Best Kept Secrets

and kissed her again--affectionately, not passionately--then

 

returned to the driver's side of the car and got out. ", At the door, he gave her a chaste good-night kiss, but his

 

expression was indulgent and amused. Alex knew he thought she was just being coy and that wearing her down was only

 

." a matter of time.

 

She was so befuddled by his come-on that it was several

 

minutes before she noticed that the red message light on her

 

telephone was blinking. She called the motel's front desk,

 

retrieved her message, and called the specified number. Even

 

before the doctor got on the line, she knew what he would

 

say. Nevertheless, his words shocked her.

 

"Miss Gaither, I'm terribly sorry. Mrs. Graham passed

 

away earlier this evening without ever regaining consciousness."

 

 

 

Twenty-one

 

 

 

Alex knocked and waited until Reede called out, "Come in,"

 

before entering his office. "Good morning. Thank you for

 

seeing me on such short notice."

 

She sat down in the chair in front of his desk. Without

 

asking, he poured her a cup of coffee to her liking and placed

 

it in front of her. She thanked him with a nod.

 

"I'm sorry about your grandmother, Alex," he said as he

 

resumed his seat in the creaky swivel chair.

 

"Thank you."

 

Alex had been away for a week, handling the details of

 

her grandmother's funeral. Only Alex, a handful of former

 

coworkers, and a few of the nursing home patients had at

 

 

 

 

 

tended the chapel service. After the burial, Alex had begun

 

the unwelcome chore of clearing out her grandmother's room

 

at the nursing home. The staff had been kind, but there was

 

a waiting list, so they had needed the room emptied immediately.

 

It had been an emotionally stressful week. As she had sat

 

staring at the modest casket, while organ music played softly

 

in the background, she had felt an overwhelming sense of

 

defeat. She had failed to fulfill the promise she had made to

 

herself and to her grandmother: She hadn't produced Celina's

 

murderer in time.

 

More defeating than that, she had failed to win her grandmother's

 

absolution and love. That had been her last chance;

 

she wouldn't have another.

 

She had given serious consideration to throwing in the

 

towel, telling Greg that he'd been right, and that she should

 

have taken his advice from the beginning. He would enjoy

 

seeing her humility, and he would immediately assign her

 

another case.

 

That would have been the easier course. She would never

 

have to enter the city limits of Purcell again, or cope with

 

the hostility that flew at her like missiles from everyone she

 

met, or look into the face of this man, who generated myriad

 

ambiguous feelings inside her.

 

From a legal viewpoint, she still had a case too weak to

 

stand up in court. But from a personal perspective, she

 

couldn't quit. She had become intrigued by the men who had

 

loved her mother. She had to know which one of them had

 

killed her, and whether or not she was responsible for her

 

mother's murder. She would either have to deny her guilt,

 

or learn to live with it, but she couldn't let it go forever

 

unresolved.

 

So, she had returned to Purcell. She was staring into the

 

pair of green eyes that had haunted her thoughts for a week,

 

and they were as compelling and disturbing as she remembered.

 

"I wasn't sure you'd be back," he told her bluntly.

 

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"You should have been. I told you I wouldn't give up."

 

; "Yeah, I remember," he said grimly. "How was the dance the other night?"

 

His question came out of the blue and evoked a knee-jerk

 

response. "How did you know I went?"

 

"Word gets around."

 

"Junior told you."

 

"No."

 

"I can hardly stand the suspense," Alex said. "How did

 

you find out I went to the Horse and Gun Club?"

 

"One of my deputies clocked Junior doing eighty-one that

 

night out on the highway. Around eleven o'clock, he said.

 

He saw you in the car with him." He was no longer looking

 

at her, but studying the toes of his boots. "You sure were

 

in a hell of a hurry to get back to your motel."

 

"I was ready to leave the club, that's all. I wasn't feeling

 

well."

 

"The barbecue didn't sit well with you? Or was it the

 

people? Some of them make me sick to my stomach, too."

