“You won’t hurt me, I know you won't hurt me, please Gabe, I want this, I really want this”
His eyes close and barely open again, the only light is from the sunken lights in the floor of the deck and those from inside of the spa, they only go to enhance the colour of Gabe’s eyes and right now they are the most amazing shade of blue.
“Do you have any idea what it does to me, when I hear you say that? I know what this all means to you Lauren. I just want you to be sure, I don’t want you to have any regrets, because once we do this, there is no going back and I really don’t want to be responsible for your guilt, so tell me now if you’re not sure”
“I feel no guilt, my marriage is over, there is no going back for me, and right now, I am exactly where I want to be and I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else, with anyone else, only you”
“Only me” It’s not a question, it’s just a statement of the facts. He strokes his thumb over my cheek, my jaw and my lips, the way that he looks at me is almost reverential, I don’t think I’ve ever felt so desired, so safe, so wanted.
“I want to show you how it should be Lauren, how it can be, I want us to be equal and I want you to always tell me, tell me when you like something, tell me when you don’t, when you want more or when you need less, always tell me. This is new and different for both of us and I just want to get this right for you baby, so promise, you’ll tell me?”
“I promise”
“Good girl”
Fuck, I am almost in a dream state. I feel more stoned than last night, when there were actual drugs involved; that’s what it is, he drugs me, intoxicates me, it’s like I’m tripping, just on the edge of reality and I could just so easily slip away, out of myself, out of my mind and body and watch from above, but that’s not what I want. I want, no I need to feel every sensation he can offer me, every stroke, every bite, every kiss. I want to over dose on it and even then, it won’t be too much, there could never be too much of what I’m feeling now. God no wonder people become junkies if this is the state they permanently walk around in, who wants reality when this is an option?
He shifts forward on his seat and moves his other leg between mine and tilts his hips up and lifts me, I wrap my legs around him and holding on to my hips, he lowers me down onto him and enters me, very gently, very slowly, looking up into my eyes the whole time.
“Fuck baby, that feels good, but you must tell me if I hurt you Lauren”
I rock my hips forward so that he goes into me deeper.
“Fuck that feels good Lauren” He moans and whispers in my ear, “Cazzo, Bella”
Oh. My. Lordy. Lord. Lord, I have no idea what it means or even if that’s what he said. He could be telling me I smell like sheep… I. DON’T. CARE…It sounds amazing and I am just, gone, lost. His
We move together and find our rhythm. I tighten my legs around him, pulling him in deeper still. It's almost painful but it feels so good at the same time and I know I'm not going to last long.
“Lauren, I'm not going to last much longer, you feel too good baby, I’ve waited for this since I set eyes on you”
I knew he could read my mind, and that just goes to prove it!
“Fuck me” is all I can say “Just fuck me Gabe please” I beg!
“Open your eyes baby, I told you, I wanna see you come, I want to see you and I want to hear you, open!”
I stare right at him, our faces only inches apart. We make barely a noise, other than the very hushed sounds of our breathing.
“Lauren”
Just hearing him say my name in that sexy, raspy voice, the look in his eyes as he looks into mine, he makes me feel beautiful, desired and it turns me on to the point of insanity.
“Fuck Lauren”
I start to come, still staring right at him; he's so deep inside me, rubbing everything that needs to be rubbed to send me over the edge as my insides tighten.
“Baby, that's it, I'm coming, shit, fuck you feel good Lauren”