“They shouldn’t have to witness us arguing. I’m asking this on their behalf, not mine.”
“And I’m asking their mother not to look like a fucking whore when I drop the kids off to her in the morning. Also on their behalf.”
I turn away, ending the conversation, but the rage in his eyes has my heart beating hard.
He seems to know something, and I’m not sure what it is, but the more important question is how he’d know it. He’s never been inside the house, so I doubt he’s placed a camera somewhere. Harrison warned me a week ago to be careful what I said via text in case Jeremy was monitoring my phone, but it’s not as if Caleb or I knew last night would unfold the way it did, much less text about it.
I wish I could call Caleb and ask him, but…I’m still not sure what we are, exactly. He said he would try. Does that make him my boyfriend or simply a guy who’s open to the possibility? Does that mean it’s okay for me to text him when he’s at work, or is that a step too far? All relationships are ill-defined at the start, but the fact that he’s moving this fall makes it a little harder than it would have been.
The day passes in silence. The kids are already in bed and I’m shutting off the lights when there’s a tap on the back door. I turn the knob and find myself pressed against Caleb, my nose to the soft fabric of his t-shirt, breathing in his soap. It’s hard to worry about anything when he’s wrapped around me, as if I’m all he’s thought of since he left. It’s hard to worry that he’s moving when he’s here right now—and already hard.
My spine settles as he twines his fingers through mine as he pulls me to the double chaise. We sit beside each other, closer than we should with the twins upstairs. His arm wraps around my shoulders, and I let my head rest on his chest.
“I think my productivity was cut in half today,” he says with a quiet laugh. “I thought about last night at least once a minute.”
I smile. “It was pretty spectacular. Your tongue is magical.”
He grins. “Not magical. Gifted, perhaps.” He runs a hand through my hair. “You do realize it had very little to do with me, right? All I did was catch you when you weren’t in your own head, worrying about shit.”
“So, what I hear you saying is that any man could have made me come like that. Any man in the world.”
“No,” he growls, pulling me into his lap. “You’re right. It was entirely because of me. I’ll prove it right here.”
My lips brush over his. “I’m not sure how we’d explain that to the twins if they come downstairs.”
He laughs. “There’s no story we could make up that Sophie would believe anyway.”
I kiss him again, relishing the warmth of his hands, his end-of-day scruff grazing my skin. I lose myself in it. I allow it to turn sloppy and desperate, with his fingers digging into my ass, his cock rigid between my legs.
“God, I wish I wasn’t traveling again,” he says against my lips. “Give me the cottage phone number so I can at least call you.”
“When do you leave?” I ask, as his palm slides into my shirt.
“Tomorrow, right after the board meeting. When are you kid-free again?”
“Saturday.” I gasp as he pinches a nipple hard through my bra. “Will you be home?”
He laughs and groans at once. “Now I will be.”
28
LUCIE
When I enter the conference room the next morning, most of the board members are here in person and nearly every seat is taken. Caleb’s already at the other end of the table, discussing something with the guy beside him, but when his gaze lands on me, it lingers far longer than it should.
My phone chimes just as the meeting is called to order.
CALEB
Here’s the code you need to open the report: YLBT
It’s the code game I play with Sophie. I burst into a ridiculous, inappropriate smile, though I have no idea what he said.
Y obviously stands for you or your.
L could stand for like, or love, or let or lips. You like…B. You-like-banana-toast. You-like-big-televisions.
I continue trying to work this out, coming up with increasingly ridiculous possibilities, until Caleb steps to the front of the room. He’s so drool-worthy in that suit, so imposing, so stern, that all I can think about is Saturday night. His eyes, dark and heavy-lidded as he asked if I was ready for him.
I never dreamed that I could get this wet listening to someone discuss due diligence.
The conversation then moves onto licenses and retraining and all the other things that will be issues as they merge the companies. Even when every topic has been addressed repeatedly, the board members are still dragging the meeting out, chatting about nonsense, when Caleb’s reminded them twice that he has a flight to catch.
CALEB
Did the code work?
No, not yet.
Try this one: IRNTBIYA
I read…
I remember…
I wait until the meeting’s done before I reply to his text.
Sorry. That code didn’t work either.
CALEB
Meet me in conference room A as soon as we’re done here.
He rises. “I’m sorry to cut this off, but like I said…I’ve got a flight leaving.”
He walks out abruptly and after quickly introducing myself to board members, I walk down to the other conference room as he’s instructed—and find myself tugged behind the door, in the room’s only hidden corner.
His lips brush over mine. I pull him by the collar when he tries to move away and deepen the kiss.
He groans. “I really do have to leave for the airport. I just wanted to see you first.”
I glance between us at the erection he’s trying to adjust. “It appears you wanted to do more than simply see me. What were the codes?”
“You look beautiful today was the first one.”
My cheeks flush. “And the second?”
His hand slides over my ass, and he laughs, almost to himself. “You’ll need to figure that one out on your own, but it involves a place I really need to be again.” He kisses me one last time and walks out of the room. I reach for my phone to examine the still-undeciphered letters: IRNTBIYA
This time it only takes me a few seconds:
I really need to be inside you again.
CALEB CALLS me on the landline the next night after the twins are in bed, and we talk for hours. It feels like the part of my youth I missed—the part where you are so giddily infatuated with someone that you laugh for no reason at all, that you can almost taste your happily-ever-after. I am Cinderella, discovering the glass slipper fits or Belle kissing the Beast at last. I stop just short of picturing a wedding the entire village turns out for, assisted with my dress by magical mice and bluebirds… but barely. When he’s talking to me, hinting at all the things we’ll do when he gets back, it seems as if nothing could ever go wrong.
“How much time do we have on Saturday?” I ask.
“Not much,” he says with a sigh. “I’ve got to fly out again Sunday morning. But can we plan a weekend away this summer? The kids are staying with Jeremy’s mom Fourth of July weekend, right?”
I grin. “Yes, but...are you actually going to take a long weekend off? Is that something you’ve ever done in your adult life?”
He releases a quiet laugh. “It might be a first. I must kind of like you.”
“I kind of like you, too.” It’s the world’s greatest understatement, but he’s only had a few months of this infatuation while I’ve had twenty years. I need to give him some time to catch up.
He’s back at the office Wednesday for only two hours before he leaves again, and when his meetings in Denver run over, he asks me to meet him in San Francisco because he has to fly out first thing in the morning.
I opt not to show up wearing only a trench coat as Molly suggested, a decision I’m grateful for when I’m at the front desk of the Ritz asking for the room key Caleb left for me—a situation which gives rich-guy-paying-for-sex vibes even without the trench coat.
I ascend to the twenty-third floor and open the door to find him pacing with the phone to his ear. He waves me in and mouths, “Sorry,” while continuing to bicker with someone about licenses.