Chapter FORTY-SIX
September in London. The air had turned cooler. The days had become shorter. They would be off to the country soon. And Lucy detested the country. Not the land itself but the company. Being shut up in a house, however grand, with her parents for months was far from her idea of a pleasant way to pass the time. Thank goodness Cass and Garrett lived nearby.
Lucy traced the raindrops on the windowpane of the drawing room. She hadn’t seen or spoken to Derek since she’d left Bath. She’d dodged all of her friends’ attempts to visit her as well, either claiming she was out or indisposed. Every day she checked the Society pages of the Times for the news of Derek and Cass’s impending nuptials. It was never there, but surely it was only a matter of time. As the days passed, she became increasingly nervous, certain she would see it soon.
But something else was missing from the pages of the newspaper. News of Captain Julian Swift’s death in Brussels. Had it happened and not been reported? Was Cass grieving—and bad friend that she was, Lucy was ignoring her? Oh, she had been convinced that she had to give the entire affair time and space. But it felt as if she was hurting everyone who was important to her.
When Janie came bustling into the drawing room, hands on her hips and no book in sight, Lucy knew it was serious.
“I don’t care what your latest excuse is, you’re coming to the theater with me tonight,” Jane declared, shaking her head so hard her spectacles nearly popped off her prim little nose. She fumbled for them and set them back in place, then crossed her arms over her chest and eyed Lucy sternly.
“I don’t want to.” As excuses went, it was particularly weak, but at the moment it was all Lucy had.
Jane gave her a long-suffering stare. “I don’t care.”
“I can’t, Jane. What if, what if…?” Lucy couldn’t bring herself to say, What if I see Derek? It was insane and useless and she didn’t want to have to explain herself. “I refuse to go to the theater. That’s all there is to it.” She nodded resolutely.
“It’s Much Ado About Nothing,” Jane added in a singsong voice. “One of my very favorites.”
Lucy winced. Blast it. She couldn’t miss Much Ado About Nothing. It was one of her very favorites as well. And Jane knew it. Knew it and had come here armed with that information.
“Besides, Upton and Lord Berkeley have agreed to accompany us,” Jane added, taking a seat on the settee and removing her gloves. “Do you have any teacakes?”
Lucy gulped. “Lord Berkeley?”
“Yes.”
“Is coming?”
“Yes. He’s in town for a few more days and he indicated that he’s quite eager to see you.”
Lucy twisted her hands together. “He did?”
“Yes.”
Lucy winced. “I find that surprising given that I haven’t received a letter from him since I left Bath. I barely said good-bye.”
“Nevertheless, he expressed his intent interest in seeing you again. That must have been some kiss you gave him,” Jane said with a laugh. “Oh, come on, Luce, you know it’s serious if I’m conspiring with Upton to get you out of the house.”
“Where is Garrett, anyway? I haven’t seen him in days. How were you two able to conspire without me finding out?”
“Upton paid me a call. We discussed it all at my parents’ town house. He invited Berkeley, too. The chap seems quite smitten with you, I must say. I’ve no idea why you’ve been hiding in this house for so long.”
Lucy set her jaw. “I shall throttle Garrett the next time I see him.”
“No you won’t. You’ll be charming and sweet, at least while Lord Berkeley’s around.” Jane laughed again. “Now ring for tea. I’m in desperate need of a cake.”
“No one needs a cake.”
Jane gave her a withering stare. “That is hardly relevant.”
Lucy shook her head and rang for tea. Jane was not to be dissuaded once she’d set her sights on a teacake. “You and Garrett at another performance of Much Ado? That’s sure to be a disaster.”
Jane tossed a hand in the air. “Yes, exactly! Take it seriously. It truly is. Only for you would I do such a thing as agree to accompany Upton to the theater again. And only for you would I go see Much Ado About Nothing with your infuriatingly wrongheaded cousin.”
“You may call him Garrett, you know. You two have known each other long enough.”
Jane rolled her eyes. “I wouldn’t give him the satisfaction.”
Lucy turned back to face her friend, a stern and resolute look on her face. “Janie, I appreciate your efforts, truly I do, but there’s absolutely no way in the entire world that I’m leaving this house tonight.”
