“No.” I don’t tell him that the chances of me conceiving are slim to none. The only way I can get pregnant is through infertility treatments.
“I want to feel you. Only you. I want you to feel me. Don’t close your eyes.”
Each breath I take feels like an eternity passes waiting for him to enter me. He goes slowly and I feel the tip of him. “I love you. I love every part of you. I wanted to fight it, but I can’t fight you.” He comforts me as he pushes deeper inside. My eyes stay on his and I give over all my heart. “You’re supposed to be mine and I won’t lose you.” Liam’s eyes close as he enters me fully.
My breathing is short as I try to adjust. He stays still and then presses his lips to mine. I relax and get lost in the kiss and then we begin to move together. Liam thrusts and I hold on to his back as he slowly rocks inside of me. I push against him and he groans.
I take everything about him in. The way his jaw is tight and his muscles are taut as he moves. His eyes shift from dark blue to light, his eyes open in pleasure. My hands memorize the way his ass fits in my palm as he moves with me. Pushing and pulling me apart. We fit together as if we’ve been doing this forever.
He flips me over so I’m on top and my hands trail his body. “You feel incredible,” I say as I rock back and forth. “I don’t want this to stop,” breathless as I start to climb again. “It feels so good,” I whisper against his mouth and he kisses me again.
His hand dips between us as he finds my clit. The pressure from his finger and the way his dick hits the spot inside of me . . . I’m a goner.
“I’m gonna come, Lee. You feel so fucking good,” he warns me.
“Oh my God,” I moan as my orgasm is so close. I close my eyes and free my mind. I focus only on the way Liam is touching me.
I shatter apart and I swear my body just exploded.
He flips me back over and pounds relentlessly as he follows my orgasm with his own.
Liam and I made love and I never want it to end.
We lie here trying to catch our breath and I start to come down from my high. I get up and head to the bathroom. I stare at myself in the mirror after cleaning up and try to notice anything different. My hair is a mess and I try to fix it, but I’m still the same. The insides of me are changed though. I’m no longer just Aaron’s girl. I’ve given myself to another man—a good man. A man that I hope will be around for a long time.
I climb back into bed and he wraps the blanket around us. I lie there staring at him with adoration.
His head lolls over and his face lights up. “That was . . .” Liam struggles for words.
“Good?” I ask apprehensively.
He takes my hand. “No, sweetheart. That was better than good.”
I beam and close my eyes. My mind drifts without permission to my first time with Aaron. It was nothing like that. We were both inexperienced teenagers who were trying to recreate a movie. I don’t want to think of him. Liam deserves to have me here and not in my past right now.
“Liam?” I ask, trying to divert my thoughts.
“Hmmm?” He takes my hand and places it against his chest.
I don’t know after this how much we’ll see each other. I wonder if he’s leaving soon for a deployment or if it’s just training. Even before our relationship progressed, I missed him when he was gone. I don’t know how I’m going to handle it now. I have to remember he’s a SEAL and I’m back to that life. Previously, I wouldn’t even notice when Aaron was gone, but Liam and I are so attuned.
“What’s your schedule for the next few weeks? I’m not a needy person, but I want to know how much we’ll see each other.”
“I have to leave in a few days for about two weeks. Then I’m home for a bit. I’ll be here for Aara’s birthday and then probably have to leave after that.”
“I’ll miss you.”
Liam shifts, pulling me on top of him. His fingers trace down my nose to the side of my face. My chin quivers a tiny bit thinking of him leaving for six months. We’re so new and I don’t want him to go. “I’ll see you every day. When I close my eyes, I’ll see your blue eyes, blonde hair, and your beautiful face. You’ve done this, you know it’s not forever,” Liam stops, catching himself on that phrase. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it like that.”
“I know you didn’t,” I reassure him and roll over. “But it can sometimes be forever.”
Liam pulls me to his side and I close my eyes. He holds me close and I dare to hope that this forever won’t be the same fate as the last man I loved.
I wake the next morning and my hand reaches for Liam, but all I get are cold sheets. Again.
No.
I sit up and look around. Please don’t let this be a dream. It’s definitely not my bedroom. I’m in North Carolina. “Okay,” I tell myself, “Just take deep breaths.”