Promises Hurt

“I’m sorry, Princess, you told me to do it quick. Just try and relax, you’ll adjust to my size in a second. I promise I won’t move.” He looks genuinely sorry and worried that he’s hurting me and it makes me love him all the more. He’s holding perfectly still and although it’s hurting like hell, a noise escapes me that’s half pained sob and half giggle. His eyes narrow and he pulls his head back ever so slightly.

 

“Are you okay?”

 

“I think so,” I reply and then tilt my hips slightly. His eyes look like they’re about to roll back into his head as a low growl escapes him.

 

“Fuck, Blair, when you do that it makes me really need to move.” His voice sounds almost as pained as mine, only I can tell he’s trying hard to use restraint.

 

I rock my hips forward a tiny bit and look into his eyes. “You can move slowly,” I tell him as he dips his head and rests his forehead against mine.

 

Gradually my muscles seem to relax around him and the pain is replaced with a slow building pleasure as he slides gently in and out of me. Our bodies are slick with sweat as we glide against one another. I push my fingers into his back and moan his name as his pace begins to quicken.

 

“God yes, that feels so good baby,” I exhale, reveling in the feeling. My groans seem to work Ethan into a passion educed frenzy, prompting his body to slam hungrily into mine. “Ethan, Harder!” I scream as he thrusts deeper and deeper inside of me and I can feel myself building again.

 

“Princess, I need you to come for me, you feel too good, I can’t hold on.” His voice almost sounds pained as he’s pounding into me hard and fast. His fingers are tugging my hair as he thrusts deeper. I feel a red hot wave move across my body before I explode around him with an infinitely more intense sensation than I had when I came before. “Oh god, Ethan, I’m…I’m coming,” I gasp as my orgasm sends lights shooting behind my eyes as my body tingles and clamps down around him.

 

“Fuck, Blair,” he growls as he finds his own release, and him throbbing inside of me sends a new wave of aftershocks through me, making me tighten around him again and again. It’s pure ecstasy; every nerve in my body is alive as heat crashes over me.

 

Ethan’s body relaxes and drapes over mine, our breathing slowing from the erratic panting of just moments ago. I’m limp and exhausted in the very best way. I want to stay like this forever.

 

“Blair?” he whispers so softly as he pulls out of me and I barely register the sound.

 

“Yeah?” I breathe out. My eyes are heavy with contentment and I can’t remember a time I ever felt this sated.

 

“Can I keep you?”

 

I smile as I let out a long exhale. “Only forever.”

 

“Promise?”

 

“Cross my heart,” I tell him as my eyelids drop and I let sleep claim me.

 

 

 

 

 

I WALK BACK from the bathroom and Blair’s asleep. I stand over the bed and stare at her in awe. She’s laid on her stomach and her messy sex hair is fanned out over my pillows. It's the hottest sight I’ve ever seen, she’s breathtaking. The sheets are tangled up around her and only covering one half of her body, a perfectly toned leg leading up to one perfectly curved ass cheek is on display and the sight has me ready for round two.

 

I climb into the bed beside her and pull her naked body flush with mine so I’m spooning her. Her soft ass wriggles back against my dick as I envelope my body around hers, my arms encasing her and cupping her breasts. I push my face through her hair and rest my chin on her shoulder. I couldn’t be any closer to her and yet I still don’t feel close enough. I squeeze her ever so slightly and she wriggles her body back again.

 

“Mmm, you feel too good to be true,” she says, her voice thick with sleep.

 

I smile into her neck as her words wash over me; I’ve never felt as relaxed as I do right now. Things make more sense when she’s with me. My life feels easier, my worries seem less of a burden and I want so badly to tell her that I love her. I need to stop myself from speaking the words right now. I don’t want her to think I’m saying it because we’ve just had sex, and it's the thing to do. When I tell her, I need her to be completely sure that I’m saying it because there’s never been anything truer.

 

I can’t picture a future without her in it now. I’ve had a taste of what my life could be like, what my life should be like and I can’t ignore it. I can’t go back to the numbness. She’s under my skin; her essence is running through my veins and taking a hold of my heart. She owns me in every way a person can be owned and when I finally tell her those three little words, I need her to understand the place where they’re coming from. Maybe if I hadn’t experienced so many dark moments with my father, I would have never noticed Blair shining. But looking down at this beautiful girl asleep beside me now, I know I wouldn’t change a single thing about my past, because it brought me my future.

 

 

 

 

 

“Ethan?” I’m jolted awake as Blair pushes against my arm still trapping her body against mine.

 

“Mm.”

 

She pushes again, harder to garner more of a response, but I don’t want to move, she feels too good pressed against me.