* * *
Never let it be said that Miss Jane Lowndes was anything other than a bullheaded tyrant when she wanted to be. That was the thought that coursed through Lucy’s mind as she stood outside the Royal Theater Company’s production of Much Ado About Nothing. The play had been thoroughly enjoyed by all. Lucy couldn’t remember the last time she’d laughed so heartily. Very well, perhaps Jane had been right, forcing her out of her house. She’d asked Jane a variety of questions about Cass and Julian, carefully avoiding the subject of Derek. Jane had also carefully bypassed each of her inquiries, insisting that if Lucy wanted to know what was going on with Cass, she should stop acting like such a ninny and pay her friend a call to find out for herself.
Lucy, of course, had no intention of doing so, but regardless of the little bit of information she’d been able to wheedle out of Jane, she’d had a wonderful time this evening.
It was lovely to see Christian again. He was as handsome and solicitous as ever. So what if he didn’t make her stomach leap the way Derek did? Stomach leaping was quite overrated. It made one far too anxious. It was far too closely related to nausea. Yes, who wanted all that nonsense? Much better to have a sensibly well-settled stomach. Better for the digestion no doubt. And if the man was not the best conversationalist in the kingdom, so be it.
He did try. He smiled at her and asked her halting questions about her health, her parents, her time in Bath. And she only thought of Derek a little when answering them. Well, only when Christian asked about where she’d been, what she’d done, and whom she’d done it with. A bit distracting, to be sure. But then she’d asked him about his own time in Bath, his stay in London, and his plans to go back to Northumbria. It was all quite interesting, if not stomach-leap inducing.
“Amazing that those two couldn’t see they were meant for each other all along,” Christian said about the performance as they were all leaving the theater together.
“I think it’s an awful trick their friends played on them,” Jane added. “But it was a pleasure to watch, I must admit.”
“Bah. It’s preposterous,” Garrett said, throwing a hand in the air. “You cannot possibly convince me that a man as intelligent as Benedick wouldn’t have known he was being tricked.”
Jane tossed her own hand in the air. “Oh, and Beatrice would have?”
“Both of them ought to have figured it out, frankly,” Garrett replied, a look of disgust on his face.
“That is why it’s a romp play, Upton,” Jane shot back, speaking slowly as if she were addressing a child or an imbecile. “It’s not a history lesson. It’s just meant to be fun.”
“It makes no sense. It’s silly,” Garrett replied.
“And what is wrong with being silly?” Jane asked sweetly.
They’d made their way to the front of the theater and were standing in a long queue waiting for the carriages to come around.
Lucy batted her eyelashes at her friends. “I hate to be indelicate and point it out, but is this not the exact same argument you two had five years ago?”
Jane and Garrett exchanged cantankerous looks.
Garrett shrugged. “Perhaps.”
“Yes, and amazingly, he’s still wrong, five years later.” Jane crossed her arms over her chest and glanced away.
“I’m wrong?” Garrett began. “I think you couldn’t be more wrong. And another thing—”
“Oh, here comes the carriage,” Lucy interjected, pointing. She glanced over to another line of waiting theatergoers.
She sucked in her breath.
“Lucy? Are you all right? You just went completely pale.” Jane’s gaze followed hers to the other group. Cassandra and Derek were there, along with Cassandra’s mother. They were waiting for a carriage, too.
“Oh, Luce, look. It’s Cass and the duke. Let’s go greet them.” Jane tried to pull her toward the others, but Lucy snatched her hand away.
“No. No. I couldn’t.” She backed away, unable to drag her eyes from Derek but also hoping against hope that he would not turn and see her. She couldn’t breathe. Her heart felt as if it were in a vise. Derek had told her he didn’t want to marry Cass. He’d told her he couldn’t do it, wouldn’t do it. And Lucy had told him he must. Had even been willing to sacrifice her own friendship with Cass for the sake of seeing her happily settled. But the lack of the announcement in the paper had lulled Lucy into a false hope. Perhaps Derek had meant what he’d said after all, that he did not intend to marry Cass, that he wouldn’t and truly couldn’t.
But now, here was the stark evidence, standing before her in the queue for the carriages. Cass and Derek were courting. They were. Lucy might have said she wanted this, but she couldn’t take it. Not now. Not yet. Perhaps not ever, but she certainly wasn’t strong enough now. Oh, why had she allowed Jane to needle her into coming to the theater tonight?
She whirled around in a panic to enter their coach, which had just pulled up, and nearly knocked poor Christian over. “May we go immediately, please?” she begged, looking up into the viscount’s angelic blue eyes.
Christian nodded. “Of course. Immediately.” He snapped his fingers and the footmen attending his coach came to help. Christian himself handed Lucy into the carriage. Jane and Garrett soon followed and the carriage took off quickly, rattling down the muddy street.
