Chapter Twelve
Everything Changes
I sat on my bed with Logan, Amber, and Rachel, talking as we waited for Drake to show up. We had spent the last twenty minutes in my room waiting for him to arrive and so far the only thing he had done was make us wait. I glanced anxiously between the clock and a severely pissed off Logan before deciding to call him.
“Hello?”
“Where are you at? It’s almost eight o’clock and you go on at nine.”
“I’m finishing up at the library now, can you come over and pick me up?”
I sighed, “Yeah, wait for us outside, I’ll be there in a couple minutes,” I hung up with him and turned to everyone, “Come on, we have to pick him up at the library.”
Logan took my hand in his as we walked to my car. I caught Amber staring at us and gave her a weak smile. She chuckled and shook her head as she got in, but thankfully said nothing. We pulled up in front of the library a few minutes later to see Drake waiting on us. I popped the trunk so he could stash his jacket and guitar inside.
Rachel scooted over closer to Amber with a star struck look on her face as Drake sat down next to her. He glanced over at her and gave her that killer smile that made my knees weak.
“I don’t think we’ve met, I’m Drake.”
Rachel looked ready to pass out as she gazed up at him.
“I know who you are. I’m Rachel, Chloe’s roommate.”
My stomach tightened as they continued to flirt all the way to the bar. Drake had made his position with me clear, and yet I couldn’t help but get jealous when he gave any girl attention.
I parked as far away from the spot we had been in that night with Nick as I could. Bile rose in my throat as I glanced in that direction, almost expecting him to still be laying there bleeding. I started shaking as we walked toward the doors. Drake, who had been watching me without my knowledge, was at my side instantly.
He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into his side.
“It’s alright, I’m here. He won’t hurt you again, I promise.”
My voice was stuck in my throat so I couldn’t reply. When we reached the entrance and caught up with our friends, he released me and stepped in first, giving me a minute to compose myself. I could feel his eyes on me as I pushed through the crowd to catch up and I gave him a small nod to let him know I was ok.
Drake led us to an empty table next to the stage carrying his guitar.
“I had them save this one for you guys. I’ve got to go back and meet up with the guys and Jade.”
Rachel watched his retreating figure with rapt attention and my jealous side reared its ugly head.
“Earth to Rachel, come in Rachel,” I said as I snapped my fingers in front of her face.
“What, oh sorry.”
I shook my head as Logan chuckled.
“Don’t go there Rachel, if you have sex with him, you’ll make it awkward for me when he kicks you to the curb.”
Rachel frowned, “I wasn’t planning on having sex with him.”
I gave her an incredulous look, “Could’ve fooled me.”
Amber jumped up before Rachel could reply.
“Chloe why don’t you come to the bar with me and help me get us drinks.”
I stood and followed her to the bar. She spun around as soon as we were out of earshot.
“What the hell was that?”
I looked at her confused, “What are you talking about?”
“You know exactly what I’m talking about. You blew at Rachel for no reason.”
I shrugged as I ordered our beers, “No I didn’t. I just saw the way she was looking at Drake. If they hook up, it’ll make it awkward every time we’re all together.”
“Are you sure that’s all it is? Because I saw the way you were looking at him. For God’s sake, Chloe, get your act together. You were just holding hands with Logan earlier.”
“You’re imagining things. I’m over Drake, and I haven’t given Logan an answer, we’re taking things slow.”
She shook her head, “I’m not blind Chloe, you can lie to yourself, but you can’t lie to me. You still care about Drake and you’re stringing Logan along. Do you even have feelings for him or are you just trying to get over Drake?”
I grabbed the beers and turned to glare at her, “Yes, I do f*cking care about Logan, I’m trying to get my shit together. I do want to give Logan a chance, but I’m afraid ok? I don’t want to lose him.”
“Do you really think he would abandon you if things went south with him? He cares too much about you to let that happen. You need to get your head out of Drake’s ass and see what’s standing right in front of you.”
“You think I don’t know how amazing Logan is? Because I do, so stop trying to push me to him and let things happen!” I practically shouted as I walked back to the table. I sat Logan’s beer in front of him and forced a smile onto my face.
He pulled my chair closer to him and rested his hand on my thigh.
“What took you guys so long?”
I glanced at Amber who was looking anywhere but at me. “We had to wait forever, sorry.”
