Diamond Girl

Chapter 31



Milan had long been a local New York legend by the time she followed the advice of Horace Greely and 'moved west young woman', but, to the wider world beyond a few brief snaps in People magazine, she wasn’t well known. All of us pretty socialites in New York think we are already super famous and simply hounded to death by the paparazzi, all one of them, the guy that works for Rupert Murdoch’s über-popular New York Post.

That’s the paper everyone in the city really reads every morning. They won’t admit it, and they would never subscribe to it, no way. They subscribe to the great and venerable New York Times and furtively buy the Post at news stands. While they tell everyone they would never ever read such trash, there isn’t a New Yorker alive who couldn’t quote you verbatim a daily socialite scandal, complete with commentary on the unflattering pictures that he or she just read from their copy of the Post.

Those of us who are targets of the Post’s coverage say we hate it. Hell, I went one further than that and gave harassment by Page Six as my public reason for leaving New York but, come on, we didn’t hate it. What I’m trying to explain here is that Milan had for years been the most covered uptown girl that New York had ever seen. She was in Page Six almost daily and, while that made her famous, or infamous, to other girls who were manor born and who said they would rather die than be in the Post every day - girls who said that the only decent place to have your photo seen was W or Vogue - they didn’t mean it. They wished they were her, or maybe I’m wrong. Maybe they did mean it because, after all, Page Six had gotten me exiled and while it had helped bring Milan to the notice of Hollywoodland, it had also kind of gotten her exiled too.

All of us who were born with everything were also born with the expectation that we would maintain our ruling class birthright and pass it along to the next generation. To do that there had to be a next generation, and for that to happen we had to marry one of our own kind in a lavish St. Patrick’s ceremony. This would be followed by an even more lavish reception, all of which could be most properly covered in W and Vogue, and then you wouldn’t hear much about any of us again, save for a small pic here and there in Vanity Fair’s parties section.

Babies would eventually come and be raised by a starched team of nannies, just as we had been, and our lives would continue in apartments and weekend estates that were hopefully as fabulous as the ones we had been born in. That was always almost a sure thing, since old money means old trusts, and eventual massive inheritances, that would allow us to live lavishly, but not so lavishly that the next generation wouldn’t be able to continue on, and that’s the circle of life, the gilded life to which only those born in the right place - New York - and with the right name were entitled.

The girls were, by my generation, almost always beautiful, and so were the boys. The boys, that’s a funny thing. The boys might party like it’s nineteen ninety-four all through prep and college - indeed it was expected of them, that was also a birthright - but, and it’s a big one, we, the girls, could party too, discreetly, during high school, and maybe a little at college, but some things never change; we weren’t supposed to be seen partying in the newspapers.

And even though those same boys would whistle and grope us as we danced for the photographers, even though they loved having a famously bad socialite on their arms or to download on the internet in home made sex videos, we weren’t the socialites they felt comfortable marrying.

It has always been so. Every generation of Manhattan’s debutantes has had an 'It Girl', a girl so much more beautiful and full of life than her mousy counterparts that she almost can’t help ending up in the newspapers every day. The first, I think, was a drop dead knock-out named Brenda Frazier. Brenda was so ravishing that every New York paper wanted to take her picture, and eventually she even ended up on the cover of Life magazine under the heading 'The Most Beautiful Girl in the World'. Poor Brenda, she soon found out, as Milan did nearly a hundred years later, that you can be too beautiful and too famous for our blue-blooded boys. Case in point, Brenda did not go on to wed into one of our nation’s great old families and reign from a fabulous New York pied-à-terre, and marry off her daughters from an ocean front estate in East Hampton. Oh no, she ended up marrying a football player and died in her forties, drunk and obscure.

Nowadays a society beauty has better choices, or at least she has one other choice: pretend this is how you wanted it anyway, go to Hollywood and become world famous, not just New York famous, marry a series of leading men and say 'screw you, New York, New York'. Might as well say it, possibly try to think it, even though it’s all bullshit because if you are born at the top of the world, there is no better life.

Our ancestors knew it and the smart young society beauties of my generation know it too. Like the song says, if you want to be happy for the rest of your life, well take Ivanka Trump as your wife or, if you are a girl, at least don’t take Brenda Frazier or Milan Marin as your role model. Beauty and fame ages out; New York is forever.

I don’t include myself in this scenario. I was out of the golden loop I was born into before I was old enough to understand the rules. No great ruling family is going to bring in old blue blood that is tainted with a horrendous disease like mine. If there are people naïve enough to think otherwise, then they should grow up.

I bet if Prince William’s family found out tomorrow that pretty Kate had a sister who suffered from juvenile diabetes or multiple sclerosis or any other nasty shit like that, well I don’t think she’d be planning the redecoration of Buckingham Palace anytime soon.

How does my theory work out with the way Masters of the Universe type guys, like my own Daddy, marry trophy wives? It fits in just fine. The heir to pretty much everything can marry whoever the hell he wants, and if he doesn’t find a hot enough girl from his own class, he can, and sometimes does, especially in the second wife go around, marry a model or Miss World.

After all, if she f*cks up and introduces some unspeakable disorder into the family, it’s not going to trash his life. He can just kick her to the curb while she wails away at her stupidity in signing a lowball pre-nup, and marry again and produce some new healthier, better heirs. It’s the kids from these unions that might suffer, kids like me.

