Funeral in Blue

chapter Fourteen

Callandra left the courtroom without any clear idea of where she was going, except to where she could be alone without the pretence either of courtesy or that she was more or less all right.  She had been as shattered by Monk's testimony as had the rest of the court.  She had seen Pendreigh stagger as if seized by a physical pain, but it was Kristian she had turned to.  She had wanted to find Elissa human, not a heroine she could never equal, but she would never have wished this searing tragedy, this desolation which left only a broken and terrible grief for what had once been so beautiful.

She could understand being so in love it robbed you of your balance, your judgement of good and evil, but she could not make the leap to acting out the passion or the violence as Elissa had.  There was nothing worth winning at the cost of your own being, the soul, the integrity that was the core of who you were.  The act of doing such a thing made it impossible for you to hold the good, even if you could grasp it for an instant.

She pushed through the crowd, oblivious of individuals, wanting only to escape for a while.

Had Elissa submitted to a moment's insanity when she was exhausted, frightened, pressed in by danger and threat on all sides, then spent the rest of her life regretting it, and unable to redeem any part of herself because she had kept the prize?

Callandra had expected to feel loathing, and yet, walking slowly out of the courtroom entrance and down the steps with the rain in her face, she was amazed that it was pity that stirred inside her for all that had been thrown away.

She stood on the pavement alone as people brushed past her.  When would they bring in the verdict?  Monk had taken a terrible chance.  He had been brilliant.  She knew why he had done it.  It was like him, a desperate throw when all else was lost.  He would have known how it would lacerate to the core and create scars for which there was no healing.

She did not know whether she would be allowed to see Kristian.  The verdict was not in yet, so he was technically still an innocent man.

She could lay no claim to be family, but she was a representative from the hospital Thorpe had never taken that from her.  Surely if they would permit Kristian to see anyone at all, other than his lawyer, since he had no relative, it would be a colleague from his place of work.

She should hurry.  They could bring in the verdict at any time, and then it might be too late.  She turned and began to climb back up the steps.

She did not know if he would even wish to see her, but she must try.

Whatever happened, and she refused to think it through to the end, he must know now, before the verdict, that she believed in his innocence.

She had feared he could have killed Elissa.  The provocation was so great it was too easy to understand a moment of fear overcoming a lifetime's morality and restraint.  The act could be over and irretrievable in moments, before the brain had caught up with the action of the hands.

But she did not believe he could then have gone on and deliberately killed Sarah Mackeson.  No fear whatever would have driven the man she knew to do that.  She must look him in the face and he must see in her eyes that it was so.

"Can't give you long, ma'am," the guard said reluctantly, his voice tense, his eyes glancing back to be sure he was not observed by any higher authority.  He was doing this as an act of compassion and it made him nervous.

"Thank you," she accepted sincerely.

"I can give you ten minutes, that's all," he warned.

"Thank you," she said again.  Ten minutes seemed desperately short, but then ten hours would have been.  Whatever the time, there was always an end to it, a parting which might be the last.  If that was what she had, then she must make every second of value.

He unlocked the door and pulled it open with a scrape of iron on stone.

"Visitor for yer!"  he said, and allowed her to go in.

Kristian was standing staring up towards the high window where a square of grey daylight was visible.  He turned in surprise, but when he saw Callandra his expression was closed, unreadable.  He had no idea what to expect from her, and he was exhausted in mind and spirit.  He had no reserves with which to face her needs or doubts.

Every certainty had been torn from him, even his own identity was no longer what he had believed of it.  His race and his heritage had been an illusion and the reality was alien, worse than alien because it was known and faintly, subconsciously, held to be inferior.  He was no longer one of 'us'; without his having changed or done anything he was inexplicably one of 'them'.

The wife he had admired for her courage and honour had committed a fearful act of betrayal, and kept it secret from everyone, seeing him, talking to him every day, and hiding it.

Callandra knew he was not able to discuss any of it.  As for someone who is desperately ill, everything in the world had changed and he was no longer supple or strong enough to react to it.

