“See ya, Clarissa,” he says, and with that he walks off clearly not happy about it.
Jason doesn’t show up at lunch today and I’m fine with that. No sign of Deena either, but Lexi joins me.
“Hi Clarissa,” she says perkily.
“Hi Lexi, I haven’t seen you for a while.”
“I know, funny huh? Considering we live together,” Lexi says and we both laugh.
“We’re like ships that pass in the night,” I quip.
“Yeah, you’re hardly around. Spending time with a special someone or is it several Close Encounter worthy guys?” Lexi asks.
“No, it’s just been one special guy so far,” I admit.
“Really? I thought you were on at least number two by this time,” Lexi says, looking perplexed.
“My heart got involved so it’s just been the one so far,” I confess.
“You’re doing better than me. I saw my ex this weekend and I had every intention of having a Close Encounter with him, but then I came to my senses. I was afraid it would give him false hope of us getting back together. Plus, I thought maybe my heart would get involved too and that was a risk I didn’t want to take,” Lexi admits candidly.
“Hearts are funny aren’t they, very unpredictable,” I say thoughtfully.
“We can’t seem to be as carefree as Deena,” Lexi says.
“She’s a rare breed.”
“I feel like we’re the rare ones around campus. It seems like a lot of the girls are good doing the occasional hook up here and there. The guys seem to have no problems finding a ready and willing girl at those frat parties.”
“I know, I think it’s kind of gross how they all hook up like that. I honestly don’t think I can go through with four.”
“Well that’s a relief to hear. We are similar, we’ve only been with our High School sweethearts. We’re good girls who have some sense of morals,” Lexi says. I just nod and offer a tight smile because I’m still not sure what I’m doing with Grant. The way I went over there the first night wasn’t a girl with high morals. I never expected us to still be seeing each other at this point, but I can’t bring myself to let him go. It would be easier if he did it, but he doesn’t seem to want it to end either. I see Jason lurking around the food court with some of his friends getting some lunch. He looks mighty fine today. Stop ogling Clarissa! I usually try not to notice what a hunk of male hotness he is. Lexi follows my eyes to see what I’m staring at.
“Oh, Jason Bancroft, now he is definitely Close Encounter worthy. I would put aside my morals for that guy anytime,” Lexi laughs.
“You and practically every other girl on campus, look at the guy.”
“Yes, I’m looking. Didn’t you go to see Maroon 5 with him?”
“We went together last week and we had an absolute blast!”
“And?”
“And then he wanted to see me this weekend, but I ended up going away with my someone special.”
“So does that mean you’re passing on Jason?”
“I honestly don’t know what I’m doing Lexi. I do know this much, guys are distracting me from my school work and that has to stop.”
“Good luck with that. You’ve got a lot going on girl. I would definitely think twice before passing on Jason. He has it all and every girl on campus would kill to be in your shoes. Who is this special someone, does he go to school here?”
“He’s older,” I confess.
“Ooo, the older man. How old is he?”
“Twenty-seven,” I reply.
“Gosh that does sound old, but it really isn’t. I bet he’s a real man, not a boy like half the guys around here. With the exception of Jason,” she adds widening her eyes at me.
“He’s definitely a man,” I say blushing because I’m thinking about my sexy Professor naked!
“Look at you blushing, you have it bad for this guy,” Lexi teases.
“I admit, I do have it bad for him. Though the timing is wrong, I don’t really want to be tied down right now. Is that a terrible thing to say?” I ask.
“Not if that’s how you really feel, I agree I didn’t want to get back together with Luke and be tied down either. Now is the time for us to be free to do what we want, go out with who we want and not feel guilty about it. I don’t want to answer to anyone. A couple of guys at those frat parties asked for my number and I want to be able to say yes and go out with whoever I want.”
“Exactly,” I say in total agreement.
“We’re college freshman, the world is our oyster. This is definitely the time to live a little, you know what I mean?” Lexi asks.
“Yeah, I know,” I say letting out a long sigh because of the predicament I’m in.
“Got to run, it was great catching up with you roomie,” Lexi says with a wink and she’s off.
“See you at home later then.” Lexi is such a sweetheart. We need to hang out more together. Lexi leaves me to my own thoughts when I suddenly hear Jason toss his backpack on the table and he sits down across from me. He startles me at first.
“Why do I want you?” he asks looking deep into my eyes.