 

"It wasn't the food or the people. It was, well, one person:

 

Stacey Wallace . . . Minton." Alex closely watched for his

 

reaction. His face remained impassive. "Why didn't anyone

 

tell me that Stacey had been married to Junior?"

 

"You didn't ask."

 

Miraculously, she was able to hold her temper in check.

 

"Didn't it occur to anybody that their hasty marriage might

 

be significant?"

 

"It wasn't."

 

' 'I reserve the right to decide the significance of it myself.''

 

"Be my guest. Do you think it's significant?"

 

"Yes, I do. The timing of Junior's first marriage always

 

struck me as strange. It's even stranger that the bride turned

 

out to be the judge's daughter."

 

"That's not strange at all."

 

"Coincidental, certainly."

 

"Not even that. Stacey Wallace had been in love, or lust,

 

with Junior since the day she first laid eyes on him. Everybody

 

 

 

knew it, including Junior. She certainly made no secret of

 

her devotion. When Celina died, Stacey saw her chance and

 

seized it."

 

"Stacey didn't strike me as an opportunist."

 

 

 

"Grow up, Alex. We're all opportunists when we want

 

something bad enough. She loved the guy," he pointed out

 

impatiently.' 'He was sick over Celina's death. I guess Stacey

 

figured her love could make his hurt go away, that it would

 

be enough."

 

"It wasn't."

 

"Obviously. She couldn't make Junior love her back. She

 

sure as hell couldn't weld his zippers shut." Vexed, he

 

gnawed on the corner of his lip. "Who spilled the beans

 

about this? Junior?"

 

"Stacey herself. She confronted me in the powder room

 

and accused me of upsetting her life by reopening this case.''

 

"Gutsy lady," he said, nodding approval. "I always liked

 

her."

 

"Oh, really? Did you sleep with her, too? Or did the Gail

 

sisters keep you satiated?"

 

"The Gail sisters, huh?" He barked a short laugh. "I know

 

Stacey didn't talk to you about Purcell's notorious triplets."

 

"Junior filled in the gaps."

 

"Must have been quite an evening."

 

* 'Most revealing.''

 

"Oh, yeah?" he drawled. "What'd you reveal?"

 

She ignored this well-placed insinuation. "Reede, what

 

was the rush? Junior wasn't in love with Stacey. For the sake

 

of argument, let's say he talked himself into marrying her.

 

Why did they marry when they did?"

 

"Maybe she wanted to be a June bride."

 

"Don't make fun of me!" She shot out of her chair and

 

moved to the window.

 

He whistled low and long. "Boy, are you ever in a rotten

 

mood."

 

"I just buried my only living relative, remember?" she

 

flared.

 

 

 

He cursed beneath his breath and raked his fingers through his hair. "For a minute there, I did forget. Look, Alex, I'm sorry. I remember how bad I felt when I buried my old man.''

 

She turned to face him, but he was staring at nothing.

 

"Angus and Junior were the only ones out of the whole

 

goddamn town who came to the funeral. We didn't even hold

 

it in a church or the funeral home, just at the grave site.

 

Angus went back to work. Junior returned to school so he

 

wouldn't miss a biology test. I went home.

 

"Not long after lunch, Celina came to my house. She had

 

skipped school just to come and be with me. She knew I'd

 

feel low, even though I hated the son of a bitch while he was

 

alive. We lay down together on my bed and stayed there until

 

it got dark. She knew if she didn't go home, her mother I would get worried. She cried for me because I couldn't." ; When he stopped speaking, there was a ponderous silence

 

in the room. Alex was still standing by the window, motionless

 

and transfixed by his story. Her chest hurt with heartache

 

for the lonely young man he'd been.

 

"Was that the first time you made love to Celina?"

 

He looked straight at her, got out of his chair, and approached

 

her. "Since you broached the subject of love lives,

 

I how's yours?"