She smiled at him, as if it were a normal day.  Should she say anything that mattered, that she believed in him?  That it made no difference whatever to her whether he was Jew or Christian?  That she was not outraged by Elissa's acts, nor did she hold him accountable for how he reacted now?

He met her eyes, his own hollow, skin blue around the sockets as if he were physically ill.  He was searching her, and not able to find the words to ask, perhaps not knowing whether it was unfair, expecting of her something she could not give.  Perhaps he was even afraid of the answer.  Was she here from pity, loyalty, anything that was half a lie, and entirely a hurt?

She made herself smile at him fully, without reservation, and felt the tears brim her eyes.  "I cannot imagine what you must be suffering." She heard herself say it without thinking first.  "Or how you can absorb what you have heard.  But families are not who you are, good or bad.  You cannot judge why they did what they did.  We were not there to see the passions or know for whom the sacrifice was made.  What you believe, how you behave towards others, and within your own truth, is who you are.  No one can alter that except you.  And you should not try, because who you are is good." He bent his head to hide the well of emotion in his eyes.

"Is it?"  he said, his voice choked.

"Yes," she answered with certainty.  "Maybe you were not always wise with Elissa, or even fair to her boredom or lack of purpose.  But you cannot have known the guilt within her, because it sprang from an act beyond your imagination." He looked up suddenly.  "I did not kill her!"

"I know," she answered, and he saw in her face that she did know.  She smiled very slightly.  "I never imagined that you could have killed the artist's model, no matter what provocation there was to hurt Elissa, or to stop her destruction of both of you."

"Thank you," he whispered.

She leaned forward and kissed his cheek.  His skin was only just warm.

She ached to do something more, to reach him in an infinitely comforting way and take some of his pain and tiredness to herself, and bear it for him, but she could already hear the guard's footsteps and she knew time was up.

She stepped back so their intimacy should not be intruded upon.  She would not say goodbye, she would not use those words.  She just looked at Kristian for a moment, then as the door opened, faced the guard and thanked him for his courtesy.  She left without looking back or speaking again.  Her throat was aching too much and she was blind with tears anyway.

Hesterand Monk also left the courtroom and went outside into the hallway.

"Where is Callandra?"  Monk asked, looking around and failing to see her.  He took a step forward as if to search, and Hester put her hand on his arm to stop him.  "No," she said quietly.  "She'll find us if she needs us.  I think she may prefer to be alone." He stopped, turning to meet her eyes.  For a moment he seemed about to question her, then he saw her certainty and changed his mind.

People were milling all around them, trying to decide whether to leave and find supper, or even to go home.  Would the jury return tonight?

Surely not!  It was too late, after six already.

Hester looked at Monk.  "Could they still come in tonight?"  she asked, not knowing if she wanted it sooner or if it would be even worse to wait all night.  "Is it better if... ?"

"I don't know," he answered gently.  "Nobody does." She closed her eyes.  "No, of course not.  I'm sorry."  She started to push her way towards a clearer space a few yards from the door and was just short of the entrance when Charles came striding towards her.  His hair was falling forward and his cheeks were flushed.

"Have you seen Imogen?"  he demanded, urgency making his voice rough-edged.  "Is she with you?"

"No," Hesteranswered, trying to ignore the fear she felt in him.  "Did she say she was looking for me?"

"No ... I thought..."  Charles stared around, searching for sight of Imogen.

"Perhaps she has gone to the cloakroom," Hester suggested.  "Is she all right?  Was she a little faint, or distressed?  It was very close in there.  Shall I go and look?"

"Please!"  Charles accepted instantly.  "She was..."  He swore under his breath, his jaw clenched.

"What?"  Monk demanded.  "What is it?  Charles?" Hester saw in her mind's eye Imogen's white face and staring eyes. "Why did you come?"  she caught Charles's sleeve.  "Not for me!"

"No," Charles looked wretched.  "I thought if she heard what had happened to Elissa Beck, the tragedy and the waste of it, the terrible way she died, she might be shocked enough never to gamble again.  I thought if I brought her today, just at the end, the summing up..."

