They don't know my story. Not at all.
I'm not the bad guy here. Or bad girl, rather. The real bad guys - the actual cons - are the bankers, the dirty hedge fund managers, the fat cat CEOs who play with their employees like they're chess pieces. Don't even get me started on the politicians, the leaders of countries, the ones who make decisions that affect good people based on whose lobby has the most money and the greatest influence.
They make what I do look like child's play.
Me? I'm one of the good girls.
I'm like Robin Hood. I take from the assholes, the people who deserve to be cheated - and I redistribute to the people who deserve it, the ones who have been victimized.
I believe in karma - retribution for past misdeeds.
But, sometimes, karma needs an extra nudge in the right direction.
I give it that nudge.
And nudging karma is exactly why I'm standing here now.
***
SILAS
Sometimes time itself slows down, comes to a standstill, like someone pushed a giant pause button on the entire universe. It usually happens at the important times: births, deaths, things like that.
And times like now.
I sat in the back room, on a half-rusted metal chair, staring at the concrete floor splotched with who knows how many years' worth of grime, the surface wearing away in irregularly shaped patches. Everything faded into the background - the men in the room talking around me, the noise from the gathering crowd outside, the ones who were bloodthirsty, waiting for a fight.
I'd always been good at blocking shit out, detaching myself from everything around me and just zoning.
It's how I survived my childhood.
That, and I fought. Even when I was a kid. It's in your nature, my mother used to say. You kicked your way out of the womb.
This fight, though...this was different. This was fucking personal.
"Yo, Saint." The voice shook me out of my thoughts. "Saint. Are you listening?"
Trigg squatted down in front of me, his expression dark. He was one of the fighters I'd known when I was on the circuit here in Vegas, before I'd gone back to West Bend. "Where's your fucking head?" he asked.
Trigg thought I was distracted by what had happened with Abel. But that’s not what was on my mind.
I wasn't supposed to fight tonight. Abel was. He'd called me when I was out in Hollywood with Elias and River, and asked a favor. It was an easy favor; it should have been no big deal. He wanted me to come down and be in his corner at his fight. I had been outside the circuit for the past few months and he trusted me. After the stuff that had gone down with me and Coker, the shit that sent me back to West Bend a few months back, he knew I'd be there in a heartbeat.
I was supposed to be in Abel’s position tonight, in his corner, supporting him. Instead, Abel was in the hospital, after being mowed down in a hit and run.
The bullshit part of it was that I knew who had done it. Hell, we all knew who was responsible. We might not know who the driver himself was, but we damn well knew who had hired him. It was Roy Coker, my ex-promoter. Everyone knew what kind of guy he was, the lengths he would go to in order to make sure his fighters won.
Or lost, depending on what bets were being run and what the odds were.
Coker had tried to get me to take a dive before, so I knew firsthand what would happen when you were in his way, when you didn’t do what you were told.
In my case, the outcome hadn’t been great.
Of course, I’d never been good at doing what I was told, either.
"Yeah, man," I said. "My head is right where it needs to be."
Trigg squatted down low and made eye contact with me, his gaze intense. "You’ve got this," he said. "Rush is a fucking beast. But you're better."
I was better, I almost said. Then I put that thought out of my head. I hadn't fought, not in a real fight anyway, since Coker sabotaged me months ago.
When I'd gotten beaten so badly I nearly died.
I wasn't in good shape when I went back to West Bend, even though by then I was out of the hospital and relatively healed, at least on the outside. My mother had assumed I was drinking, but it was just the fact that I was still recovering from the beating I'd taken. I'd told Elias I'd come back to West Bend because I'd torn my ACL - he didn't need to be involved in the clusterfuck that was my life. Especially not when there was so much stuff going on in West Bend already. I was going to take care of everything myself.
But after I'd recovered, I'd gone back to training.
The problem was that I knew enough to know that all the training in the world didn't matter if you weren't fighting. And the last fight I'd been in had been a bloodbath - mine.
So I'd had the nagging fear that I'd lost my mojo.
Then there was the small matter of the fact that the doctor had told me specifically, no more fighting. He’d warned me that another good blow to the head could kill me.
I nodded at Trigg. “Yeah,” I said. “I’m better than Rush.”
But the words rang hollow, especially to me.
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CHAPTER TWO