“Harder. Kai.” I helped her move up and down my cock, while watching her head tilt back, eyes closed.
It didn’t take long before I knew I couldn’t hold off any longer and it was almost disappointing. But imagining this moment and it being so fuckin’ long since I had her, control was not on my side. The sweet flush on her cheeks, the way her lips slightly parted as she panted, it undid me.
“Fuck, London. I can’t wait.” I flipped her over on her back, still locked inside her. Then I thrust hard and fast as her ankles locked behind my back. “Yes.” I groaned as she met my rhythm, our bodies slapping against one another.
“Oh, God, Kai.”
And that gravelly voice saying my name had me coming inside her in a violent rush, like a tidal wave crashing down on me and taking every part of me that I had control over and breaking it apart.
I thrust a few more times, her clenching around me, hands on my heated chest, legs now relaxed on either side of me.
Jesus. It was like coming home inside of her.
Her hand rose and sifted through my hair. “You kept your promise.”
I leaned in closer, my cock still sunk inside her and kissed the side of her neck then worked my way up to her ear. “What promise is that?”
“Always.”
“Yes.”
“Thank you for not giving up on me.”
I didn’t reply because there was nothing to thank.
“Kai?”
“Yeah?” I pulled out and rolled onto my back.
She sat up, holding the sheet to her chest. I liked that she still had that shyness with her nudity despite what she’d been exposed to. “The drug my father was working on, what is it for?”
“Control.”
“Over?”
“People, London. Control over people.” Except it wasn’t just people. It was dangerous men like Connor. I threw my legs over the side of the bed, bent, grabbed my jeans and tugged them on as I stood.
I heard her shift closer to me. “Why?”
I ignored her question because there was so much to tell her and I didn’t want to get into it now. “You can’t run away from here.” I didn’t think she would, but I had to say it.
She was silent several seconds before she said, “I couldn’t stay there… at home. The way everyone looked at me. My father… everyone knew.”
“No. You knew. It just felt that way.”
“I couldn’t function. I was suffocating. My dad wouldn’t let me go back to my loft and the medication was messing me up. All I wanted to do was die. And the doctor… he wanted me to talk about it and I couldn’t.”
“Because you didn’t want to face it.”
A tear trailed down her cheek. “I….”
She couldn’t say it, so I helped her. “It was easier being Raven than to fight your way back.”
She nodded, her chin dropping. “Yes.”
“No shame in that, London. You did what made you feel safe.”
Being Raven was who she’d become and living as London surrounded by those who loved her was suffocating. Her mind had been trained to submit and suddenly, she had nothing to submit to. She’d been lost, and afraid of facing what happened so she ran.
“No more running, baby.”
“Kai?”
“Yeah?”
“Thank you. For what you’ve done. For everything.” Her fingers tightened around the edge of the sheet clutched to her chest and when her eyes met mine, I saw warmth and lightness in the depths. “I know you don’t think so, but you have good in you.”
I didn’t respond to that. I couldn’t because my throat was tight and I had no words to give her.
“What happens now?”
“I don’t know, London.” And I didn’t. Nothing was certain, but I’d do whatever it took to keep her from being hurt. If that meant her staying here for years, then that was what would happen.
I threw my leg over her, straddling her, the sheet shielding her naked body from me, but that wasn’t lasting long. “I have to leave soon, baby, and I don’t know how long I’ll be.” I lowered my voice. “You need to know that leaving here isn’t an option for you.”
Her brows rose. “Are you saying I’m a prisoner?”
I smirked. “You can take it any way you want.” I drew in closer. “But if you do, there isn’t anywhere I won’t find you again.” I tightened my thighs around her hips. “I found you in an underworld where girls are lost forever.”
“Deck found me,” she said, trying to hide her smile.
“Mmm, yes. But I allowed him to.”
Her breath hitched and her eyes widened. “You were there? Why then… why didn’t you take me with you?”
“Couldn’t do it, baby. Not then.”
“And now is what… more convenient for you?”
My lip twitched. “Yes.”
“Why?” she demanded, her brows scrunched together and her supple body tensed beneath me.
Fuck, she was perfect. I grabbed her wrists and locked them together in one hand above her head and grinned. “Wanted to finish decorating my bedroom. Took me a while.”