I blushed and said nothing, looking shyly down. I opened myself to the vulnerable feeling as I let Blake in. He stepped into my embrace and held me. He leaned in for a kiss, pushing my mouth open with his lips and holding me there for a moment.
Ending the kiss, I pulled away enough to look him in the eyes. He smiled gently at me as I cupped his face, tracing his cheekbone with my thumb. I let myself get lost in his eyes. “I thought if this ever happened, it would feel like a mistake,” I told him, my voice confused but accepting. “But in this moment, everything feels so right.”
Blake smiled my favorite smile and said, “That’s because we belong together.”
I said nothing. I stood on my tiptoes to kiss him. I told him everything I wanted to say with my body. I was yielding and grateful, my kiss sweet and strong. I kissed him tenderly with all of my passion, with all of my emotions.
Blake picked me up, and I wrapped my legs around him, so involved in our kiss I barely noticed that his pants were still ice cold from the pool. We walked into his bedroom, and he set me gently on the edge of his bed, detangling our bodies carefully. I watched him hungrily as he unbuttoned his pants and slid them off. He met my gaze as he slid off his boxers, revealing his naked body to me.
My heart raced, and every single nerve in my body tingled. I wanted him so badly. I stood up and took his hands in mine. With his left hand, he gently played with my hair and kissed my forehead. I looked up, nervous and unsure.
“This is the end,” he whispered against my forehead before pulling away.
I looked up at him, confused. “The end of what?” I asked softly.
“Of everything as we know it.” He breathed out, pressing a firm kiss on my lips.
I let the world wash away as we walked back towards his bed. I sat down on the edge, climbing backwards, and laid down. I was propped up on my elbows, my dark brown hair cascading around my face. Blake took one last look before he climbed in beside me, towering over me. He began to kiss me, and all of my nervousness and fears vanished.
He held me, and for the first time, I felt his naked body pressed against my completely naked one. We were intertwined, our bodies a tangled mess. Blake kissed me sensually, but it built fast, hot and needy. He grabbed a condom off his dresser. Quickly tearing the plastic open with his teeth, he slid it on and positioned himself between my legs.
“Are you ready?” he asked, his voice patient and kind.
I nodded. “I’ve never been surer of anything in my life.” With a gentle look, he leaned down and kissed me again. His hands held my hips down as he slid into me. “Oh, my God,” I moaned, the pleasure of finally having him inside me overwhelming.
Blake rocked back and forth, moving slowly at first, letting me feel every inch of him as he thrust. I wrapped my arms around him, clinging to him desperately. I kissed every inch of his skin I could reach. Selfishly, I took in all of him, the ecstasy building like a hot pool of lava in my stomach. My hands gripped his shoulders as tightly as possible as he picked up the pace, pushing into me harder and harder. I rocked my hips back, angling them so he could press as deeply into me as possible. I felt so much pleasure, waves of it crashing down on me, over and over again, each more intense than the last.
“Blake,” I breathed into his skin, calling for him, drowning in the touch of him and all that he was. I wrapped my legs firmly around his waist, and he let out a low moan and pushed even faster and harder than I thought possible. I held onto him as I felt the final wave of pleasure hit me, and I let out a final soft moan, my thighs quivering and my breathing labored. Just a second later, Blake’s body shuddered against mine as he came.
We detangled our bodies carefully, and he collapsed on the bed next to me. I took a moment to breathe, letting the reality of what had happened hit me. There was no remorse or regret. The only thing that existed inside me was gratitude. Gratitude that I finally got to have Blake, had finally felt his body against mine and felt our spirits connect in a way I hadn’t thought possible.
I looked at Blake. He glanced at me, and his eyes were glazed as if he were in a faraway place and had just descended back to Earth. He rolled onto his side, draped his arm over me, and pulled me close to him. I rolled onto my side so we were face to face.
“That was incredible,” I breathed, glowing in the aftermath of our lovemaking.
“You were incredible,” he said, letting out a small laugh as we stared into each other’s eyes.
We lay in each other’s arms for a long time, our bodies against each other. A comfortable silence surrounded us, and I soaked up every second of this time, knowing the window we had was short.
Blake broke the silence first, and he let out a soft sigh and kissed my forehead lightly before saying, “I want to tell you something.” I stared into his shining green eyes and waited as he took a timid breath. “I love you,” he whispered finally, looking at me like I was the most important thing in the world to him.