do you want me to take you home?”
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always, good news comes with bad. She got the car out of the impoundment lot, but she also bailed Trent out of jail and she was somehow shocked that jail hadn’t changed his thunderstorm disposition. She asked me to come get her a week from Monday—after her social security check comes in. I have ten days left with Ryan.
Ryan kisses the top of my head and returns to the same discussion he and his friends have had every day at lunch—baseball playoffs.
Lacy sits next to me in the same exact position with Chris. She drinks from a longneck. “I’m happy you and Ryan are together. It’s nice to be around someone else who never says the word baseball.” Lacy takes another drink and shakes her head. “I take that back—not someone else. I’m glad it’s you. I’m glad you’re back.”
She’s buzzing. I’m not. It’s strange to be at a party and not be blitzed. The past two weeks have been strange. Now that Ryan has done whatever popular people do to announce their commitments, his friends treat me like one of their own and I’m not sure how I feel about it.
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around or sitting on this truck are big, huge, can’t-stop-talking-about-baseball jocks. None of them has made me feel inconsequential or like a freak. They’re nothing like Luke and his friends, who drank every chance they got. Not one of these guys has touched alcohol tonight.
Ryan and his friends have an early-morning game and they want to be at one hundred percent.
Lacy holds out her hand and waves it until I take it. “I’m happy I have a best friend again.”
“All right.” Chris swings Lacy into his arms.
“She’s talking sentimental, which means it’s time to dance.” With her laughing uncontrollably, he carries her to the crowd dancing near the bonfire.
Ryan’s lips graze my earlobe, sending
seductive shivers through my body. “Walk with me?”
Anywhere. “Okay.”
Ryan jumps off the bed of the truck and
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clothes and onto my skin.