* * *
Derek helped Cassandra and her mother into the interior of his coach, but his mind kept replaying the moment he’d seen Berkeley’s hand on Lucy’s back. Derek clenched his jaw. He wanted to tear Berkeley limb from limb.
Derek had hoped coming to the theater tonight with Lady Cassandra would help him learn something about Lucy, but Cassandra had been surprisingly tight-lipped about her friend. Every question he’d attempted to ask about Lucy had been met with the unwelcome news that Cassandra and Lucy apparently hadn’t spoken since they’d returned from Bath.
“Every time I’ve tried to pay a call or send a missive, Lucy’s said she wasn’t feeling well or made some other excuse. I’m not certain what’s wrong with her. I’ve been worried, Your Grace,” Cassandra told him.
Cassandra’s mother, however, seemed positively delighted to have the opportunity to accompany her daughter and the duke to the theater, despite his constant inquiries about Lucy.
“Oh, Your Grace. Why, I don’t know when Cassandra and I have had a better time.”
Derek winced. Perhaps he’d made a mistake in asking Cassandra to the theater tonight. The way Lady Moreland was staring at him like a soldier presented with his ration of rum, he got the distinct impression that the woman was raising her hopes quite high that an offer from a duke was forthcoming for her daughter. Very well. He must face it. It had been wrong of him to ask Cassandra to accompany him tonight, but how else was he to learn anything about Lucy? She’d made it quite clear she didn’t want to see him again.
While he waited for word from Wellington in France, telling him whether he’d be allowed to return to the Continent to help search for Swifdon and Rafe, Derek had taken up his issues with Lucy again full force. He’d paid a call to Cass that afternoon, intending that to be the extent of their interaction. When Lady Moreland had come in carrying the tea tray herself and joining the conversation, Derek had been forced to abandon his questioning about Lucy. Instead, they’d had a perfectly boring conversation about the weather and a small variety of other socially acceptable topics before Lady Moreland had asked after his plans this evening. When he’d mentioned he intended to attend the theater, she’d practically leaped across the settee at him in her extremely ill-concealed attempts to invite herself along. “Oh, Cassandra and I love Shakespeare’s comedies, Your Grace. We think our butler may be related to him, you know? We’ve so wanted to attend the theater. We would simply adore it.”
Derek had expelled his breath, resigned to his fate. He remembered his own rude behavior weeks earlier when Cass had told him about her trip to Bath. He’d invited himself along then. Surely Lady Moreland’s self-invitation to the theater wasn’t as egregious as following someone to another town. Accompanying the lady and her daughter to a play would be a pleasant enough way to spend an evening.
He’d been wrong. At least on the last count. Lady Moreland had dropped unsubtle hints the entire night about her desire to see her daughter marry well. For her part, poor Cassandra had mentioned Swift more times than Derek could count, and the entire evening had been beyond awkward. To make matters worse, he’d learned practically nothing about Lucy.
Lucy.
When she’d seen him tonight, she’d gone as white as a sheet and turned away. Derek clenched his fist against the velvet squabs in his coach. Then he’d noticed Berkeley. White-hot anger had flashed before Derek’s eyes. Why did he have to see her with Berkeley of all people? Berkeley? Fine. Berkeley and her cousin Garrett were mates, but it didn’t make it any easier to watch the viscount touch Lucy. It fact, it incensed Derek. Had Berkeley got some other poor sop to agree to write her letters in his stead?
Derek pressed the side of his fist against the coach’s window. Everything about the way things had been left with Lucy incensed him. First, he’d finally decided exactly what he must do to make everything right and she’d refused to cooperate, telling him he must marry Cass. He couldn’t marry Cass. How could Lucy not understand that? And second, she’d unilaterally decided exactly how their entire future would go without consulting him. It couldn’t be that easy for her, could it? She’d felt something when she’d been in his arms. He knew it. There had to be something more going on. Lucy was scared. Scared of her feelings, scared enough to run away from him and use Cassandra as an excuse to ignore the budding relationship they’d obviously begun together. Damn it. It wasn’t fair of her.
And why had she been with Berkeley? She’d told Derek once she had no intention of marrying. Or didn’t think she would. He’d tried to ask about Berkeley then but she’d abruptly changed the subject. Was she using Berkeley to try to erase Derek from her mind? Berkeley. A simpering fool who couldn’t even write his own letters? By God, the next time he saw the viscount, Derek would pound him into pulp.