"It was a good idea," Monk agreed vehemently.

"Was it?"  Charles seemed almost to be pleading for assurance.  "I'm afraid I might have frightened her too much.  She excused herself when the judge adjourned, and I thought she had just gone to ... but that was fifteen minutes ago, and I haven't seen her since."  Again, as if he could not help himself, he craned around to search for her.

"I'll go," Hester said quickly.  "Stay here, so that if I find her we don't lose each other again."  And without waiting she moved away to find the cloakroom and the convenience.

Perhaps Imogen just needed a little time to be alone and compose herself after the distress of what she had heard.  In her place Hester felt she would have herself.  If it had had the effect on her that Charles had desired, it would produce a change which could hardly be accommodated in a few moments.

She pushed her way against the crowd, who were now leaving for the night, and ended up in the cloakroom, but Imogen was not there.  There was a woman in charge.  Hester described Imogen as well as she could, her clothes, particularly her hat, and asked if the woman had seen her.

"Sorry, ma'am, no idea."  The woman shook her head.  "All I can tell yer is there's no one 'ere now, 'ceptin' us.  But nob'dy 'ere bin wot yer'd call poorly."

"Thank you."  Hester gave her a halfpenny and left as quickly as she could.  Where on earth could Imogen be?  Why?  Why would she go off alone, now of all times?  Suddenly fury boiled up inside her for the sheer thoughtlessness of causing more grief and anxiety at a moment when they had almost more burden than they could bear.

She marched to the clerk she saw standing at the top of the stairs to the nearest entrance.

"Excuse me," she said peremptorily.  "My sister-in-law appears to have gone looking for her carriage without us."  It was the first lie which sprang to her mind.  "She is about two inches less than I in height, she has dark hair and eyes and is wearing a green coat and hat with black feathers.  Have you seen her?"

"Yes, ma'am," he said immediately.  "Carrying a green umbrella.  At least it sounds like the lady you describe.  She left several minutes ago, with Mr.  Pendreigh."

"What?"  Hester was stunned.  "No, that can't..."

"Sounded like the young lady you described, ma'am.  Sorry if I made a mistake."  He inclined his head towards the open doors.  "They went that way.  Almost ten minutes ago, walking quite quickly.  I think he was helping her.  She seemed a bit upset.  I dare say one of the trials had affected someone she knew.  He might only have been taking her as far as her carriage, just making sure she was all right."

"Thank you!"  Hester said abruptly and, swinging round, she ran back to where Monk and Charles were still waiting.  They saw her and started towards her.

"What is it?"  Monk said breathlessly.  "Where is she?" Hester looked beyond him at Charles.  "Did she have an umbrella, a green one?" Charles was ashen.  "Yes!  Why?  What's happened?"

"I think she left with Pendreigh.  A clerk as the door over there says someone exactly like her went out with him about ten minutes ago." Charles lunged forward and ran across the now almost empty hallway and down the steps, Monk and Hester racing after him, feet flying, clutching the rails to stop from tripping.  Outside was that unique darkness of winter and fog.  It was almost like disappearing into a muffling layer of clothes, ice cold and gripping as if a solid touch, except that it parted in front of you and closed behind, leaving you without sense of direction.  Even sound seemed swallowed by the wall of vapour.

"Why would she go with Pendreigh?"  Charles said from a few feet away in the gloom.  "What could he do for her?  How could he help?  With what he's just heard about his daughter, how could he even think of anyone else's grief?"  He spun round, almost colliding with Monk in the thick darkness.  "Do you think he's trying to save her, because he lost Elissa?"  His voice was wild with hope, soaring up out of control.

"I don't know," Monk said roughly.  He swore as he stumbled on the edge of the kerb.  "But why in God's name did they leave the courthouse? She must have known you'd be frantic with worry for her?"

"Perhaps she's still angry with me for bringing her to see just how gambling can destroy everything you love," Charles said, trying to choke back his emotions and hold on to some kind of control.

