Need You Tonight

SEVENTEEN





Colby’s house was in a pleasant, quiet neighborhood and was situated at the end of a cul-de-sac. A nice place but nothing outrageous. The kind of house you’d see as the backdrop for some family sitcom. Nothing that would indicate the people walking inside weren’t simply another group of friends getting together for a couple of drinks and some conversation on a Friday night. It was a scene that had played out regularly in her old life. Neighbors drinking poolside, sharing gossip, and trading stories.

But when this group settled poolside with margaritas, Tessa knew that it was going to be far from a normal get together. For one thing, Colby was checking the temperature of the pool. And she knew she wasn’t the only one who hadn’t brought a bathing suit. Kade stretched out behind her on the lounge chair and wrapped his arms around her. “How’s the drink?”

“Weak,” she said, her voice coming out softer than expected. “But tasty.”

“Yeah, that’s on purpose. You’ve already had two glasses of wine. Any decisions you make with me tonight need to be made sober.”

Across the pool from them, Evan, Jace, and Andre had pulled together a few loungers, making a space large enough for the three of them. Jace was playfully kissing Evan on her neck and Andre was peeling his shirt off. Colby had walked to a panel on the wall of the house and was turning on music. Tessa swallowed past the knot of nerves that was building in her throat. “Decisions?”

Kade pressed a kiss behind her ear, sending goose bumps down her side. “Yes. Lots to choose from the fantasy list tonight.”


She gripped her drink tightly, the sweat of the glass dripping onto her lap, as she watched Jace reach out and flick one of Andre’s nipple rings. Colby walked by them, giving them a glance as he made his way to the edge of the pool. “I’m guessing being a voyeur is one of the options.”

“Yes,” Kade said, his touch growing bolder as he coasted fingers along her thighs. “And that’s fine if that’s all you choose to do tonight. Watching can be unbelievably hot.”

“And being the exhibitionists is the other choice of the two?” she asked, leaning back into him, her body heating beneath his fingers and illicit words.

“Absolutely,” he agreed. “Great option as well. But there are more than two choices, Tess.”

Her gaze shifted from the triad across the way and landed on Colby, who’d taken off his shirt to reveal a body that would’ve been at home on Mt. Olympus. Jesus. “More than two?”

Her eyes were glued to Colby as he unbuttoned his jeans and pushed them down along with his underwear without hesitation or reservation. What he revealed had her face going hot and her tongue pressing to the roof of her mouth. Part of her felt wrong for staring. She was with Kade and in complete lust with him and his gorgeous swimmer’s body. But hell if she could look away from the beast of a man slipping naked into the pool. There were some things that required you to stare.

Kade snorted behind her.

“What?” she asked.

“I asked you something and you didn’t hear a word. You’re giving me new reasons to hate my best friend. You love his music and can’t take your eyes off of him getting undressed. A guy could develop a jealous streak.”

She set her drink down and turned in his arms with a grimace. Jealousy. It’d been a running theme in her marriage to Doug. Any time she glanced at a guy, whether with appreciation or not, Doug would get annoyed and call her out. “God, I’m sorry. You’re right. I shouldn’t have looked, I—”

His smile was slow and knowing. “You really didn’t hear what I said before that, did you?”

She bit her lip. “No, what did you say?”

He slid his hand around the back of her neck, pinning her with his gaze. “I said you have the option of watching a threesome tonight or having one.”

Every muscle in her body froze. “What?”

His fingers drew circles along the nape of her neck. “It’s up to you, Tess. If you want to just stick a toe in the water tonight, we can relax here, watch Jace, Evan, and Andre. Enjoy the view. Or you and I can give a little show of our own. Or if you want to really push your boundaries, that man you were just ogling can join us. Your call.”

She tried to wet her lips but her tongue wouldn’t work. Kade and Colby? “You want to share me? With your best friend? I thought you said you were getting jealous . . .”

The whole idea had her body stirring and her mind scrambling.

“He’s too cocky to get jealous,” said a deep voice from behind her. She turned around to see Colby peering at them, his forearms braced along the edge of the pool, body concealed by the water, and his hazel eyes sparkling with mischief. “Plus, he wouldn’t make the offer unless he trusted that you’re solidly with him.”

