chapter 11
Mace stood in the open doorway of a farmhouse in southern Indiana, still reeling from battle. He had led the group here once the fighting had ended; after finally working his way out of their grip at the church, the seeker had all but disappeared.
Mace’s fingers gripped the doorjamb so tightly, he wondered if he’d leave indented fingerprints in the wood.
The house belonged to a Xian Pastor Layton knew, who’d offered to let them rest there awhile, as well as tend to the cut on Glimmer’s cheek. While the hospitality was welcomed, Mace had found it difficult to find any respite since they’d arrived. His throat now constricted, angry with himself for letting the seeker slip from them.
His thoughts also lingered on Nikki. She was out there somewhere and injured much worse than Glimmer, the deep gash on her collarbone likely robbing the life from her body. And here he stood, surrounded by the long, rolling hills and the aura of perfect calm.
But that was what was meant to be, he supposed. Raven there with her and him here, constantly trying to catch up, always arriving as the cavalry and never the dashing hero. And he couldn’t be angry with Raven for his actions — they had kept Nikki alive, and his results gave him every right to be the one who continued to run with her. Whatever kept her alive was what was best for her. In the time they’d been following Raven’s trail, he’d had quite a bit of time to consider that very thought. Whatever kept her alive was best for her.
Or maybe whoever kept her alive was best for her.
He started when a cold hand touched his.
Winter smiled, dropped her fingers. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to scare you. Feeling okay?”
Mace glanced over at her. “Yeah, just thinking.”
Winter’s hair lay in long dark sheets around her face, every strand still in place even though she’d fought as hard as any of them. Only the weariness in her eyes gave any hint to the events she had faced hours before. “Mace, thinking can be dangerous at a time like this.”
“Tell me about it.”
She quirked her head to the side. “Why don’t you tell me?”
“Nikki’s alive because of Raven. He’s watched out for her and done everything right ever since they left Viennesse.”
“And you think you wouldn’t have done the same?”
“I don’t know.” He focused his attention outside, where a lone horse nibbled hay at a fencerow a few hundred yards away. “I don’t think like Raven, that’s for sure. I probably would have done the exact opposite and —”
“And how do you know that wouldn’t have worked as well?” Winter brushed at a smudge on the hem of her white T-shirt.
“How do I know either way?” Mace turned to face her. “I’ve never doubted that Nikki and I are supposed to be together. Never. Until now.”
Winter stopped working on the stain and looked up. “Mace, you and Nikki love each other. Anyone could see that. When all this is over —”
He cut her off. “Over? This is never going to be over. Even once we find a way to beat the seeker, Vessler is still out there. He still wants Nikki, and everything he’s planned hinges on her. Right after this battle, another will be on the horizon. This isn’t even close to being over, Winter.”
Tiny lines framed her mouth as she smiled. “Mace, you know in your heart that you are supposed to be together. Don’t let your head get in the way.”
“We’ll see. She’s okay, right?”
Winter tilted her head back. “It was a deep wound, but yes, I have faith that she’s going to be fine.”
“Me too.” He placed a hand over his stomach. “Deep inside, I know she’s okay. How’s Glimmer?”
“She’s good. Resting, doesn’t want us to leave without her.”
“Is the cut going to leave a scar?” They all had their battle wounds, and for the most part they wore them proudly. But a scar on Glimmer’s face … Mace didn’t figure she would like that.
“No. I don’t think it will leave a mark. It was superficial.” Winter pivoted and looped an arm through Mace’s. “Come on. Let’s get you some food, then we can rejoin the fight.”
He pulled from her. “You go ahead. I’m going to leap back over to the church in Philadelphia and talk to Pastor Layton again. See if he can remember anything about where Raven was planning to go next.”
Winter stepped away from him. “Be careful out there.”
He was halfway down the steps when she called to him again.
“And Mace?”
He turned to face her where she stood framed by the front door.
“Follow your heart. Not your head.”
“You’re awake,” Raven said when Nikki stirred and rubbed her eyes with her hands. The fire had died down to glowing embers, with only a faint flame in the center of charred bits of lumber.
