All except one fell but I released a victory shout, which was probably more like a screech. I turned around and jumped on Keiran wrapping my legs around his waist and kissing him. When I finally came up for air I looked down at him.
“Good job. Let’s see if we can get a strike.”
“Or you can take me home now and do what you promised…”
*
Sheldon told her parents that she would be sleeping over with a friend so we headed straight to Keiran and Keenan’s house. I didn’t know how comfortable I was yet sleeping over at Keiran’s house but he didn’t give me much choice after I gave him the green light to take me home.
Thinking about how Keiran hunted down Sheldon and Keenan from their dark corner and practically threw our shoes at the poor cashier before hauling ass out of the alley brought a smile to my face.
We entered the house and I noticed once again that their uncle wasn’t home. I tried not to judge, thinking about how often Aunt Carissa was on the road because of her career. I didn’t know their story so it wasn’t my place to form an opinion.
Keiran seemed indifferent to his uncle’s absence but I noticed how Keenan would discreetly look around before disappointment shadowed his features. He never let it show for long though. As quickly as it would come, it was gone again.
I knew how it felt to wonder if your parents loved you or not. At least he knew where his was…or if they were even alive and didn’t abandon you… I shook off the thought and turned to Keiran who was watching me.
“What are you thinking about?”
“Why do you always want to know what I’m thinking?”
“Because you’re still hiding.”
Was that what I was doing? A part of me still believed that this was a cruel joke and he still hated me. Ten years of fear doesn’t just fade away does it?
“So are you.” It was the only thing I could think of to take the heat off me.
“Maybe. But not because I don’t trust you.” His tone was accusatory. “But because I think it will keep you safe.”
“From what?”
“Me.” His expression was pained. I definitely needed answers.
“Did I ask you to protect me?”
“It kind of comes with the package.” His lips curled in a sneer and I could tell he was pissed.
“Well I did pretty well when you were the threat. Maybe you still are…”
“You’ll find out if I’m still a threat as soon as you get your ass in my bed.”
“Is that all you care about?” I asked, feigning anger.
“At the moment.”
“You can be such an asshole.” I moved to sit on the couch and got comfortable. I wanted to remain in the living for as long as possible to keep us on equal grounds. As soon as he gets me into his bedroom I knew all bets were off.
“What the fuck do you want from me, Lake? I’m trying.”
“I never asked you to!” I screamed the words before I could catch them. When had we started to argue?
“And I’ll never give you a choice!” he roared back. He was standing on the other side of the room but I felt his anger as if he was standing right in front of me. “You keep fighting this. Fighting me. Why?” His voice was guttural and pained. I wanted nothing more than to give him what he wanted but I couldn’t. I was still holding on.
“Because I don’t believe in happy-ever-after, Keiran. You took that away from me a long time ago. How am I supposed to forgive you if I don’t even know why?” My voice broke at the last.
I lifted my head and saw him turn away from me to face the wall. His hands gripped the built-in bookcase as his back tightened with tension.
“Keiran, please –”