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twenty-five years ago." Closing the distance between them

 

and putting her narrow, angular face close to Alex's site

 

hissed, "I wish you'd never been born."

 

 

 

Alex's attempts to compose herself after Stacey's departure

 

had been in vain. Her face was pale and she was trembling

 

as she walked out of the powder room.

 

"I was about to come in and get you." Junior was waiting

 

for Alex in the hallway. At first he didn't notice her troubled

 

expression. When he did, he was instantly concerned. "Alex?

 

What's the matter?"

 

"I'd like to leave now."

 

"Are you sick? What's--"

 

"Please. We'll talk on the way."

 

Without further argument, Junior took her arm and steered

 

her toward the cloakroom, where he asked the attendant for

 

their coats. "Wait here." Alex watched him reenter the club,

 

skirt the dance floor, and move to the table where they had

 

eaten dinner. After a brief exchange with Angus and Sarah

 

Jo, he returned in time to claim their coats.

 

He hustled her outside and into the red Jaguar. He waited

 

until they were a good distance from the club and the car's

 

heater was pumping warm air before he addressed her across

 

the plush interior. "All right, what gives?"

 

"Why didn't you tell me that you were married to Stacey

 

Wallace?"

 

He stared at her until it became a driving hazard, then

 

turned his head and fixed his eyes on the road ahead. "You

 

didn't ask."

 

"How glib."

 

She laid her head against the cold passenger window, feeling

 

like she'd just sustained a beating with a chain and was

 

due to enter the ring for round two. Just when she thought

 

she had finished sorting through all the pieces of the various

 

liaisons of Purcell, another intricate twist emerged.

 

"Is it important?" Junior asked.

 

"I don't know." She turned her shoulders toward him and

 

 

 

rested the back of her head on the window. "You tell me. Is it?"

 

"No. The marriage lasted less than a year. We parted

 

friends."

 

"You parted friends. She's still in love with you."He winced. "That was one of our problems. Stacey's love is obsessive and possessive. She shackled me. I couldn't breathe. We--"

 

"Junior, you screwed around," she interrupted impatiently. "Spare me the banal explanations. I really don't

 

care."

 

"Then why'd you bring it up?"

 

"Because she confronted me in the powder room and accused

 

me of ruining her father's life with this investigation."

 

"For crissake, Alex, Joe Wallace is a big crybaby. Stacey

 

mothers him. I don't doubt for a minute that he's whined and

 

carried on about you something awful in front of her. It's a

 

ploy to get her sympathy. They feed each other's neuroses.

 

Don't worry about it."

 

Alex didn't like Junior Minton very much at that moment.

 

His cavalier attitude toward a woman's--any woman's--

 

love reduced him in Alex's eyes. She'd watched him tonight,

 

doing just as Stacey had described, moving from woman to

 

woman. The young and old, attractive and homely, married

 

and unattached, all seemed to be fair game. He was charming

 

with each, like a mall Easter bunny working the crowd, doling

 

out treats to greedy children who didn't realize they'd be

 

better off without them.

 

He seemed to take their fawning as his due. Alex had never

 

found that kind of conceit commendable or appealing. Junior

 

took for granted that he would elicit a response from every

 

woman he spoke to. Ruling was an involuntary action to

 

him, as natural as breathing. It would never occur to him that

 

someone might misinterpret his intentions and suffer emotional

 

pain.

 

Perhaps if she hadn't had the conversation with Stacey,

 

Alex would have smiled indulgently, as all the other women

 

 

 

and accepted his suaveness as part of his personality,

 

instead, she now felt irritable toward him and wanted

 

to know she couldn't be so blithely dismissed. "It wasn't just the judge Stacey took issue with. She said I was stirring

 

up memories of her marriage to you, airing her dirty linen.

 

I get the impression that being your ex has been a real trial

 

for her."

 

"That's not really my problem, is it?"

 

"Maybe it should be."

 

Her harsh backlash surprised him. "You sound mad at me.

 

Why?"

 

"I don't know." The flare of her temper had been short

 

and sweet. Now, she felt drained. "I'm sorry. Maybe it's

 

just that I always pull for the underdog."

 

He reached across the car and covered her knee with his

 

hand.' 'An admirable quality that hasn't escaped my notice.''

 

Alex picked up his hand and dropped it back onto the leather

 

seat between them. "Uh-oh, I'm not off the hook yet."

 

She resisted his smile. "Why did you marry Stacey?"

 

"Is this really what you want to talk about?" He wheeled

 

the car up to the breezeway of the Westerner Motel and shifted

 

the gear into Park.

 

"Yes."

 

Frowning, he cut the engine and laid his arm along the

 

seat, turning toward her. "It seemed like the thing to do at

 

the time."

 

"You didn't love her."

 

"No shit."

 

"But you made love to her." He raised an inquisitive

 

eyebrow. "Stacey told me that you'd been lovers for a long

 

time before you got married."

 

"Not lovers, Alex. I took her out every now and then."

 

"How often?"