“Yes.” Her voice was weak, but she was a fighter. She’d get stronger. “How long was I out? What happened?”
His arms and legs were asleep and aching because he hadn’t wanted to move for fear of waking her. But now they screamed in protest as fresh blood raced to his extremities in a rush of needle pricks.
He moved to sit beside her and used one foot to kick at the fire. A flame erupted almost immediately, throwing dancing orange light onto the cave walls. “The seeker caught up to us at the church in Philadelphia.”
Her breath quickened. Shallow, fast, each inhale growing deeper until her whole body shook.
“Calm down,” he soothed. “It’s okay. I got you out of there. We’re safe here.”
Her eyes darted around the cave wildly and she tried to rise to her feet. A moment later, her hands flew to her throat, grabbing at the healing wound until her hands became like claws ripping at her flesh.
Raven stared in shock at the nightmare in front of him. He finally fisted his hands over hers, wrestling her arms to her sides. “Nikki! Stop it.”
She fought him, her spine twisting against his chest. “No! It’s in me! I have to get it out, Raven!” Her tone rose to a shriek.
Talk about a fast recovery. For someone who was so weak moments ago, she was fighting — and slipping — from his grip in ways few opponents had ever managed to do. Frustrated, Raven clamped his legs around her lower half in an attempt to stop her momentum. To his amazement, it worked.
“There’s nothing in you!” he yelled, but even he knew it sounded false. If Nikki could feel the poison, sense it, it meant she wasn’t out of danger. Pastor Layton had given him some instructions. But right now, battling with Nikki, he couldn’t remember a single word.
He dragged one of her wrists to the other and clamped her arms against his side, leaving his other arm free. “Nikki!” His free hand smoothed the hair from her face, where it had whipped across her cheeks and forehead. “Nikki” — softer now —”talk to me.”
She bucked once more, but soon she calmed.
He pressed his mouth to her ear. “Talk to me, Nikki. Tell me about …” About what? What had the pastor told him? Get her to talk about things that bring her joy. “Tell me about your artwork. You love to draw, don’t you?”
The pause lasted for what felt like an eternity. Her eyes darting again, but not looking at the cave. This time they were searching for the memory he’d requested. Finally, she said, “No, I can’t draw anymore. It hurts people.”
Raven’s heart stuttered. “Okay, well, um, tell me about … your motorcycle.”
“It’s gone. Damon Vessler took it away, along with everything else I owned. He wants to turn me into a monster. But I think the seeker beat him to it. I can feel it, Raven. Something evil is moving through my veins.” Her voice had dropped several octaves, as if she’d submitted herself to the transformation.
He needed a safer topic. Maybe concentrate deeper into the past. “You grew up with a great dog, didn’t you? Bo. Tell me about Bo.”
“A hell hound killed him while he tried to protect me.”
Raven’s heart sank a little more. At this rate, I’ll turn her in a few minutes. He dropped his head against hers. God, isn’t there something in Nikki’s life that doesn’t cause her pain? “Nikki, tell me about something that makes you happy.”
Her words were a faint whisper. “There isn’t any happiness for me.”
He began to grind his teeth in frustration. “That’s not true.” Though much hurt, so many wounds had marred Nikki, maybe there really wasn’t anything that could make her happy. Not that it would stop him from searching. “Come on. Let’s talk about the night we met at the ruins. Remember? We rode my Harley all over Germany. I know it was a good night for me.”
“I hurt Mace. He was so mad, and I lied to him about you.”
“Something else, then. You’re a Halfling. Tell me about that.”
“If I was a Halfling, I would have wings. Do you see wings? No? Me neither. It doesn’t matter what Will says. I’m still just a freak.”
“You’ll get your wings soon. Vine got his at a rock concert just a few days before Mace, Vine, and I showed up to protect you. You’re worth protecting, Nikki.”