Hester was beginning to shiver, as much from fear as cold.  There was something profoundly wrong.  Imogen did not know Fuller Pendreigh.  Why on earth would she go out into the fog alone with him?  No matter how distressed she was over Elissa, or gambling, or anything else, no matter how much she might grieve for Pendreigh because they had both known Elissa at wildly different times of her life, she would not have left Charles and walked off into the fog.

Then a terrible thought assailed her.  Could Pendreigh in some insane way blame Imogen for Elissa's gambling, just as she had once feared Charles might blame Elissa for Imogen?  She swung around and gripped Monk's arm so hard he winced.

"What if he thinks it is Imogen's fault that Elissa gambled?"  she said urgently.  "What if he means her harm?" Monk started to protest the foolishness of the idea, but Charles broke away and, churning his arms, trying to feel his way through the shifting patterns of the mist as it thinned and then rolled together again, he lurched towards Ludgate Hill.

With awful certainty Hester knew where he was going... Blackfriars' Bridge, and the river.

Monk must have known it too.  He clasped her hand and pulled her along, forcing her to run blindly through the white wall around them, along to New Bridge Street, then left with muffled hoofbeats of cab horses behind them and the dismal sound of foghorns up from the water ahead The mist smelled of salt and it was moving in patches now on the wind off the water.

It cleared and they saw Charles ahead of them, still trying to run, swivelling from right to left as he searched desperately for sight of someone, anyone he could ask.  The gas lamps were barely visible, only just one before and one behind, giving the illusion of a pathway.

They overtook a hansom, which was almost soundless in the gloom, just a faint creak of leather and wood and hiss of the wheels on the wet road.

It was invisible until they were almost on top of it, and then only a darkness in the paler mist.

"Imogen!"  Charles shouted, and the night swallowed his voice like a wet sheet.  "Imogen!"  he called, louder and more desperately.

There was a faint murmur and slurp of water ahead and then suddenly the boom of a foghorn almost on top of them.  The road was rising.  The bridge!

It was stupid, pointless, but Hester found herself calling out as well.

There was a gust of wind; the fog cleared a few yards.  Half a dozen lamps were visible.  They were on the bridge, the water below a black, glistening surface, looking as solid as glass, and then gone again, rolled over and vanished in the choking vapour.

Another hansom passed them, moving more certainly.  A moment later the driver called out, a thin, sharp cry of alarm.

Monk sprinted in the brief patch of light from the lamps.

Hester picked up her skirts and ran after him, Charles catching her up and passing her.  Even so she saw the dark heap on the kerb side between the lamps, almost as soon as they did, and only the volume of fabric around her ankles prevented her from reaching it at the same time.

Monk fell on his knees beside the body, but in the fitful light through the vapour he could see little, except the ashen pallor of her face.

"Imogen!"  Charles cried, all but collapsing on his knees and reaching out for her.  "Oh God!"  He snatched his hands back, covered with dark, sticky liquid.  He tried to speak again, but he could scarcely breathe.

Hester felt her heart choking in her throat, but it was too dark to see anything to help.  She swivelled round towards the roadway and scrambled to her feet.  "Cabby!"  she shouted, her voice high and thin like a scream, except she had not drawn in enough breath.  "Bring the carriage lamp!  Hurry!" It seemed like an eternity in the mist and darkness before she saw it wavering towards them, but actually it was only a moment in time.  He made his way at a run, carrying the lamp high and held it over the body on the ground.

Charles gasped and let out a sob of horror.  Even Monk gave a low moan.

Imogen was grey-faced and the whole top of her body from the waist up was scarlet with blood.

The cabby drew in his breath with a hiss between his teeth, and the light in his hand swayed.

Hester steeled herself to touch Imogen, to search for the wound and see if there was anything she could do.  There was no blood pumping, no movement at all.

Blinded by her own tears, she felt for Imogen's neck and pulled away her collar.  Her fingers touched warm skin, and a definite beat of pulse.

"She's alive!"  she said.  "She's alive!"  Then immediately she realised how stupid that was.  There was blood everywhere, scarlet arterial blood.  The whole of Imogen's jacket front was soaked in it.

But where was the wound?  Was there even any point in trying to find it when so much blood had been lost?