We sat and talked as we waited for Drake and the other members to take the stage. Logan barely touched his beer, but our waitress brought a couple over to me while we waited. Finally, the lights were lowered and the band came out of the side door and took the stage. I watched as Drake introduced them and then started into the first song. Just like before, I was mesmerized by his voice as the hairs on the back of my neck stood up. He just had a presence on stage that demanded you stop whatever you were doing and listen to him.
I bobbed my head with the music as they played a few fast songs. A group of girls appeared in front of Drake as he continued to sing. He would occasionally glance down at them and wink, causing them to scream out his name. I rolled my eyes at their attempts to get his attention.
He finished out the current song and waited for everyone to stop shouting out his name before he spoke, “Alright, we’re going to slow it down a bit with a new song. I wrote this earlier in the week, I hope you all enjoy it,” he smiled at the women standing at his feet, “This one is for all the ladies in the room.”
They started screaming as Jade started in with a slow beat, followed by Eric and Adam. Drake came in last with his guitar as he closed his eyes and started singing the most beautiful lyrics I had ever heard. I froze as his eyes opened and locked onto mine.
I’ve searched high and low for someone like you
Feeling like there was no one around
Until I saw you
You look my breath away, made me smile
Stole my heart and blinded me with your beauty
I’m raw when you’re not around
Lost when you’re gone you see, but that’s how it has to be
Such beauty could never be wasted on me
I hope you’ll understand why
I push you away and hide inside myself
I’ll never be good enough, I’m caged inside myself
Please forgive me
Please forgive me.
My eyes stung with tears as I listened to him sing to me.
Logan nudged me and whispered in my ear, “You want to dance?”
I didn’t, not while Drake stood on stage and bared his soul to me, but I nodded and let him lead me into the space where several other couples were already dancing.
He pulled me close and rested his hands on my hips as I watched Drake behind him. He was still staring at me, with a look of pure pain on his face and it broke my heart. If only things could have been different. Logan hugged me tight as we swayed back and forth and kissed me on the cheek. I looked away from Drake to Logan as I leaned in and gently kissed him on the lips. I had to move on and Logan was standing right here in front of me, waiting on me, his eyes filled with love. I had to accept that I would never have Drake.
Logan returned my kiss eagerly before pulling back.
“What was that for?”
“It just felt right.”
He smiled as Drake finished the song and told everyone goodnight. Logan and I grabbed a couple bottles of beer and returned to the table. The band packed up their instruments and followed Drake over to our table.
Jade smiled at me as she pulled a chair from a neighboring table and sat down next to me. “Hey Chloe, good to see you again.”
“Yeah, you too.”
Everyone shifted around the table to give Drake, Eric, and Adam room to squeeze into our cramped space as Drake introduced the guys to us. This was the first time I had ever seen either one of them up close. Eric had his light brown hair styled in the same shaggy mess as Drake did, but he didn’t have any of Drake’s piercings. He looked surprisingly clean cut for being in a rock band. He had a few tattoos scattered across his uncovered arms but that was the extent of his body modification as far as I could see.
Adam, on the other hand, was an animal all his own. His hair was dyed an electric blue and was styled in a Mohawk that stood several inches high. His eyebrows were both pierced twice and he had a set of snakebites. He screamed wild and I gave Amber a subtle kick under the table when I saw her watching him like he was a God.
We fell into an easy conversation as everyone settled themselves around the table. I refused to look at Drake as Jade and I started talking, afraid of what I’d see if I looked into his eyes. We were interrupted when three girls came over and settled themselves in the male band member’s laps. Jade was apparently used to this, she ignored them as she continued to ask questions about my classes and my job. I couldn’t help but look up every time one of them would giggle at something that was said.
Drake sat with his hands running up and down a red head’s thigh whispering into her ear. My stomach turned and I looked around for our waitress, needing another drink. I finally caught her attention and signaled for two more beers.
“Don’t you think you should slow down Chloe? You’ve already had five.” Logan asked, concerned.
“I want to have fun tonight, what’s the big deal?”
He shook his head as he watched me down one of the beers the waitress brought me.
“Go ahead, but you’re not driving us home.”
I handed him my keys. “That’s fine, you can drive.”
Logan took my keys as I started in on the second beer. “Good idea.”
As the night wore on, I felt the alcohol taking effect and caught myself constantly watching Drake and the red head. Every time I looked at them, his hands were roaming over her body as she leaned into him. When I couldn’t take it any longer, I stood and motioned for Logan to stand as well.