She tilted away. For a moment he thought she’d closed him out, but Raven quickly realized the truth. And it caused the backs of his eyes to burn. Please don’t make me do this, he pleaded. But he knew it was the only way. This time when he spoke, there was a new authority in his voice, in part to mask the pain. “Nikki, tell me what makes you happy.”
She shook her head, as if speaking was too great an effort.
“Tell me,” he insisted. He clamped his hand on her chin and tilted to look at her profile. Her eyes were visibly darker, jolting him with alarm. “Tell me.”
On a long breath, she uttered, “Mace.”
Raven squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block the icy-cold dread, but there was no stopping the ice pick to his chest. Moisture rushed to his eyes. “Nikki.” Oh God, please give me the strength to do this. “Tell me about Mace.”
Her words came slowly at first, as if trying to remember a movie she’d watched a long time ago. “We had a picnic … at Viennesse.” As she talked on, deep into the night, she became stronger. He’d tried to route the conversation back to the stolen moments the two of them had shared, but each time he did, she became afraid, agitated, fearful. It was only when she spoke of Mace that she was peaceful.
His heart cracked further with every moment she described. Every look Mace had given her, every brush of hands … or lips. And when she tried to trail off, because she was tired or felt embarrassed, Raven coaxed her on because he loved her too much to allow her to stop. Though it meant clearing his throat often to mask his sorrow. As the night wore on, he began to peek at her neck more and more, where the ash-black cut and graying skin of the wound was becoming like live flesh again. “That’s good, Nikki,” he said, stroking her hair with his hand. “You’re doing great. Tell me more.”
And she did. Sitting with Mace by the lake, watching the fog roll in and consume them both; working in the kitchen on the sailing yacht, where she would have broken every dish in the galley if Mace hadn’t showed up and helped her store them just in time.
After awhile, the stories became dreamlike memories told with long pauses and breathy words. When she seemed very calm, he tried to alter the subject slightly. “Do you remember when we were in the woods and I was teaching you how to fight?”
Her body tensed. “I said some horrible things to Mace that day.”
Raven’s eyes closed. That memory had been his last chance — the day he’d fallen in love with her. And she with him. But now, to her that day was just one more time she’d disappointed Mace.
For Raven, it was like dying two deaths. He resolved himself to the reality that had always lived within all her mixed-up feelings. She loved Raven, there was no question. But Mace was her match. He was her soul mate. Raven slid a hand between them to press against his heart. It hurt so badly, he wondered if he’d find two separate halves.
By the time Mace stepped through the dark water at the mouth of the cave, Raven knew his days would continue. They had to, because it would be too humane for him to die.
Curled with a sleeping Nikki before the fire, Raven half expected Mace to become livid. After all, wasn’t that what the two of them did? Get mad at each other for cozying up to Nikki? Instead, Mace came over slowly and dropped to his haunches.
But his eyes weren’t on Nikki. They were on Raven. Those weird blue-green eyes scanned his face a few minutes beyond uncomfortable. Raven gestured down at her with a nudge of his chin. “I think she’s going to be okay.”
Mace’s eyes didn’t leave him; he could feel them burning into his flesh and hoped the redness in his gaze would be mistaken for exhaustion. “So she is. I’m worried about you, brother.”
Raven looked away, grateful for the slashes of light the fire created. Maybe it would disguise what he was feeling. “I’m good.”
Mace drew a heavy breath and dropped a backpack down beside them. He busied himself pulling out a sleeping bag and some canned food. Raven took the cue and slid from Nikki without disturbing her. The two boys worked silently, and in a moment’s time Nikki was snuggled into the sleeping bag.
Mace tugged at the neck of her shirt to reveal a section of the wound. He winced. “Looks bad.”
Raven snorted. “You should have seen it before.”
“Before?” Mace echoed.
“Yeah, before she started talking about you.” Raven swallowed hard and reached for a couple cans of food. “Tuna and fruit cocktail? I ordered shrimp.”
“Sorry. I guess I thought tuna and shrimp were about the same.” Mace’s smile was a flash of white in the dark cave, and it disappeared when he looked down to unzip a pocket on the side of the backpack. He handed a fork and can opener to Raven.
