He doesn’t hold me for long but it’s still comforting. He steps away and starts to clean the room and bathroom. I start to strip the beds the same way he did back at the motel we stayed in. I can’t comprehend everything that’s happened in the last twenty-four hours.
Once we’re in the car, he looks at me. Okay, it’s more like a two minute stare. At first I used to look away but now I try to meet his eyes. “Bruises are almost gone,” he whispers.
“Yeah.” We never have any real conversations. I’ve learned that’s he’s not the talking kind.
When we’re home, Damian goes straight for the shower. I hang the clothes I got the day before. I should wash them, but I couldn’t care less at the moment.
I go stand in front of the window and stare outside.
I think of the feeling of loss I felt back at the motel. I think it was hope. I lost hope that I’ll belong to someone again. I lost hope that I’ll see my parents again. I know they’re dead, but for some reason I always had hope until the stark reality was staring me right in the face. No one came for me back in that hospital. Sure, Uncle Tom stopped by, but then he left me all alone in a world I didn’t understand.
No one is coming for me and it’s the saddest thought. I know Damian said he came for me, but that’s not the same thing. Damian is just another person passing through my life, here one day and gone the next. I am a mess he’s being paid to fix.
I have no friends, no family, and the thought leaves a wasteland where my heart should be.
Damian~
Why the fuck did I hug her?
I’m pacing the floor in my office, trying to get my shit together. I’ve made two huge mistakes today; I hugged her and I showed her that I actually give a fuck. That can never happen again. Whether I care about her or not – it doesn’t matter. What matters is keeping her safe.
To get my mind back on the job, I decide to watch the fourth memory card. I’ve managed to watch the other three in the past two weeks, and it’s been much harder than I thought it would be. Watching her being beaten like that, I have no words for the anger I feel.
One thing I did pick up on is that she put up one hell of a fight every single time they beat her, but with each beating, she got weaker and that was hard to watch.
I’m relieved that this is the last memory card. I lean back in the chair and take my phone from my pocket. I go through my messages and see that there’s one from Jeff. He’s heard from the guy who is taking care of the paperwork for Cara’s new identity. That’s good.
I hear the familiar sound as they open the door to the container but I keep checking my messages, because it’s normally the same thing. They first set up the camera. There’s another message from Jeff saying the final payment for the Johnson girl came in.
“So now you’re going to beat me? You finally grew a pair of balls, Steven?” I hear Cara’s voice echo through the speakers. The anger in her voice makes me look up. As always the light is on her.
“No, Henry does the beating,” a new voice says. It’s not the fucker who usually does the beating and talking. I can’t see him yet, but Cara must see something, because she strains to get to her feet and then hisses, “I’m not letting you fuck me.”
Wait? What?
I lean over and turn the volume up by one notch.
“Come on, Babe. It will be like old times.”
Old times? So she knew this guy? How stupid could she be to get caught like that?
She darts out of the camera’s view, but seconds later I hear something hit the floor. The camera doesn’t follow her this time. I frown at this. Normally there are a couple of guys in there with her. One on camera, one holds her down and the other beats her.
There’s only one man with her so maybe she tackled him? Hell if I know.
“Get off me!” she screams and I quickly lean forward to turn the volume down before Cara hears it. I stay close to the speaker so I can hear.
For a few seconds there are only scuffling sounds and then a clear, ‘NO’.
My heartbeat speeds up as I realize why the there’s only fucker in there with her. Fuck.
“Please don’t.” I hear the pleading tone, almost frantic and it makes my blood burn through my veins.
“No!” she screams and this time it’s a hopeless sound that guts me. I close my eyes. I drop my face to my hand and my other fists around the phone. Fuck … Fuck!
“No.” The word sounds hollow. The fight is gone from her voice and it makes something primal rip through my chest.
“Don’t worry, babe,” the fucker grunts. “I’ll be quick. You won’t remember this for long.” I can clearly hear the sound of skin slapping on skin and it must be the most fucked up sound I’ve ever heard. “Tomorrow Henry gets to shoot your brains out.” I hear him grunt as he finds his release, and the sound makes me sick to my stomach. I can’t imagine how Cara must have felt, how she must still feel. No wonder she has nightmares.
“You didn’t think you were going to live, did you?”