Chapter 28
The next day was the same drab affair. It was all me, myself and I trying to not have a mental breakdown when I didn’t hear from him. I also tried not to think about the fact that not once did he reach for me last night.
My hopes of him coming home for dinner, yet again, were dashed when he didn’t show up for my last night in Greece. It only proved the fact that he was through or maybe he had gotten his fill somewhere else. For all I knew, he probably flew to Paris last night and had Claudine all night long.
Raging mad? Hell yes.
Do I want to hurt him for making me wait in vain? F*ck yes.
Will I take him back if he asked me to be with him? In a heartbeat.
Hopeless, suited me quite well enough.
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Alone in bed, I woke up with a heavy heart, knowing that I would be leaving today, not knowing if he was going to see me off or not. The clock indicated that it was almost lunchtime. Since he had said that his pilot was on standby, I wanted to leave after I ate a small meal.
I suppose my life would be just like that plane; on standby for Dimitris, ready and willing whenever he wanted me. At this point, I loved him so much he could ask anything of me and I wouldn’t decline it. Also, I wanted to make amends from my past mistakes. I knew sex wouldn’t be enough to make up for all the damage I’d caused him, but it was a starting point.
Now, freshly dressed, I was leaning over the mirror, applying my gloss when he appeared in my view. I immediately noticed the roguish look he had with the stubble on his face. Sexy Greek.
“Hello. Are you back for lunch?” I asked, returning to my application of my make-up. After a few minutes without a reply, I glanced at him again. He was just watching me, nothing more. “Is something the matter?” I cautiously asked, afraid of what would come out of his mouth.
Dimitris met my eyes in the mirror, emotionless. “Yes, I’m not ready for you to leave, yet.”
I was all packed, ready to go, and I didn’t understand what he was saying at all. “But I thought you said that the pilot will be ready today? Why would you say that when you’re not ready for me to leave yet?” I asked, baffled. Why haven’t you touched me for the past two nights? My heart silently, added.
The monotonous man kept on going, “I want you to leave, but watching you right now, I realized that I’m not ready to let you go, yet. I need a few more days before I let you walk away, forever. What we have is great sex and I love it more than anything. The promise I asked you… doesn’t matter anymore. You’re free to be with anyone once you leave my home.”
What happened? Was it Claudine? It had to be. “What’s changed? Are you having sex with her?”
“No. I haven’t, but what you and I have is not something I’d want to carry on when I commit to someone.”
“You’re committing to who? Claudine? I thought you said you guys had an open relationship?”
“She threw an ultimatum this afternoon.”
He was choosing her. I nodded. I got it, I did. “I—I need a moment to myself, please. I need to think.”
“I’ll be on the patio. Don’t be long, Thea made your favorite.”
Yeah, a death sentence that came complete with my last meal.