Raven nudged the tuna into the edge of the fire for a few moments, and for that span of time the boys sat with the sparks from the flame and the waterfall providing the only sound. He tested the sides of the can, found the temperature manageable, and took a bite. “Tuna on an open fire tastes pretty good,” he lied. In reality, he could be eating last week’s cafeteria special and it would have tasted the same. His mind was still reeling over the fact that he’d been wrong about Nikki all this time. Emotions were horrible things. He’d been right to avoid them before, and he never should have let himself feel.
He set the can aside. There was something else too. Something was tugging him in a different direction, pulling him from this journey. From her. He’d always felt as though his part in their mission was more about Dr. Richmond than Nikki. If he’d listened to his heart in the beginning and concentrated on Richmond, maybe he wouldn’t be hurting so much right now.
Mace’s gaze traveled to the tuna then back to Raven. “You should eat, bro.”
“There are a lot of things I should do. But will I? People always assume I’ll do the wrong thing. Maybe they’re right.”
Mace frowned. What happened in here? Something had changed inside Raven, and not for the better. “What are you talking about?”
Raven picked up the tuna can, but didn’t take a bite, instead sticking his fork into the meat over and over until the prongs were filled like an overstuffed shish kebab. “What would you do if you knew something no one else knew, information that could change everything?”
Mace opened his mouth, but couldn’t answer.
Raven chuckled. “Never mind. I know what you’d do.”
It sounded like an accusation. “What do you mean?”
Raven’s eyes trailed to Nikki.
“Raven, if you know a way to help Nikki and aren’t talking —”
“Back off. It’s nothing like that.”
This wasn’t going the way Mace had expected. “Sorry, Raven. I’m not following you.”
“You know this is all Vessler, right?”
“What?” Mace had just opened the can of fruit cocktail, but he discarded it at Raven’s words.
“If a seeker doesn’t kill the target, it releases enough poison to —”
“To turn her? That’s what this has been about?” He felt the urge to run to Nikki.
Raven stared him down and motioned him to stay put. “Vessler killed Nikki’s parents, but when her desire for vengeance wasn’t enough to get her to turn, he tried to lure her back, but that failed too.”
Mace focused on the fire. “So he petitioned his god to release a seeker. Not to kill her, just to turn her. Unbelievable. We’re back in the fight with Vessler again. I figured we’d get a little break while he recovered from the gunshot wounds Nikki inflicted, but I guess not.” He reached for the tuna, slid most of the meat off the fork, and held it out to Raven again.
He rolled his eyes and took the can. Finally, he took a bite.
“Do you know of a way to stop this insanity, Raven?”
“No. I just think about all she’s been through.” Raven looked down at Nikki, and Mace followed his gaze.
“Yeah.” Her hair lay across her cheek and feathered out around her, catching light from the fire.
“It’s enough,” Raven said.
“What do you mean?”
“She’s been through enough.”
Mace nodded in agreement. There was something very final about Raven’s words, however, and if he didn’t know better, he’d swear Raven held the power to end some of Nikki’s pain. But that was crazy. How could Raven stop even part of her suffering? He stared at Raven, who was now poking at the flames. Something wasn’t right.
Nikki stirred. They both turned to face her. Her eyes flittered open and she mumbled one word. “Mace?”
He moved from where he’d been sitting and reached to run a hand over her hair, her face. “I’m right here.”
“I know what I have to do,” she said, words forming on cracked lips. “I have to beat the seeker. I saw it in a dream. And you can’t help me. Either of you.”
Mace’s gaze shot to Raven, who stared at her then shrugged. “I don’t know what she’s talking about.”
Both boys leaned a little closer.
Nikki yawned. “I saw it. It’ll come here to find us. And I’ll fight it.” She closed her eyes. “Promise me you won’t intervene.”
“There’s no way on this planet that’s going to happen.” Mace’s body tensed. “We fight together.”
Nikki shook her head. “We can’t. I saw that in my dream too. If we fight it together, it’ll kill me.”