“What time is it?” she asks, her voice thick with sleep.
“A little after midnight, Princess. You wanna come into the house and spend the night still?” I’m holding my breath praying that she hasn’t changed her mind but I don’t want her to feel like she has to stay. “I can drive you home, if you’ve changed your mind.”
She wipes her eyes again and then yawns, stretching her arms above her head and arching her back.
“The only place I want to go, Ethan, is to your room.”
I mentally give myself a high-five and smile down at her sleepy form. I lean across and scoop her up against my chest and her eyes widen for a second before she relaxes.
“You don’t have to carry me, you know, my legs work just fine.”
“I wanna carry you. Plus, you're not wearing any shoes. I haven’t seen them anywhere so let me carry you.”
Okay so that’s a lie; I put her shoes away when I was tidying. I just wanted a reason to hold her without her thinking I was a complete pansy-ass. I make my way across the yard and through to the kitchen. I sit her on the island and position myself between her legs.
“Let me quickly lock up and then we can go to bed.”
“Hmmm,” she practically purrs as I lean in and kiss the side of her neck.
“Feels so nice, Ethan.”
I force myself to pull away and make sure everything is secure, asking if she wants anything to eat or drink before we head upstairs. She shakes her head and hops off the island.
“Lead the way, sexy,” she tells me, pinching my ass. My dick is so hard right now I’m almost positive if she touches it the thing will just blow. I need to calm the fuck down and remind myself I’m not a horny thirteen-year-old anymore.
“Follow me,” I tell her shooting her what I assume is a pretty huge shit-eating grin as I take her hand and lead her through the hall.
“Wait!” She stops in her tracks, motioning to the dining room and points over to the piano. “We’ve been dating for ages and I still haven’t heard my so-called musical genius boyfriend play the piano.”
I smile and lead her into the room and sit her on the side of the bench with me as I flex my fingers out in-font of me.
“Any requests?”
Her smile is huge. “Anything pretty.”
I begin to play All of Me by John Legend and she watches me wide-eyed as the music fills the empty room. I close my eyes and sing the words softly, getting lost in the moment. I enjoy playing the guitar and being part of the band, it’s fun and I’m good at it. But I love this; playing the piano has always been my way of expressing myself without having to use words. I feel freer when I’m playing. I bring the piece to its end and turn to look at Blair.
“Wow!” she sighs and leans forward, resting her forehead against mine. “That was beautiful. I had no idea you could play like that. I know you’re supposed to be going to some fancy music school, but that was just…beautiful.”
I laugh quietly and tilt my head so I can kiss her lips.
“I think you should take me upstairs now,” she whispers.
I pull her up from the bench; she certainly doesn’t need to ask twice.
ETHAN LEADS ME by the hand upstairs to his room. My whole body is vibrating with the tingling sensations his touch elicits. I’m thrumming with nervous anticipation, my stomach is knotted and I’m more than a little anxious. I know that I’m about to lose my virginity and as much as I want to, I’m scared of how inexperienced I am, and how Ethan is anything but. I want him more than I’ve ever wanted anything. I’m ready for this to happen, but I can’t deny that the situation has me literally trembling now that it’s real. I’m wondering if this will change me, make me feel any different, see things from a new perspective. What if it’s too painful or just really bad? What if it’s amazing and I turn into some sex-crazed hussy? I feel like I’m standing at the edge of a cliff ready to jump and when I do everything will change.
We walk silently into Ethan’s room and my overnight bag is sitting at the end of his bed.
“I brought your things up here earlier. You can take a shower or freshen up — whatever, in my bathroom.” He points to the door in the corner of the room. “I’m gonna take a quick shower across the hall. You should find everything you need, there are fresh towels already in there.”
“Okay baby, thank you, I won’t take long.” I scoop my bag up from his bed and make my way into the bathroom.
I stare at my reflection in the mirror and will myself to relax while brushing my teeth. Come on, Blair, you want this. Pull yourself together.