 

"You want it plain?"

 

"Shoot."

 

"I called on Stacey whenever I got horny and the Gail

 

sisters were busy, or had their periods, or--"

 

 

 

"The who?"

 

"The Gail sisters. Another story." He waved off the questions

 

he could see rising in her mind.

 

"I've got all night." She settled more comfortably against her door.

 

"Doesn't anything escape you?"

 

"Very little. What about these sisters?"

 

"There were three of them--triplets, in fact. AH named

 

Gail."

 

"That stands to reason."

 

"No, it wasn't their last name. Their names were Wanda

 

Gail, Nora Gail, and Peggy Gail."

 

"Is this a joke?"

 

He drew an x across his chest. "Cross my heart. Reede

 

had already initiated them, so to speak, before I arrived on

 

the scene. He introduced me to them." He snickered, as

 

though recalling a particularly sordid incident of his youth.

 

"In short, the Gail sisters put out. They liked putting out.

 

Every guy in Purcell High School must of had them at least

 

once."

 

"Okay, I get the picture. But when they were unavailable

 

you called on Stacey Wallace, because she put out, too."

 

He looked at her levelly. "I've never coerced a woman.

 

She was willing, Alex."

 

"Only for you."

 

He shrugged an admission.

 

"And you took advantage of that."

 

"Name me one guy who wouldn't."

 

"You've got a point," she said dryly. "I would venture

 

to say that you're the only man Stacey's ever been with."

 

He had the grace to look a little ashamed. "Yeah, I'd say

 

so, too."

 

"I felt sorry for her tonight, Junior. She was hateful to

 

me, but I couldn't help but feel sorry for her."

 

"I never understood why she latched onto me, but she

 

shadowed me from the day I enrolled into Purcell High

 

School. She was a brainy kid, you know. Always the teachers'

 

 

 

favorite because she was so conscientious and never got into trouble." He chuckled. "They'd never believe what she was

 

willing to do in the back seat of my Chevy."

 

Alex gazed distractedly into space, not really listening.

 

"Stacey despised Celina."

 

"She was jealous of her."

 

"Mainly because when you made love to Stacey, she knew

 

it was my mother you were wishing for."

 

"Jesus," he swore softly, his smile collapsing.

 

"That's what she said. Is that true?"

 

"Celina was always with Reede. That's just the way it

 

was. It was a fact of life."

 

"But you did want her, even though she belonged to your

 

best friend?"

 

After a lengthy pause, he admitted, "I'd be lying if I said

 

otherwise."

 

Very softly, Alex said, "Stacey told me something else.

 

It was an offhanded comment, not a revelation. She said it

 

as though it was common knowledge--something I should

 

already know."

 

"What?"

 

"That you wanted to marry my mother." She refocused

 

on him and asked huskily, "Did you?"

 

He averted his head for a second, then said, "Yes."

 

"Before or after she got married and had me?"

 

"Both." When he saw her apparent confusion, he said,

 

"I don't think a man could look at Celina and not want her

 

for his own. She was beautiful and funny and had this way

 

of making you think you were special to her. She had ..."

 

He groped for the adequate word. "Something," he said,

 

closing his fist around the elusive noun, "something that

 

made you want to possess her."

 

"Did you ever possess her?"

 

"Physically?"

 

"Did you ever sleep with my mother?"

 

His expression was baldly honest and terribly sad. "No,

 

Alex. Never."

 

 

 

"Did you ever try? Would she have?"

 

"I don't think so. I never tried. At least, not very hard."

 

"Why not, if you wanted her so much?"

 

"Because Reede would have killed us."

 

Stunned, she gazed at him. "Do you really think so?"

 

He shrugged as his disarming smile moved into place.

 

"Figure of speech."

 

Alex wasn't so sure. It had sounded literal when he said

 

it.

 

He scooted along the seat of his Jaguar until they were

 

sitting very close. He slid his fingers up through her hair,

 

laid his thumb along her neck and stroked it lightly.

 

"That's sure a dreary subject. Let's change it," he whispered,

 

brushing an airy kiss across her mouth. "How about

 

leaving the past for a while and thinking about the present?"

 

His eyes wandered over her face while his fingertips touched

 

each feature. "I want to sleep with you, Alex."

 

For a moment, she was too stunned to speak. "You're not

 

serious?"

 

"Wanna bet?"

 

He kissed her in earnest then. At least, he tried to. Tilting

 

his head, he rested his lips upon hers, pressed, tested, pressed

 

harder. When she didn't respond, he pulled back and gave

 

her a puzzled look.

 

"No?"

 

"No."

 

"Why not?"

 

"You know without my telling you. It would be crazy.

 

Wrong."

 

"I've done crazier things." He lowered his hand to the

 

front of her sweater and fingered a patch of soft suede.

 

"Wronger things, too."

 

"Well, I haven't."

 

"We'd be good together, Alex."

 

"We'll never know."

 

He ran his thumb along her lower lip, tracking its slow

 

progress with his eyes. "Never say never." He bent his head