When she shifted closer to me, her face still cradled in my hand, it caused her erect nipples to brush along my forearm. “Then stop thinking…” she whispered hoarsely.
I could feel her hesitation and the inconspicuous, nervous tremors that ran through her and riddled her entire body. Had I not been so close to her, touching her, kissing her…I probably would have never noticed. But I did. And I couldn’t ignore the contradiction between her actions and reactions.
The way she silenced me with her mouth was brazen and bold. Yet the way she trembled left me hesitant to continue; her response indicated uncertainty. I refused to do anything she wasn’t completely comfortable with, so I ended it once more.
“There’s no need to rush this, Jade.”
She kept her chin tilted and lids lowered, preventing me from reading her expression. “I’m not trying to rush anything. I’ve just never felt like this before.”
“Like what?”
Her gaze slowly drifted up to meet mine. “Good. I can’t explain it any other way.”
“And I promise it won’t ever stop.”
My words appeared to settle her, yet the tremors remained. I could only assume they were brought on by adrenaline, because there wasn’t an ounce of fear in her eyes when she held my stare and asked, “Will you do something for me?”
Had I not been lost in all that was Jade, I would’ve given her question more thought. But apparently, nothing was strong enough to break the spell she’d cast upon me, leaving me too weak to do anything other than agree. “Absolutely.”
“Will you take off your shirt?” Excitement filled her eyes, and hope danced in her voice.
“Seriously?” I was baffled, not at all expecting that to be her request. But when she did nothing but stare at me, one eyebrow quirked in expectation, I gave in. If Jade wanted me shirtless, then that was what she’d get.
I barely had it off before she was on her feet, making her way to the bedroom door. Her blue eyes sparkled mischievously on her way back to me, and that’s when I realized she not only closed the door, but she also locked it. I’d told myself we would take this slow, yet she was making it very difficult to keep that promise.
I stood to meet her, although she stopped my pursuit before I’d taken the first step. Standing in front of me, she closed her eyes, and on an exhale, she brought her lips to the center of my chest. My heart exploded and my knees weakened, forcing me back onto the edge of the mattress.
She situated herself between my legs, now almost eye level, and closed her mouth over mine. The entire time, I let her take the lead, not once stripping her of control, and the longer our kiss lasted, the more lost in her I became. So lost, in fact, that when her hands slid down my stomach, I didn’t stop her. When her fingers began to unfasten the button on my jeans, I didn’t give it any thought. And when she slowly dragged the zipper down, even the grinding of the metal teeth didn’t make me question where this was going.
But as soon as she tried to gain access, unable to get far while I remained seated, I was finally brought back to reality. In an instant, I broke away from her lips. “Jade…this can wait. It’s late, and you have work tomorrow. We don’t have to do this now.”
“I know, Cash. But I want to.” She peppered my jaw with kisses, bringing her mouth to my ear to whisper, “I want to touch you…all of you.” I was aware that her actions were driven by endorphins, causing her to be more forward, but as soon as she hooked her thumbs into the waistband of my jeans, I lost my will to fight against her.
I lifted my hips enough to help her drag my jeans down my legs, my boxers with them. When she stepped out of the way, I toed off my shoes and kicked my pants the rest of the way off, leaving me completely naked in front of her.
Jade took her time exploring my body while I refrained from touching her. But the moment she took my dick in her hand, I nearly lost all self-control. Her palm slid carefully over my shaft, so lightly it only served to tease me. I had to force my ass to stay on the mattress rather than pump myself in her grip, because I needed more friction. The longer it went on, the worse it became. Finally, after I groaned in what probably sounded like pain, she stilled, which forced me to look into her anxiety-filled eyes.
“Am I doing it wrong?” Gone was the vixen, and in her place stood a terrified goddess.
I was aware of her past, of that asshole taking her hand and making her do things she wasn’t comfortable with, so I refused to do anything remotely similar. But telling someone how to jack you off was a sure way to go soft.
Keeping my eyes on hers, I carefully held her wrist, silently asking permission. She never gave me a nod or verbally answered me, because her expression told me everything. It wasn’t simply consent, but almost a plea to help her through this. She wasn’t ready to give up—she only sought to please me, yet she needed to understand how.
I placed my hand over hers, gripping myself but feeling only her touch. I tightened my fingers to show her how hard to squeeze, and then began to slide our hold up and down, slowing toward the head with slightly more pressure than before. After several pumps, I released my grip and let her take over. While she adjusted to working my dick solo, I held her by the back of the neck and took her mouth with mine.
I needed air and broke the kiss. “Fuck, Jade. That feels so good,” I rasped against her lips. She didn’t say anything, but I didn’t expect her to, either. The more I praised her with words and reactions, the more confident she became. And the more confident she was, the closer I got to the peak. “Jade, Jade, Jade…stop,” I rushed out, pulling her hand off me.
“What’d I do?” Panic filled every part of her from her eyes to her voice.
“God…nothing. But if you didn’t stop, I was about to come all over you.”
Her posture visibly eased. “Isn’t that the point?”
A huffed chuckle rolled through me. “Ultimately, I guess. But I don’t want to come in your hand.”
Something shifted in her expression, confusion maybe. “Then where?”
Not wasting another second, I lifted her shirt and tossed it onto the floor with my discarded clothes. Her bare breasts called to me, begging me to taste them. So before I moved to her shorts, I lavished her chest with attention. I flicked one nipple with my tongue, and when it was hard enough to cut glass, I switched to the other, pulling it into my mouth and sucking on it.
Nothing beat the moans coming from Jade. There wasn’t a sweeter sound in the world. And I wanted to do everything I could so they’d never end.