The Space In Between

Chapter Twenty-Six

THERE IT WAS! A smile. Well, a partial smile, but I would work with whatever I could get. She looked drained. I gave her a ‘friendly’ nudge on her shoulder. “Can I come in?” She opened the door wider, and that was enough of an invite. I took it.
I closed the door behind me and took a seat on the floor, legs crossed. She raised an eyebrow and sighed. “You know, there are chairs and beds to sit on.” I patted the spot across from me, and even though she was reluctant, she joined me. “Why are you so nice to me?”
“Why wouldn’t anyone be nice to you?” I asked.
“Come on, Cooper. One day I’m all over you, and the next I’m crying in your bedroom. Then I’m needy. Then I need my space. I’m angry. I’m dark at times. If bi-polar was a person, it would be me.”
“I wish you could see yourself the way I see you.”
She chuckled. I f*cking loved that sound. “What is it you see?”
I rested the palm of my hand under my chin. I was astonished that she didn’t see herself at all. I wondered what she saw when she looked in the mirror. “I see a spirit that was broken the day her loved one died. I see someone who is waffling back and forth between being happy and feeling guilt for that happiness, trapped in the space between holding on and letting go. And I see someone I want to help put back together.”
I meant it. I was dedicated to her. And whatever she needed, I wanted to be the one to provide it for her. Even if that meant we would only be friends.
Her head lowered to the wooden floor panels and she ran her fingers across the cracks. She began to shake a small amount and looked up to me with tears trying their best to stay hidden from the world. “What if I can’t be fixed?”
I glanced to the floor panels and copied her finger movement along the cracks. “Then we’ll be broken together.”





PRIDE AND PREJUDICE. I’d never seen the movies. I’d never read the book. And it wasn’t that I didn’t dance, I couldn’t dance. So the idea of walking into a dance studio tomorrow afternoon for my cousin’s party terrified the f*ck out of me. After leaving a tired Andrea’s side, I headed through the house towards the backyard to get to the coach house.
After passing many different doors and many different hallways, I saw a bedroom door swung open and a cat sleeping on the ground. My skin started to feel like spiders were creeping across my whole body. I f*cking hated cats. Not kidding. HATED them.
But I glanced up to the bed to see a lovely lady sitting up, with her eyes glued to the television screen. Her eyes sparkled as if she were waking up early on Christmas morning in time to catch Santa Claus. “What ya watching?” I asked outside Ladasha’s bedroom. She grinned and waved me in. I glanced towards the sleeping cat and rubbed my earlobe. “I’m good here.”
“Sleepless In Seattle,” she responded as she walked over to greet me at the door.
“Never seen it.”
“I’m not surprised, Mr. ‘I’ve never seen any romance or romantic comedy movie ever.’ What are you? A guy?” she sneered. Ladasha was one of the most charming people I’d ever come across in my life. Her ability to make people feel comfortable and safe around her was incredible. She was intelligent, highly educated in the world of film. She was a good friend; the way she’d squeezed Andrea’s hand at the dining table showed me that. Let’s be honest, she was sexy as hell and she was hilarious. For the life of me, I had no idea why this girl was single.
“Have you seen Pride and Prejudice?” I inquired. I required her help.
Snickering out loud, she placed her long brown hair up into a messy bun. Her hand found the perfect placement on her hip as she glared at me. “Psh. Have I ever seen Pride and Prejudice. Did you really just ask me that?”
Biting the tip of my thumb, I put on my best puppy dog eyes. “Can you do me a favor?”





“IT’S ALL RIGHT. Try again.”
She remained calm as I stepped on her foot for the fifth time within the last thirty minutes. We stood in the emptied living room of the coach house as Ladasha tried to teach me a few dance moves of the English Country Dance. She told me the dances of the eighteenth century were simplistic moves with a few steps easy to follow. For some reason I thought it was rocket science.
“You’re overthinking it. Stop thinking. Turn off the left side of your brain and allow your creativity to flow. Like with your photos. When you take the pictures your body isn’t tight. It’s not overthinking about what the photo may turn out to be. You’re allowing the photo to flow to you.”
She made sense. I tried to stop thinking about the movements and fell into the art of dance. “So, you like her a lot.” She assumed I was learning the dance moves in order to impress Andrea. Ladasha wasn’t a dummy.
“I do,” I said as I glided myself around Ladasha. She informed me that tomorrow we would have to trade partners, which seemed much more complicated than I was ready for. So I pretended she never said that. One step at a time.
“I wish you could have known her before the accident.”
“I’m hoping to know her after it.” We kept dancing into the night. I wasn’t good—let’s not be crazy. But I wasn’t horrible. My feet stepped on hers more than I wanted to admit, but she was a great teacher. She allowed me to make mistakes and cheered me on when I fixed them myself. A brilliant instructor she had turned out to be.
When we decided to call it a night, she stuck around to help me move the furniture we had previously pushed into the kitchen back into the living room. As we carried the sofa, she told me she was in need of a few questions to be answered from me. If I had plans to be around Andrea for the long run, I had to first pass the best friend questionnaire.
“Have you ever been hooked on drugs? Alcohol?”
“No.”
She shifted the oversized blue chair into the far corner of the room. “STDs?”
“No.”
“Are things really done and over with your wife?”
That was a very clear yes. Minus the messed up paparazzi threats.
“Any children you may or may not know about?”
I grew quiet. She must have seen the sadness in my eyes, so she was quick to tell me that everything spoken during the questionnaire was strictly confidential.
“Two miscarriages and one lie.”
Her look of understanding was comforting. She didn’t judge me; she just listened. Hell, it was good to just have someone listen for once. I could see why Andrea spoke so highly of this unique woman. She was somethin’ else.
As she prepared to leave the room, she revealed a small fact about herself. “My mom cared more about her drugs, and my dad…God knows who he is. And as far as miscarriages are concerned…” Her voice trailed off and she lost herself in her memories, “Let’s just say I know how you feel.” I returned the same understanding look to her. She smirked and went back to her sassy self instantly. “But that’s off the record.”
“Of course.”
I opened the front door for her and walked her back to the house. I watched as she wrapped her arms around herself to keep warm in the falling snow, and I placed my jacket around her shoulders. As we said goodnight, she smiled and said the kindest thing to me.
“Cooper, you would have made a great father.”
I walked back towards the coach house that night with a few new dance moves and a brand new friend.
Ladasha’s parents had no clue about the treasure they’d let go.
Dumbasses.