I have the inherited money and I have the inherited beauty as the daughter of a trophy wife, but I have f*cked up genes and that means I never had a shot, or a choice, about continuing on with the life I was born into.

If Daddy had cared more, or given me a better trust, I could have at least stayed home and lived out my life as an avant garde uptown beauty who my own kind called interesting. But I was rejected like one of the defective eggs that the geese laid in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Milan wasn’t born defective, she was just born without what she saw as enough. In trying to get enough, she accidentally X’d out her place in our world, and so while she might have acted like moving to L.A. and becoming super famous was what she had always wanted, I knew she was kidding herself. We had already been born to what everyone in the world really wanted and, after that, it’s all a come down.

Three lonely empty years into life in L.A., all I wanted was to go home. I was thrilled that she was there but it didn’t take my focus off my goal. So when she sat cross-legged on my bed, blue cat eyes aglow with excitement, and offered me my own chance to be a star, I wasn’t sure.

“Okay, Care Bear, you are going to love this so much. It’s really going to be a ton of fun and it’s for sure going to be a humongous hit. How can it not be? It’s all like Green Acres only, you know, for real, and live every week?”

I laughed. I didn’t know what she was talking about. I was just so happy she was there, here, with me. Despite having my first hangover in three years, and despite Milan’s obvious disdain at my tacky three bedroom house decorated by my middle-aged assistant, Clara, I was feeling like my old self, like Carey Kelleher again that morning.

Milan had arrived the previous afternoon and, after ecstatic greetings at the airport, I had hired a limo. She had said that she was going to stay with me for the night before moving to her parents' place. After seeing my situation, she changed her mind and told me she was staying for as long as it took to 'fix me'. Then she went through my closets, screamed in horror at my three year internet wardrobe, and helped grease me into a pair of her sevens. Grease really was used because three years in bed had left me a hideous puff ball. Grudgingly, she let me wear a long gray cashmere tunic to hide my fat rolls, and off we went to a club she’d heard about called Les Deux.

It was a fabulous night, just like old times. Milan was surrounded by a horde of photographers and adoring club goers, me basking in her limelight. We’d drunk two bottles of Keitel One and held up each other’s hair later in my bathroom while we threw up. Early in the morning, about eleven, when we had woken up after Milan discovered to her horror that I still hadn’t bought a car, she stomped out into the living room looking for Clara, found her, and ordered her to find a nearby Starbucks and hurry up.

When Clara returned, Milan told her she could go home for the day and, holding our lattes, she came back into my bedroom and crawled in beside me, tickling me until I gave up, sat up and asked her to tell me all about her new show.

Her initial explanation and my hangover confused me. Squinting blearily at her I asked. ”So you’re going to do a remake of Green Acres, only live? How is that going to be cool? It sounds kind of stupid.”

She sighed dramatically, shoving back her mane of blond hair. I’d forgotten how beautiful she was, how she sucked up all the air in the room just by being in it. I shivered with pleasure at having her near me again.

“Gawd no, you are so not listening to me. I said it was like Green Acres, not a remake. Gawd no, see, it’s a reality show. It’s going to be called The Natural Life, and it’s all about me playing myself, naturally.” We both laughed. “And in the show I’ll be like living with this, you know, regular blue collar family in their barn, or I guess house, if they have one, somewhere in the middle of bumf*ck nowhere like Nebraska or Texas. You know, one of those places. Anyway, I’ll be like doing farm stuff and it will be really funny and, oh Gawd, I don’t need to explain it 'cause you need to read this.”

She jumped up off the bed and went over to her spilled Vuitton carry-on, rummaging through it for a few minutes. Finding what she wanted, she brandished a pink folder at me and got back on the bed. Nearly knocking my latte out of my hand, she tossed me the folder. I looked down. It was a pink leather binder, and embossed on the front in gold were the words 'The Natural Life, starring Milan Marin and Carey Kelleher'.

Stunned, I looked at her for an explanation. She flashed me her feline grin. “Yup, it’s real. I wanted to surprise you. See, the thing that’s going to make this a ginormous hit, and us ginormously rich and famous, is how much fun people will have seeing two crazy, beautiful heir heads like us milking cows. When Fox told me I could have anyone I wanted as my co-star, I didn’t even think about anyone else. I knew it was going to be me and my gorgeous little Careybeary.” She threw her arms around me, squeezing tightly. “Isn’t this the best, Cares? Aren’t we going to have so much fun? OMG, I promise you’ll love this and make bags of your own money, then you can ditch this icky house and we’ll buy twin mansions or something. Oh, I almost forgot, I fired Clara for you after she brought back our coffees. She sucks and you’re a mess, and so is this house. I’ll find you a cool assistant. OMG, can you believe all this is happening?”

I closed my eyes and leaned against her. I couldn’t believe it. I felt alien happiness and excitement returning into my deadened body.

Milan was with me again. I was going to be famous on my own, not just for who I had been born as. I was going to have my own money that no one could take away from me if I disappointed them. I was going to make Daddy so proud of me and I was only twenty-four and Milan was right, anything and everything good was ahead of me.