With fumbling fingers in the juddering light from the carriage lamp she half pulled, half tore at the fastenings until Monk reached over and ripped Imogen's jacket open.  Underneath on Imogen's white blouse there was only a single bright stain.

Hester heard Charles sobbing.

Less blood... not more!  The blood was from outside!  It was not Imogen's!  Just for a last assurance she pulled the blouse out of its anchorage in the skirt waist and pushed her hand underneath.  There was no blood at all, no wound to the smooth skin.

So why was Imogen unconscious?  Quickly she replaced the clothes, wrapping them around her.  "Coats!"  she ordered.  "Give me your coats to put around her!"  And instantly Monk and Charles threw their coats off and handed them to her, the moment after the cabby offered his, struggling to keep the light high at the same time.

Hester felt very gently under Imogen's head, exploring, terrified to find broken bone, more blood, a soft indentation of the skull, but there was only a swelling.  Her heart beating faster and faster, her mouth dry, she covered the last few inches.  Still no splintered bone.

"She's struck her head," she said hoarsely.  "But her skull seems whole."  She looked up at the cabby.  "You'll take her home, won't you?

Now?"

"Yeah!  Yeah, o' course!"  he said quickly.  "But wot abaht all that blood, miss?  If she ain't stabbed... 'oo is?" Charles let out a long shuddering sigh.

Monk stepped forward and took the lamp from the cabby and held it high.

It was Hester who saw the green umbrella lying on the pavement beside the bridge rails.  It was still rolled up, and the long, sharp spike of it was thick with blood.

"Oh God!"  Charles burst out in horror.

"Pendreigh..."  Monk gasped.  "Why?"

"He must be very badly hurt."  Hester tried to gather her wits.

Whatever had happened, someone was severely injured.

"I can't do anything more for Imogen," she said, climbing to her feet.

She turned to Charles.  "Take her home, keep her as warm as you can, and when she comes to, try to get her to take a little beef tea.  Call the doctor, of course.  Don't put her into sheets, put her straight into blankets, and sit with her."  She watched to make sure he had understood, then she faced Monk.  "We must find Pendreigh, if he is still alive.  I may be able to help."

"We've no idea where he is!"  he reasoned.

"We'll begin at his home.  That's where most people go when they're badly hurt."  She started towards the roadway again.

"No!"  Monk said instinctively.

Hester ignored him.  "And we must take a constable or someone with us! Apart from anything else, you haven't any authority.  And..."  she gulped, the ice-cold vapour hurting her chest, 'we have to know what happened, for Imogen's sake.  We have to protect her!"  It was hideous, and still totally inexplicable.  Why had she attacked Pendreigh?  There had to be a reason, something that would excuse her in law.

"I'll get Runcorn," Monk answered.  "But not you!  You're going home!"

"No I'm not!  It's my duty to help the injured, just as it's yours to answer the law.  Don't stand here wasting time.  We need a cab, and we need Runcorn!" Charles had already bent and picked Imogen up very carefully.  Now he straightened his back and his legs to carry her across to the waiting cab.  The cabby was suddenly galvanised into life and scrambled after them, waving the light, leaving Hesterand Monk alone in the darkness.

"Don't argue!"  she hissed at him.

Monk swore, then bit it back and started to run towards the near end of the bridge where he could see a cab looming up from New Bridge Street.

He shouted at the driver, and saw the man turn in surprise and disapproval, silhouetted in his high-collared coat and stovepipe hat.

"It's an emergency!"  Monk said breathlessly as he reached the cab, half lifted Hester in, then scrambled in behind her.  "Take me to Superintendent Runcorn's house in Lamb's Conduit Street, and go as quickly as you can." After only the slightest indecision the driver obeyed and Monk sat beside Hester shivering, praying that Runcorn was at home.  If he had to direct the cab to go looking for him he had no idea where else to search but the police station, and even that was time wasted. Pendreigh must be badly wounded, from the amount of blood on Imogen, perhaps even fatally.