“I’m ready to go home if you are.”
He glanced at Amber and Rachel, who were in deep conversation with Jade, “You guys ready?”
We told everyone goodnight as Logan led me out to the car, steadying me when I stumbled. The car ride home was loud as Amber and Rachel gushed about how amazing the band had been. I kept quiet and stared out the window as my head spun. When we pulled in, Logan helped me out of the car. “You still on for movie night?”
I looked at him and smiled, “Of course.”
Logan kept his word and let me pick the movie. I really didn’t care, so I pulled a random action movie out and handed it to him. I sat down and kicked my shoes off as he put it into the DVD player and settled down beside me. He had taken his shirt off and changed into pajama pants when we arrived, and I felt his bare skin warm and soft against my cheek as I laid my head down on his chest, resting my hand on his stomach. My fingers drew circles over the tight muscles in his stomach as we watched the movie. When I started running my hands up and down the deep V of his abdomen he jumped up from the bed and walked across the room.
“I think I need a shot. You want one?”
“Sure,” I mumbled as I sat up.
He pulled a bottle and two shot glasses out of his closet and poured us each one.
I took my shot and handed my glass back.
“Give me another one.”
“You sure? You’ve already had a bunch to drink.”
My mind was foggy as I looked at him through alcohol glazed eyes. He really was beautiful, and I was lucky to have someone like him care so much about me.
“Yeah, I’m fine.”
He poured me another shot and handed it to me, stashing the bottle back in his closet. I set the glass on the nightstand as he settled back down next to me and I curled up around him. I started running my hands across his stomach again and felt his body tense.
“What are you doing Chloe?”
I shook my head as I continued exploring his hard muscles, “I have no idea.”
“You need to stop.”
I raised my head to look at him. His eyes had glazed over with the lust he was trying to control.
“Why?” I whispered.
“Because if you don’t, I’m not going to be able to control myself.”
I smiled innocently as I brushed kisses across his chest, “Maybe I don’t want you to.”
His sucked in a breath as I flipped my tongue over his nipple, “Chloe, you’re drunk and you’ll regret this in the morning.”
I rolled over until I was on top of him, straddling him. “I know exactly what I’m doing.”
I was lying, but the alcohol had taken over and I couldn’t control what was happening. I leaned down and started kissing up his neck to his ear, before sucking on the sensitive spot behind his ear.
He groaned as he rolled over and pinned me to the bed beneath him. “Are you sure this is what you want? I told you I could wait, and I meant it.”
I nodded as I raised my head to kiss him, “Yes please, I need you.”
My words were all it took to spring him into action. He raised me up and pulled my shirt over my head.
“You don’t know how long I’ve wanted you. If you change your mind, just tell me and I’ll stop. But if you don’t, I have no intentions of stopping, I want you too much.”
I whimpered as he unsnapped my bra and took both my breasts in his hands, kneading them gently. He bent his head forward and sucked my hard nipple into his mouth, biting on it. His hands slid slowly down my stomach to the fastening on my jeans. He pulled them off before cupping me between my legs. His fingers found my entrance and entered slowly as he gently thrust them in and out, causing me to arch my body into his.
“You’re so beautiful Chloe, and you’re mine.”
I groaned and pushed myself up tighter against him. “Please, Dr…. Logan, I need it harder.”
My body tensed as I tried to cover my blunder. I had almost called him Drake in the heat of the moment. He didn’t seem to notice as he obliged and thrust his fingers in harder before pulling away.
“What are you doing?”
“Tell me you’re mine. I need to hear it,” his fingers circled my entrance, driving me insane but he refused to enter, “Let me hear you say it Chloe.”
“I’m yours. Now please.”
He kissed me roughly before pulling his jeans off. He grabbed a condom out of the drawer and slowly lowered himself to push inside me. I hadn’t had sex in a long time, and I felt a small twinge of pain at his size, but in my drunken haze, I immediately responded and pushed my hips up to meet each thrust. The pain quickly changed to pleasure and I felt myself start to go over the edge as he slipped a hand between my legs and stroked my *.
I ran my nails down his back and his thrusts became harder and more erratic. My hands fisted in his hair as I came and I heard him shout out at his own release. He pulled out slowly and threw the condom away before settling back in behind me and pulling me close.
“That was amazing Chloe. You were amazing.”
He kissed my head before falling asleep quickly. I laid there curled up in his arms as a single tear slipped down my cheek.