Tessa’s heartbeat was pounding too loudly in her ears and she was starting to sweat—and not in a cute way. She looked back to Kade, who was watching her with evaluating eyes. He pushed her hair away from her face. “This is an absolutely no-pressure decision, baby. I want to give you your fantasies, whatever you’re ready for.” He looked over her shoulder and raised his voice. “And if Colby’s too disgusting to contemplate touching, I completely understand.”

“Hey!” Colby said, splashing water their way.

She laughed and pressed her forehead to Kade’s shoulder, the joke loosening that fist of tension a bit. “I don’t know, Kade. A threesome seems so . . .”

“Hot? Sexy? Dirty?” he offered, a smile in his voice.

“Slutty,” she said honestly. Isn’t that what had first crossed her mind when Sam had told her she’d been in one?

He ran a hand over the back of her head. “I have a feeling you’re not using that word in the positive way. Do you think Evan is a slut?”

She lifted her head. “Of course not.”

And she meant that. She’d watched the triad interact with each other. There was so much affection and genuine love there. And those guys looked at Evan like she was the most precious thing ever put on the earth. They were sexy together. Not trashy. Not wrong. They were three people embracing their sexuality and relishing it.

“Then why would you assign that label to yourself if you decide to indulge a little tonight?” There was no judgment in his voice, just genuine concern and curiosity.

“I don’t know. Maybe I’m just a little scared,” she admitted. “Scared that no matter how much the idea excites me right now or how much I enjoy it, I’ll look back at this tomorrow and realize I’ve lost my mind. I’m also scared that if I keep pushing past fences, I’m never going to find my way back into my own yard. You make me want things I shouldn’t.”

His eyes went soft. “Why shouldn’t you, baby?”

“Because when it goes away,”—when you go away, her mind filled in—“everything normal is going to seem mundane.”

He cupped her cheek in his palm. “It doesn’t have to go away. The people around you right now prove that. If you like kinky, it’s out there for those who seek it. Your reactions to this aren’t responses I’m creating in you, they’re things I’m uncovering. Vanilla sex works for most of the world. It doesn’t for me. And maybe it doesn’t for you either. And I don’t think you need to worry about mundane. I don’t plan on finishing your lessons anytime soon.”

She smirked, his little speech quelling the rising anxiety in her. He made it all seem so easy, feel so very okay, like she deserved to have whatever made her feel good without shame or guilt or worry. Like he would think no differently of her no matter what her decision was. “You know, if your CEO gig doesn’t work, you may have potential in the pied piper business.”

He laughed. “Maybe, but really, tonight is your call. I just want you. I don’t care how we go about that. We could go back to your place and forget all these options altogether. This is about what you want.”

She moved her hands up his chest, feeling his heart steadily beating beneath her fingers, and sighed. This man was undoing her—lace by lace, button by button, soon there’d be nothing left to protect her from him or from the secret parts of herself she’d locked away in her own brain. She took a long, full breath and let her chest fall, breathing out the anxiety. “I think I’m ready to be a little scared.”

“Yeah?” he said, his brows lifting.

She glanced back at Colby before looking to Kade again, her resolve building block by block within her. “Yeah.”

“Brave girl.” He gave her that smile that could’ve melted her panties right off her body and ran his hands along her arms. “I promise you’re safe with the two of us. I wouldn’t let just anyone touch you. I’d trust Colby with my life. And you always can say the word if you want anything to stop. We’re going to make this good for you, Tess.”

She nodded, a little too breathless to speak. She was going to do this. She was really going to do this. Two men. Doug would’ve burned her at the stake in a public square if she’d ever suggested a threesome.

Kade gave her one last long look, as if to make sure she was one hundred percent sure, and then he untied the belt holding her wrap dress in place. The two sides fell open, revealing the obscene bra—not that it really had any business being called a bra. All it did was lift and frame her naked breasts for display. Kade’s eyes went molten blue when he took in the view.

“F*ck, it’s even better than I expected,” he said, cupping one of her breasts and running a thumb over her already sensitized nipple. “Lose the dress. But keep the lingerie on.”

She scraped her teeth along her bottom lip, the command giving her something to focus on besides her nerves. She tucked her knees under her and slipped the dress off her shoulders, leaving her in the bra and crotchless panties. Kade turned her around so she was facing away from him.

