Just Listen

"I mean, most people don't even…"

 

I stepped around the door, and sure enough, it was Owen. Standing there on the mat in front of my door, earphones dangling around his neck, counting out dollar bills into my sister's hand She was nodding as he spoke and looking at him with a much warmer expression than she'd given me in, oh, a year. When he saw me, he smiled.

 

"See," he said to Whitney, "case in point. Annabel is not an Ebb Tide fan. She hates techno, in fact."

 

Whitney looked at me, then back at Owen again, clearly confused. "She does?"

 

"Yup. Despite my best efforts to convince her otherwise," he said. "She's very stubborn, once she's made up her mind. Totally honest, totally opinionated. But I guess you already know that."

 

Whitney just looked at me as he said this, and I knew what she was thinking: that this was not me at all, not by a long shot. It didn't sound exactly right to me either, but for some reason, her incredulousness bothered me.

 

"Anyway," he said now, bending down to the plastic carrier at his feet and unzipping it to pull out a pizza box. "Here you go. Enjoy it."

 

Whitney nodded, still looking at me, and took it from him. "Thanks," she said. "Have a good night."

 

"You, too," Owen replied as Whitney turned, walking into the dining room toward the kitchen.

 

I stepped into the center of the open doorway, watching Owen as he shoved the wad of money in his hand into his pocket, then picked up the carrier. He had on jeans and a red T-shirt that saidslice o'cheese! Of all the numbers for pizza places my mom left me, I'd called this one. Who knew? But I had to admit, I was happy to see him.

 

"Your sister," he said to me now, "is an Ebb Tide fan. She has imports ."

 

"And that's good?"

 

" Very good," he replied. "It's almost enlightened. Imports take effort."

 

"Do you talk about music with every single person you meet?"

 

"No," he said. I just looked at him. Behind me, I heard Whitney cut on the TV.

 

"Well, not always. In this case, I had on my earphones, and she asked me what I was listening to."

 

"And it just so happened to be a band she knows and loves."

 

"That's the universality of music," he said cheerfully, switching the carrier to his other arm. "It's a bonding thing. It brings people together. Friend and foe. Old and young. Me and your sister. And—"

 

"Me and your sister," I finished for him. "And your mom."

 

"My mom?" he asked.

 

"I met her today, at the mall. At the Jenny Reef thing."

 

His face fell. "You went to see Jenny Reef ?"

 

"I love Jenny Reef," I said, and he winced. "She's much better than Ebb Tide."

 

"That," he said, his voice serious, "is not even funny."

 

"What's wrong with Jenny Reef?" I said.

 

"Everything is wrong with Jenny Reef!" he shot back. Here we go , I thought. "Did you even see the poster she signed for Mallory? With the product plug in her autograph? I mean, it's so abhorrent rhat anyone could consider themselves an artist and then sell out so completely to the corporate machine, in the name of—"

 

"Okay, okay, calm down," I said, figuring I should fess up before he popped a vein. "I didn't go to see Jenny Reef. I had a meeting for the Models at Kopf's."

 

He sighed, shaking his head. "Thank God. You had me worried there for a second."

 

"What happened to there being no right and wrong in music?" I asked him. "Or does that not apply to teenage pop stars?"

 

"It applies," he said flatly. "You're entitled to an opinion about Jenny Reef. It would just dismay me if you were really a fan."

 

"But have you really given her a chance? Remember," I said, holding up my hand, "don't think or judge.

 

Just listen."

 

He made a face at me. "I have listened to Jenny Reef. Not necessarily by choice, but I have. And my opinion is that she's a publicity whore who has allowed her music, if that's even what you want to call it, to be hijacked and compromised in the name of materialism and big business."

 

"Well," I said. "As long you don't feel too strongly about it."

 

Suddenly I heard a low buzz, and he reached around to his back pocket, pulling out a cell phone, glancing at the screen. "Pie up, gotta go," he said, stuffing the carrier under his arm. "You know, as much as you might want me to, I can't just stand here and argue with you about music all night."

 

"No?" I said.

 

"No." He stepped back from the door. "However, if you want to continue this discussion some other time, I'd be more than happy to do so."

 

"Like Tuesday?"

 

"Sounds good." He started down the steps. "I'll see you then, okay?"

 

I nodded. "Bye, Owen."

 

"And don't forget the show tomorrow!" he called out over his shoulder as he headed for his truck.

 

"We're doing all techno. A full hour of dripping faucets."

 

"Are you joking?"

 

"Maybe. You'll have to listen to find out, though."

 

I smiled, then stood there, watching him as he climbed inside the Land Cruiser. He turned the stereo on first, then put the car in gear. Of course.

 

When I got to the living room, Whitney was settled on the couch, drinking a bottled water. The pizza was on the counter. She didn't say anything, her eyes on the TV—which was showing something about a sitcom actress who'd had a cocaine problem—as I helped myself to a plate and a slice and sat down at the table in the kitchen.

 

"Are you…" I began, then stopped myself. "Aren't you hungry?"

 

She kept her eyes on the TV as she said, "I'll eat in a minute."

 

Fine, I thought. My mother wouldn't be happy, but then again she wasn't here. And I was starving. As I began to take a bite, though, Whitney muted the TV and said, "So how do you know that guy?"

 

"He goes to my school," I said, then swallowed. She was watching me, so I added, "We're friends."

 

"Friends," she repeated.

 

I thought of Mrs. Armstrong's surprised smile as she reacted to this same word, hours earlier. "Yeah," I said. "We sometimes hang out at lunch."