“That’s good to know,” Tara said. She rolled her eyes and sat up slightly. She rubbed the sleep from her eyes and turned to look at me again. She smiled and searched my face for something. I couldn’t tell what she was after.
“What is it?” I asked.
She shrugged. “Just wondering something.”
“What?” I pressed.
“It’s silly,” Tara said. “I just realized that I don’t know what you did before coming to work with us.”
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“Like for a living,” Tara explained. “I never asked. Where did you work before?”
“Oh,” I said, surprised by her question. “I worked as a mechanic. On bikes.”
“Oh,” Tara said. She nodded and looked slightly impressed. “I bet that was fun.”
“I loved it,” I said with a wistful smile. Sometimes, I really did miss my old job.
“I bet,” Tara said. “I’m sorry you had to give it up.”
“No, you’re not,” I teased easily. “You practically forced me to take the job at Yates’ Motorcycles.”
She laughed. “I did not. Your father did that.”
“True,” I admitted. “He did. But, you’re still not sorry.”
“In a way, I am,” Tara argued. “I know how important working on bikes can be. My father loved motorcycles almost as much as he loved me and my mother. He collected them and fixed them up himself. I grew up around motorcycles like most kids grow up going to sporting events.”
“Really?” I raised my eyebrows. I never imagined much about Tara’s past, but if I had, I wouldn’t have pictured that. I couldn’t even imagine Tara riding a motorcycle.
“Really,” she said. “I haven’t ridden in ages though. Not since my father passed away. I just… I haven’t been able to bring myself to do it.”
I watched as a shadow passed over her face. Tara wasn’t the kind of woman to let people in. She took a long time to open up, but when she did, she poured her heart out. As she told me about her father, I knew it was something close to her heart. She loved and missed him more than anything. I wanted to reach over and comfort her, but I didn’t know how. With my relationship with my own father being so strained, I felt like anything I said would be half-hearted and useless. Instead, I just held her hand silently.
When the shadow finally passed over Tara’s face, I got a sudden inspiration. A smile spread across my face. Tara frowned at the sight.
“What are you smiling about?” she asked nervously.
“I have an idea,” I said.
“What’s that?” Tara asked.
“Well, you said you haven’t been on a bike in ages, right?”
“Right.”
“Do you miss it?” I asked eagerly.
Tara blinked at me. She frowned deeply and looked away. I could tell she was thinking about something deeply personal, probably the last time she rode. I knew it had been with her father and that the memory was a painful one, but I wanted to make her feel better. If getting her back on a bike would help, then I wanted to do it.
“Of course,” Tara finally said. “I don’t let myself think about it much, but I do. I really miss it.”
“Come on,” I said. I jumped out of bed and held my hand out for Tara to take. She laughed lightly and shook her head.
“You’re kidding,” she said.
“I’m not,” I promised. “My bike is right outside. It’s gassed up and ready to go.”
“We can’t just leave,” Tara argued. “What if Paisley wakes up?”
“It’s still early,” I pointed out. “We’ll be back before she gets out of bed.”
“But,” Tara began, but I shook my head firmly.
This was something she needed to do and I wasn’t going to let her out of it. “Come on,” I said again. “It’ll be fun.”
Tara looked at me for a few seconds before she smiled and let me pull her out of bed. She climbed to her feet and followed me into the living room. We put on our shoes quickly and hurried out to the driveway. As I stepped up to my motorcycle, I noticed Tara slow down. She was a few feet away from me when I finally turned around to face her.
Her eyes glistened with tears as she stared at the bike in front of her. She’d been around bikes every day of her life, but I could tell her emotions were running wild in that moment. Memories of her father were traced across her face. I moved to stand beside her and took her hand in mine.
“It’s okay,” I said gently. “If you’re not ready, we don’t have to.”
“No,” Tara said. She shook her head and sniffed. “No, I want to. I’m ready.”
I nodded and climbed on the motorcycle. I fired it up and turned to help Tara climb on behind me. She didn’t need my help. She put both her hands on my shoulders and threw her leg over the bike like a pro. I grinned to myself as I kicked the bike into gear. Then I pulled out of the driveway.
At first, Tara held onto me tightly. Her grip was strong as we turned the first few corners, but the longer we drove, the more she relaxed. She slipped into a comfortable rhythm. When I leaned, she leaned. It was clear that this wasn’t her first time on a bike, but I knew she was nervous after being away from it for so long.
After a few minutes of driving aimlessly, I pulled over to the side of the road and stepped off the bike.
“What are you doing?” Tara asked.
“Letting you drive,” I explained. “If you want to.”
Tara grinned and slid up on the seat. She gripped the handlebars and flexed her fingers against them. I climbed on the seat behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist. She kicked the bike into gear and revved the engine.
“Hold on tight,” she teased before she tore back onto the road.
Tara drove less carefully than I had. She turned sharply and leaned into each turn. I could hear her laughing against the wind and the sound warmed my soul. I was still unsure of our relationship. I was terrified of getting hurt, but in that moment, I didn’t care. If I could help Tara feel less pain, then I would. Just like Paisley, she’d been through so much and all I wanted to do was take her pain away. Tara meant the world to me. If I got hurt, I knew it would be worth it.
We pulled back into the driveway twenty minutes later. When I stepped off the bike, I was grinning like a mad man. Tara turned to me and laughed loudly. She threw her head back and stared up at the sky for a few seconds. I’d never seen her look so peaceful.
“Thank you,” she said as she turned back to me.
“Anytime,” I told her.
She stepped off the bike and kissed me softly. As we walked back up to the house, she laced her fingers with mine and squeezed gently. We stepped through the front door just as Paisley was walking into the living room.
“Good morning,” I called. Paisley smiled when she saw Tara.
“Tara!” she said.
“Good morning, Paisley,” Tara said with a laugh. “How’d you sleep?”
“Great!” Paisley said. “But I’m hungry.”
“Come on,” I laughed. “I’ll get you some breakfast.”
I turned toward the kitchen, but I soon noticed that Tara wasn’t following. I frowned and walked back over to her.
“You okay?” I asked. “I know that was emotional for you, so if you need to be alone, I get it.”
“No,” Tara said. She shook her head. “I just think I should go. You and Paisley need time together. I shouldn’t intrude any more than I already have.”