A soft moaning sound came from in front of her, and she peered across the pool. Jace and Andre had divested Evan of her dress as well. She was on the lounger between them, the silver chain that hung between her breasts glinted in the light from the pool. And Andre was shirtless and on his knees, his back to Tessa and his dark head between Evan’s thighs. Jace was lying alongside her, kissing her all over, worshipping every inch of bared skin like she was some goddess to pay homage to.

Tessa’s body went tight all over, the erotic tableau almost too much to take in all at once. She’d never been particularly interested in watching porn. And most people from the outside looking in would probably label what was in front of her as such, but there was something unbearably gorgeous and right about the three of them together. You could feel the reverence among them. They were in love and unashamed and completely entranced with each other. The scene was dirty, but it was beautiful. And for the first time, Tessa realized those things didn’t need to be mutually exclusive.


Kade kissed her shoulder. “Let’s get in the pool, gorgeous. Your turn to make those pretty noises.”

She let him take her hand and guide her to her feet. Colby peered up at them from the edge of the pool, his hazel eyes tracing over her body with open interest. She should’ve felt self-conscious or awkward considering her outfit and the circumstances, but somehow Kade’s warm hand on her back and Colby’s inherent relaxed state sent a sense of calm going through her. She was, of course, nervous about what would happen since she’d never done this before. It was like climbing up the roller coaster tracks, feeling unsure of what the rush down would feel like. But she was no longer freaked out by the idea of it all. This didn’t have to be some big, life-changing incident. This was just her and two drop-dead gorgeous men having a fun night together.

Kade guided her down the pool steps until she was submerged to her waist, and then he passed her off to Colby so that he could slip out of his clothes. Colby’s big hand closed around hers and he tugged her further into the pool. The warm water lapped at her exposed skin, making her body ache with awareness.

“Hey there, darlin’,” he said, his voice as gentle as if he were talking to a skittish deer. “You sure about this?”

She appreciated the question and that he kept a bit of distance between them even though she was intensely aware that he was naked beneath the water. She gave a little nod. “Yes. Are you?”

He chuckled and slicked back his wavy, dark hair. “That saying about there are no stupid questions is a lie. If my best friend wants to share his beautiful submissive with me, I am more than happy to oblige you both.”

She frowned. “Submissive?”

The conversation with Sam came back to her. Dominance. Submission. Sam and her training.

The water moved behind her as Kade slid into the water and wrapped his arms around her waist. His naked body pressed along her back, making her insides melt. “Just a term, Tess. The person in charge is the dominant, the one following the commands is the submissive.”

She turned in his arms, the water rippling around her. “So you’re a dominant?”

Something flickered in his blue eyes. Worry? Concern? “I am. So is Colby. Does that bother you?”

She rubbed her lips together, tasting chlorine and margarita salt, and considered the question. “No, I don’t think so. I’m just not a hundred percent sure what that means for me.”

He pushed her hair away from her face with wet fingers. “All it means for you right now is that we’re going to take the lead. There’s no pressure for you to decide what to do next. Just enjoy. And if something isn’t working for you, you let us know.”

She swallowed hard. Part of her thought she should take issue with this submissive role. Wasn’t that what Doug had always tried to make her be—the polite, obedient wife who was there as an accessory to the man of the house? But she had a feeling that’s not what submissive meant for Kade. Plus, she’d asked him from the beginning to take charge in bed, so she couldn’t exactly blame him for continuing to do that. God knows, she didn’t want the responsibility of making the moves tonight.

She took a deep breath and nodded. “Okay.”

“Close your eyes, baby,” he said, sliding a hand into her hair. “Let yourself go and savor this.”

She let her lids fall shut and his lips touched hers—warm and unhurried, a kiss that bloomed slowly and sent a sensual elixir through her blood. Her hands curled around his hips as his tongue stroked hers, and her muscles softened one by one, her nerves melting into the warm water surrounding them.

But when calloused palms closed over her breasts from behind and a hot mouth sucked water droplets from her shoulder, she gasped into Kade’s kiss. Kade didn’t release her though. He kept his fingers wrapped in her hair, holding her in place, as Colby cupped her breasts and drew her nipples between his fingers. The sensation shot straight downward and she involuntarily rocked her hips against Kade. His erection brushed against the wet lace of her panties, making her clench with need, but he seemed in no rush to stop the slow and tortuous approach.