"What on earth were they doing on the bridge?  Why did she go with him?"  Monk said in the darkness as they sat together and the cab moved forward.

Hester did not bother to answer.  Nothing made sense, except that they had fought, wildly, desperately, leaving Imogen senseless on the footpath, and Pendreigh bleeding so terribly he surely could not get far.

The fog was thinning away from the river and the cab picked up speed.

"He must have attacked her," Monk said in the fitful light as they moved from lamp to lamp.  "But why?  In what way could she possibly have threatened him?  And don't say to blame him for Elissa.  He's not that big a fool.  Elissa was gambling from her own need.  It had nothing to do with anyone else at all!"

"Imogen was in Swinton Street on the night of the murders," Hester replied.  "We know she saw Allardyce ' "Pendreigh?"  he said in astonishment.  "Why?"

"I don't know..." The cab pulled up abruptly and after telling her to wait, Monk leaped out and ran across the wet pavement and pushed open the outer door.  He went up the stairs two at a time to reach Runcorn's apartments.  He lifted his fist and banged so hard the door itself rattled against the frame.

"Runcorn!"  he shouted.  "Runcorn!" The door opened and Runcorn stared at him.  "What is it?"  he said almost calmly.

Monk swallowed.  "Pendreigh took Imogen Latterly out of the courthouse and through the fog to Blackfriars' Bridge.  They quarrelled about something."  He all but pushed Runcorn inside, looking around for his coat to hand it to him.  "We found her senseless and covered with blood, but no injury on her.  Her umbrella point was used to stab someone, and Pendreigh's nowhere to be seen.  We've got to find him.

Come on!" Runcorn opened a cupboard, took out his hat and coat and made for the door still carrying them in his hand.

Monk ran down the stairs again on Runcorn's heels, and across the pavement into the hansom, calling out Pendreigh's address in Ebury Street as he went.  Runcorn showed a moment's amazement that Hester was with them, but there was no point in arguing about it now.

Once again the cab started forward and picked up speed.  The fog was drifting in patches and the hiss of tyres on the wet roads was muffled as they swung through the alternating light of each lamp and into the spaces between.

It was several moments before Runcorn spoke, and when he did it was with intense feeling.

"What are you not telling me, Monk?  Why was she there?  What did she know about Fuller Pendreigh and his daughter that we don't?  Or any rate, that I don't?"

"I'm working it out!"  Monk said tartly, looking sideways at Runcorn's face in the glare of lamplight.  He saw no hostility, only puzzlement.

"She was the woman in Swinton Street that night," he began his reply.

"At the gambling house."  He heard Runcorn's quick intake of breath.

"She must have seen Pendreigh there too.  That's about the only thing that would make him take her down to the river and, we presume, attack her.  She must have been at least half prepared for it, and she went for him with the spike of her umbrella.  In spite of his clothes, she must have given him a fearful blow, from the blood all over her.  Don't know how she managed it." Runcorn muttered a blasphemy under his breath, or perhaps it was not.

He might even have been praying.

The hansom careered its way through the streamers of fog and sudden glittering lights.  The wind was rising.

"Will she be all right?"  Runcorn said at last.

"I don't know," Monk admitted.

Runcorn drew in his breath to say something, then could not make up his mind.

Monk could feel the warmth of his body beside him.  In the intermittent light he could see the indecision, the waiting to offer some kind of pity, and all the memory flooding back of envy and distrust, all the petty un kindnesses of the past.

The cab stopped at Ebury Street and they both got out, Monk then turning to help Hester.  Runcorn paid the driver and then went up the front steps.  He pulled the doorbell hard, and then again.  They stood impatiently for what seemed an age until the butler came.

"Yes, sir, madam?"  he enquired with just a hint of disappointment for the lateness of the hour.

"Superintendent Runcorn, of the police," Runcorn said icily.  "And Mr.

William Monk, and Mrs.  Monk."

"I'm afraid Mr.  Pendreigh is not receiving at this hour, sir.  If you come to ' "I'm not asking, I'm telling you," Runcorn snapped.  "Now be so good as to step aside, rather than oblige me to arrest you for obstructing the police in their duty.  Do I make myself plain?" The butler quailed.  "Yes, sir, if But he was elbowed aside as Runcorn walked in with Monk on his heels.