 

The tension snapped, as did her temper. "Why don't you

 

stop beating around the bush and come right out and ask?"

 

"Okay," he sneered. "Has Junior made it into your pants

 

yet?"

 

"You bastard."

 

"Has he?"

 

"No!"

 

"I'll bet he's tried. He always tries." His laugh was deep

 

and stirring. "Bingo." He raised his hand and stroked her

 

cheek with the backs of his fingers. "You're blushing, Counselor."

 

She swatted his hand aside. "Go to hell."

 

She was furious with herself for blushing like a schoolgirl

 

in front of him. It was none of his business who she slept

 

 

 

 

 

with. What bothered her most, however, was that he didn't

 

seem to care. If she had to describe that glint in his eyes she

 

would call it amusement, possibly contempt, but certainly

 

not jealousy.

 

To retaliate, she asked suddenly, "What did you and Celina

 

quarrel about?"

 

"Celina and I? When?"

 

"The spring of your junior year. Why did she go to El

 

Paso for the summer and start dating my father?"

 

"Maybe she needed a change of scenery," he said flippantly.

 

"Did you know how much your best friend loved her?"

 

His goading grin vanished. "Did Junior tell you that?"

 

"I knew before he told me. Did you know, at the time,

 

that he loved her?"

 

He rolled his shoulders forward in a semblance of a shrug.

 

"Nearly every guy in school--"

 

"I'm not talking about infatuation with a popular girl,

 

Reede." She grabbed his shirtsleeve to show just how important

 

this was to her. ' 'Did you know how Junior felt about

 

her?"

 

"What if I did?"

 

"He said you would have killed him if he'd tried anything

 

with her. He said you would have killed them both if they

 

had betrayed you."

 

"A figure of speech."

 

"That's what Junior said, too, but I don't think so," she

 

said evenly. "There were a lot of passions stirring. Your

 

relationships with each other were overlapping and complex."

 

"Whose relationships?"

 

"You and my mother loved each other, but you both loved

 

Junior, too. Wasn't it a love triangle in the strictest sense of

 

the word?"

 

"What the hell are you talking about? Do you think Junior

 

and I are a couple of queers?"

 

Unexpectedly, he grabbed her hand and flattened it against

 

 

 

Jus fly. "Feel that, baby? It's been hard more than it's been

 

soft, but it's never been hard for a fag."

 

Stunned and shaken, she pried her hand away, subconsciously

 

rubbing the palm of it against her thigh, as though

 

it had been branded. "You have a redneck mentality, Sheriff

 

Lambert," she said, supremely agitated. "I think you and

 

Junior love each other the way Indian blood brothers do. But

 

you're competitive, too."

 

"I don't compete with Junior."

 

"Maybe not consciously, but other people have pitted you

 

against each other. And guess which one of you always came

 

out on top? You. That bothered you. It still does."

 

"Is this more of your psychological bullshit?"

 

"It's not just my opinion. Stacey mentioned it the other

 

night, and not at my prompting. She said people always

 

compared the two of you, and that Junior always came in

 

second."

 

"I can't help what people think."

 

"Your competitiveness came to a head over Celina, didn't

 

it?"

 

"Why ask me? You've got all the answers."

 

"You had the edge there, too. Junior wanted to be Celina's

 

lover, but you actually were."

 

A long silence followed. Reede regarded her with the concentration

 

of a hunter who finally has his quarry in the cross

 

hairs. The sunlight streaming through the blinds glinted in

 

his eyes, on his hair, on his eyebrows, which were slanted

 

dangerously.

 

Very quietly, he said, "Good try, Alex, but I'm not admitting

 

anything."

 

He tried to move away then, but she caught his arms.

 

"Well, weren't you her lover? What difference does it make

 

if you say so now?"

 

"Because I never kiss and tell." His eyes slid down to her

 

pulsing throat, then back up. "And you should be damned

 

glad I don't."

 

Want surged through her, as warm and golden as the morn