He pulled back from the kiss for a moment, looking down at her with hunger in his gaze. “Take off her bra, Colby. I don’t want anything in the way.”

Colby made a pleased grunt under his breath and unhooked her bra. She moved her arms out of it and the scrap of lace and wire floated away. Then Kade dipped his head beneath the water. Rough fingers tugged at her panties, pulling them down and off. Before surfacing, he moved his mouth between her legs and blew, sending bubbles tickling her in a maddening tease. She moaned and leaned back, landing against the wall of muscle that was Colby’s chest.

Colby hooked his arms around her, tilting her back, and Kade’s bumped against the underside of her thighs. He’d spread her legs and draped them over his shoulders. Her body began to lift. When Kade broke the surface of the water again, he looked like some sort of ancient water god rising from the depths—blond hair slick and dripping and eyes filled with blue flame as he stared down at her open thighs. She was almost completely reclined now and her hips were above the water, her sex exposed to the chilled night air.

But her skin didn’t cool for long because Kade’s palms cupped her ass and lifted her to his mouth. She let out a shameless groan at the contact. His tongue was unbelievably hot against her *, the sharp contrast in temperature almost enough to send her over into orgasm. “Oh, God.”

“That’s it, darlin’,” Colby said, all darkness and country swagger. “Watch him f*ck you with his tongue. Slow and deep. I bet you taste so good. I can’t wait to find out for myself.” Colby dragged his tongue along the shell of her ear to punctuate his dirty words, and she thought she might spontaneously combust from the combination of the two men’s mouths on her.

She looked down her body, and Kade’s eyes met hers, an intense and unblinking connection as he traced his tongue along her folds and dipped it inside her. She lost herself for a moment in the eye contact. He didn’t have to say a word. She could hear it all. Don’t look away. Watch me undo you, Tess. Watch me shatter everything you thought you knew about me and about yourself. Nothing will ever feel as good as I can make you feel.

The thoughts terrified her, but she couldn’t grab onto the fear when he was making her body throb and heat with every stroke of his tongue. Colby pinched her nipples again, and she had to close her eyes to try to stave off the climax rumbling to the surface. She wanted this to last, wanted to savor every second of it.

“Don’t fight it,” Colby said against her ear. “I can see it happening. Your p-ssy’s getting so wet and pink beneath his mouth and your nipples are swelling between my fingers. You look so f*cking sexy. Our cocks are both hard from watching you. Let yourself go over. Give in to the pleasure. We’ve got a lot more for you tonight.”

At that very moment, Kade sucked her * between his lips and ran his tongue around it. Light burst behind her eyes, and she cried out as the sensations took her over. The cool water. The hot tongue. The strong arms around her. It all coalesced and threaded in with her orgasm, turning the dial to eleven instantly. So. Much. Her arms splashed restlessly in the water, seeking something to hold on to, but there was nothing. Only the force of her orgasm and water droplets landing on her heated skin like icy rain. Every inch of her turned hyperaware and electric, the slightest touch amplified.

Kade didn’t release her, his tongue and mouth f*cking her like he wanted to drink her up and never stop. She couldn’t push back, or pull away. Colby held her in place and kissed her neck with hot, openmouthed kisses. She tipped her head back, overwhelmed with it all. In her blurred peripheral vision, she could see Jace standing near the edge of the pool, his jeans open. Both Evan and Andre were at his feet, licking his cock. It was too much. Another wave of orgasm hit her like a bolt. She moaned long and loud and squeezed her eyes shut.

Finally, when her eyes had nearly rolled into the back of her head and she truly couldn’t take any more, Kade pulled back and lowered her into the water. The change in temperature was a shock and she gasped, ready to hop back out, but her muscles were useless. She couldn’t get her footing. Colby held onto her until Kade took her from his arms. Kade lifted her and cradled her against his chest. She closed her eyes and let her head rest against his shoulder, her body quivering with aftershocks and the growing need for something more than Kade’s tongue.

In the background, she could hear another groan as Jace apparently was pushed past his own limit. God, she’d just come in front of a group of strangers and watched them do the same. What planet had she landed on?

“We’re not done with you, but I think it’s time to get you inside, baby,” Kade said gently.

