A prayer. A curse. A plea. I have no idea. The pleasure overwhelms me. It’s been so f*ck
ing long since I’ve felt anything remotely close to this.
She is heaven. Tight and squeezing and pulsing. I slip my thumb over her clit, stroking her as I slide into her fully, deeply.
Her breath is unsteady and quick. Her breasts rise and fall with her quick gasps.
“I can die happy now,” I whisper.
“Don’t you dare.” Her words against my lips. Her legs slide around my hips and she rocks against me, urging me to move. Slipping from her body, then back in, slowly, slowly feeling her adjust to me. Claiming me fully.
“More.”
Her head drops back, her nails dig into my shoulders. I’m driving into her now, losing myself in the rhythm, the tiny cries she makes as the distance between us is consumed until there is nothing between us but sound and sex and belonging.
This. This is where I belong. With Abby.
My balls tighten and my orgasm rips through me. I am lost. I am found.
I am home.
“I love you.” The words tear from me. I am clinging to her. To the life she has brought me back to.
She releases her nails from my back, slipping her palms over my skin as she pulls me close.
Her response slides over my ear and wraps around me, a balm on my heart.
“I love you.” The words I didn’t know I needed to hear.
Epilogue
Abby
I understand now. I understand what it means to find someone who fits you and what it means to love them no matter what.
I understand what it feels like when someone loves you for who you are. Not who they want you to be.
I know Josh isn’t done dealing with everything from the war. I know there will be more dark times.
But as I step into the darkness and find him waiting for me after my shift, I’m willing to take the chance. I’m willing to walk through the darkness with this man.
I press my lips to his, my heart full tonight.
“What’s that for?” he asks.
“Just because.”
His lips crease at the corners just like they did when I first met him. “Sounds like a pretty good reason,” he says lightly. He cups my cheek and deepens the kiss and I don’t care who is watching. “Hungry?”
“Starving.” I brush my thumb over his bottom lip. “I don’t have to work tomorrow.”
“I’m supposed to say let’s be responsible adults and study for our exams.” He brushes his nose against mine. “But instead, I’m going to suggest we stay in bed all day.”
I make a tsking sound. “I’m not sure how I feel about you leading me down the path of irresponsible behavior.”
“I know how I feel about it.” He leans close until his breath is hot on my ear. “I can’t wait to hear you make those sounds you make when I’m inside you.”
Heat slides over my skin and settles between my thighs. “We won’t talk about the expression you make when you’re getting ready to…”
He claps his hand over my mouth. “I’m not secure enough in my manhood for you to start picking at my masculinity.”
Beneath his hand, I laugh, then slide my arm around his waist as we walk down the dark path away from work.
I don’t know where things are going with him.
I only know that I love him enough to go with him. Into the darkness.
And hope there will be enough light to guide our paths.