"Where is Mr.  Pendreigh?"  Runcorn asked.  "Upstairs?"

"Mr.  Pendreigh is not well, sir.  He was attacked by robbers in the street.  If you ' "Yes or no?"  Runcorn snapped.

"Yes, sir, but... Mr.  Pendreigh is ill, sir.  I beg you ' "Come on!"  Runcorn ordered, ignoring the butler and gesturing to Monk as he began to climb the stairs, again two at a time.  They met a startled maid at the head of the flight, carrying a pile of towels.

"Mr.  Pendreigh's room?"  Runcorn asked.  "Is he in there?  Answer me, girl, or I'll arrest you." She yelped and dropped the towels.  "Yes... sir!"

"Well, where is it?"

"There, sir.  Second door... sir!"  She put her hands up to her face as if to stop herself from screaming.

Runcorn strode to the door indicated and banged on it once and threw it open.  Monk was at his shoulders.

The room was very masculine, all panelled wood and deep colours, but it was extraordinarily beautiful.  They barely had time for more than an impression.  Fuller Pendreigh was lying on the bed, his face grey and his eyes already sunken.  He clutched a folded towel around his throat and neck but the scarlet blood was seeping through it and the stain spreading.

Hester moved forwards to him and then stopped.  She had seen too much death to mistake it easily.  He had more stamina than most men to have made it this far.  There was nothing she could do for him, even were it in mercy rather than a prolonging of pain.

"She saw you in Swinton Street the night of Elissa's death, didn't she?"  Monk asked softly.  "She didn't know who you were then, but she recognised you in court, and when you saw her looking at you, you knew it!  It was there in her face, and it was only moments before she would tell someone.  What were you hoping to do?  Make her look like a suicide?  Another gambler driven beyond sanity?  But she's not dead. We got to her in time."

"Why did you kill Elissa, sir?"  Runcorn asked in the silence.  "She was your own daughter!" Very slowly, as if he barely had strength to lift it, Pendreigh let go of the towel and put one hand up to his face, trying to waken himself from a nightmare.  "For God's sake, man, I didn't mean to kill her!" he said in a whisper.  "She flew at me, lashing out with her fists, clawing at my face and screaming.  I only wanted to fend her off, but she wouldn't stop."  He struggled for breath.  "I didn't want to strike her.  I put my hands on her shoulders and pushed her away, but she kept on.  She wouldn't listen."  He stopped, his face filled with horror as if a hell of reliving it over and over again had opened up in front of him, always with the same, terrible inescapable end, worse now because he knew it was coming.

"I stepped back and she lunged forward and slipped.  I tried to catch her as her feet went from under her.  She turned and I caught her face in my hands.  I couldn't hold her.  I meant to take her weight... I...

she broke her neck as she went sideways..." Hester wet a corner of the sheet in the pitcher on the table beside the bed and touched Pendreigh's lips with it.

"Why did she attack you?"  Monk asked.

"What?"  Pendreigh stared at him.

"Why did she attack you?"  Monk repeated.  "Why were you there anyway?" Runcorn looked at Hester, his eyes wide with question.

"Why were you there?"  Monk said again.

"I had an appointment to see Allardyce," Pendreigh said hoarsely.  "I was going to give him an interim payment for the picture.  I know he needed it.  But I was delayed.  I was late."  He gasped and was silent for a moment.

Hester bent forward, then looked at Monk, shaking her head minutely.

Seconds ticked by.  Pendreigh opened his eyes again.  "He'd grown tired of waiting for me, and angry, and he'd gone out.  But I wasn't going to pay him without seeing the picture first."  His voice faded to a whisper.  The scarlet stain was soaking through the towels.  His face was grey.  "It was beautiful!" Runcorn drew his brows together.  "So why was Mrs.  Beck lashing out at you?" Pendreigh's face was a mask of horror.  "When I got there his model answered the door to me.  She was alone, half dressed, and staggering around with drink.  She fell over and her robe slid off leaving her half naked.  I tried to help her up.  I ... I was sorry for the woman." He stopped while Hester wet his lips again.