Colby moved into action and climbed out of the pool to grab three big towels. Kade carried her out of the pool and wrapped her in the thick terry cloth before knotting a towel around his waist. Soon, the three of them were heading inside and into a large, toasty bedroom. Kade set her down on the bed and stepped back. She let her gaze move over them, no longer worried about being too bold. Her body revved anew at the sight of the two gorgeous men standing there wet and mostly naked, waiting for her. Whatever planet this was, she wanted to stay.


“Warm enough?” Kade asked.

“Yes,” she said, her voice small in the large room.

“Good.” He leveled a gaze at her, and she saw the dominance flare in that look. “On your knees. Warm us up, too.”

She blinked when they both pulled off their towels. The cold had softened their erections some, but the sight of them flaccid gave her this weird, forbidden thrill. Like she was seeing a more personal version of these two men. Plus, she had a feeling it was going to be fun bringing them back to life.

She slid off the bed and knelt in front of the both of them. Colby took himself in his hand and Kade laced his fingers in her hair, guiding her toward Colby. Her gaze skated upward to Kade for a split second and as if sensing what she was seeking, he nodded, giving her assurance that this was okay with him. She parted her lips and took Colby inside her mouth. This was only the third man she’d done this to in her life, and she was fascinated with the differences between each man. The same parts but all so very unique. Colby was thick even when not fully hard and tasted of musk and man, but as soon as she ran her tongue along his length for a few strokes, he swelled large against her palate. He let out a shuddering sigh. “That’s right, darlin’. F*ck, your mouth is hot.”

Kade kept his hands in her hair, moving her along Colby’s growing erection, and she let her focus move to him. Kade was gazing down at her with an intensity that she felt down to her core. “You like doing this for me?” he asked, his voice as still and calm as she’d ever heard it. “Like being a little slut for me and sucking my friend’s cock while I watch?”

She stiffened at the ugly word, but when he tightened his grip against her scalp and grabbed his erection to give himself a stroke, she realized he wasn’t insulting her at all. He liked her like this. He wanted her dirty. Just like in her silly prince and captive fantasy, he was using her like a pleasure slave. The thought shouldn’t have made her unbearably wet, but her body was forging its own path without her permission.

As if unable to wait any longer, Kade tugged her off of Colby and guided his cock into her mouth. She closed her eyes and made an involuntary mmm sound at the taste of him on her tongue. He tasted like salt and pool water and Kade. She swirled her tongue around him and reached out to stroke Colby at the same time, relishing the feel of Kade getting hard in her mouth while Colby heated in her palm.

Kade groaned and pulled back. “On the bed, gorgeous. I’m not feeling very patient all of a sudden.”

She got to her feet and moved back to the bed, her body aching like she hadn’t just had an orgasm a few minutes ago.

“You’ve got something to cuff her to the headboard?” Kade asked.

Tessa’s stomach dipped.

Colby smirked. “Are you honestly asking me that?”

“You’re right,” Kade said, with a grin. “Get cuffs and condoms.”

Tessa’s nerves ping-ponged through her body as Colby wrapped leather cuffs around her wrists and secured her arms above her head. She was stretched out on the bed now, completely at their mercy. No escape. Theirs. She could’ve told them to stop, could’ve used her safe word. But she quickly realized it wasn’t fear she was feeling, it was the pure adrenaline rush of anticipation.

The two men went to opposite sides of the bed and peered down at her like she was a feast spread out for their consumption. Kade brushed the back of his hand along her jaw. “Still with us, gorgeous?”

Her chest squeezed at the tender touch and the honest question in his eyes. If she told him to stop everything now, she knew without a doubt that he would, and that he wouldn’t be annoyed or angry about it. He wouldn’t try to convince her otherwise. That unlike most of the people she’d met in her life, his word meant something. That knowledge tugged at a place inside her where she didn’t want to prod, and unplanned words tumbled out of her mouth. “I’m with you, Kade. Whatever’s next, I trust you.”

Surprise broke over his face, matching the shock she felt at her declaration. Trust? She was giving out trust? But the look Kade gave her when he realized what she’d said damn near split her open. She turned away, unable to take it. It was too close to the looks he’d given her long ago, too close to stirring real feelings in her. That’s not what this was about. He was about to let his best friend f*ck her. This was not some teenage romance. This was a kinky adventure with a guy who’d probably done all this before with countless women. This was sex and fun and experimenting.

This was not real.

And she couldn’t let it be.