"She was heavy and kept sliding away," he went on, determined now to talk.  "I had her in my arms when Elissa came in.  She misunderstood and assumed she had interrupted some sexual assignation.  She worshipped me ... as I did her!  She couldn't bear it..." Monk could picture it easily.  Elissa's own shame of her appetite beyond control, suddenly finding her adored father, whom she believed had so perfectly mastered his own life and virtue, in the arms of a drunken, half-naked woman.  "She flew at you in rage for shattering her ideal of you, for betraying her dreams.  The idol was clay all the way up to the waist!" Pendreigh's voice was no more than a sigh.  "Yes."

"And you killed her accidentally?"

"Yes!"

"But you killed Sarah Mackeson on purpose!"  Runcorn burst out, his face ravaged by fury and an anguish he did not know how to express.

"You killed that woman only because she'd seen you!  You took hold of her and you twisted her neck until you broke it!" Pendreigh stared at him.  "I had to!  She would have told Allardyce, and it would have ruined me!  She would have prevented all the good I could have done!" Runcorn shook his head.  "No it wouldn't.  Any real friends would have stood by you." Pendreigh seemed to find a last strength.  "Friends!  You imbecile.  I would have made Parliament!  I would have changed the laws.  Do you know how easy it is for a greedy man to take everything and leave a woman destitute?  Do you?" Runcorn blinked at him.  "That's got nothing to do with it."

"It's got everything!"  Pendreigh sighed and his breathing grew more laboured, his chest rattling.  The shadow of death was on his face.

"One woman sacrificed ... I wouldn't have chosen it, but it was unavoidable ... to get justice for millions!"

"And Kristian?"  Monk asked.  "Is it worth it for him to hang too ...

for murders he had not committed?  What about all the sick he could have cured?  What about the discoveries he might make that could heal millions?  What about the fact that he was innocent?  What about truth?"

"I could have..."  Pendreigh began.  He did not finish.  He let out his breath in a long sigh and his eyes ceased to focus.

Absolute silence filled the room, and Hester leaned over and passed her hand over his face, closing the lids gently.

"God help us," Runcorn said in a whisper.  He swallowed hard and turned to Monk.  "I'll go and tell them... and... and get a constable."

"Thank you," Monk acknowledged.  He reached across and touched Hester's arm.  He felt an ease inside that resolution always brought, but no victory yet.  Kristian would be freed, of course, but he still had shattering truths to accept.  He himself was not who he had believed he was.  His heritage, his very blood was different.  He was one of the people he had been brought up to think of as outsiders, somehow inferior, and yet a race who had given the Western World the core of its soul, and so of its culture also.  The thought was almost too big to grasp, but he would have to.

As he turned it over in his mind Monk became aware of an intense need within himself to know his own roots, the meaning of his identity that hung only in shadows and pieces in his own mind.  Who were his people?

Where did they fit in the history of his land?  What had they believed, lived for or died for?  What had they given anyone?

It was not enough to ask, he must begin to look for the answers.  The truth about everyone else was important.  It was his job.  But of the truth about himself?  Who were the people he should have felt the bond with that Hester felt for Charles?  Where was his blood-tie to the past?

Runcorn came back, closing the door behind him.  He looked first at Hester, then at Monk.

"You all right?"  he asked.

"Yes, of course," Monk replied, tightening his grip on Hester's arm.

"Good," Runcorn replied.  "I've got a constable with me, and another coming."  He glanced at the figure on the bed.  "What a terrible waste," he said, shaking his head a little.  "He could have done so much."  He turned back to Monk.  "Cook's got up and made us a pot of tea," he added.  "Look like you could take a cup." Monk saw kindness in his face, even a flash of the old friendship.

"Thank you," he said, smiling, although he had not meant to.  "That's a very good idea.  Let's do that."  And guiding Hester in front of him he went out of the room and along the passage side by side with Runcorn.