I lift mine back. “Excuse me?”
“Because of all this freaking Jesus stuff, you think you’re not good for him. Or anyone else at this school. Ignore all that. Hell, even if Jonah doesn’t turn out to be the guy for you, someone else here might be. But you’ll never know if you think that, somehow, you’re not good enough for them. Screw that shit, Kennedy. You’re the smartest girl I know. Tough, fair, fierce, loving, funny. Even though you like to keep massive secrets sometimes…” Mollie turns her face away slightly, but arches her eyebrow and grins, showing me she’s teasing.
I hug her tightly. “I miss you. I’m going to try to come visit you, but I need to figure out the rules there.”
“I think your winter break starts a week before mine,” she replies almost sinisterly.
I squeeze her harder. “I’m so there.
My parents return and I take my mom up to the counter, introducing her to Chelsea before she orders her drink.
“She’s fun,” Mom remarks as Chelsea dances through the drink-making process.
“She is,” I agree, but my tone is short.
“What’s wrong?” she asks.
“Are we going to talk about Roland at all?” I blurt out. Mollie was right, after all. I keep my expectations and vulnerabilities hidden so I don’t have to be embarrassed by the ones that fail. No, I don’t want Roland to hurt me, but I realize that if he does, I’m going to need to have my mom to go to—and she needs some context.
Mom takes a leisurely blink before drumming up a smile. “We can talk about whatever you want, honey. You know that.”
For some reason, I look over my shoulder. And in that moment, I’m struck breathless and speechless as Roland walks unsuspectingly into the coffee shop. Of course he would. It’s Saturday and he always goes over his sermon notes here. It doesn’t matter that I’m not working tonight, thanks to a gracious night off courtesy of Asher so I can have dinner with my parents. And Mollie.
“Um,” I clear my throat, “don’t turn around, k? But he just walked in.”
Mom freezes, then lifts her chin. “What do you want to do?” she asks.
Turning around again, Roland finally spots me. His eyes dart to Mom’s back and he stops in his tracks. These two have had very little communication over the last eighteen years and even when they did talk in my presence, it was all logistics. I know they’ve shared some form of communication since I arrived on campus, but I haven’t asked either one what that entailed.
Roland’s eyes find their way to mine and he tilts his head slightly and motions to the door, seeming to ask if he should go.
I look back to Mom and whisper, “Not tonight.”
She exhales audibly and returns to her seat without so much as looking in Roland’s direction.
When she’s back in the corner, Roland comes up to the counter.
“Sorry,” I offer. “I wasn’t planning…that.”
“It’s okay. How are they?” he asks as if they’re not twenty feet away. His eyes are trained forward, not even looking at me.
“Good. That’s my best friend with them. Mollie.”
He nods. A small smile pulls at his lips as his eyes finally meet mine. “Ah. I see. I’d like to meet her someday.”
Turning to him, I put my hand on his arm and start speaking quickly. “Someday. I promise. But…not tonight, okay? Is that okay?”
Roland puts his hand over mine. “It’s perfectly fine, Kennedy. When you’re ready.”
My chin quivers, so I lift it. “Thank you,” I whisper before walking away.
“You’re welcome,” he calls back without turning around.
I’m able to enjoy the rest of my evening with my parents and Mollie. We go to a five-star restaurant and Dan makes a gracious showing of ordering for the whole table. He doesn’t ask about Roland, and Mom doesn’t mention it again. For once, I’m grateful for their unwillingness to discuss the uncomfortable.
Mollie sends me a text during the meal.
Mollie: He’s hotter in person ;)
Me: I hate you.
Mollie: I love you. :)
Looking up from my phone, I smile at her and mouth, I love you, too.
I briefly consider offering up a prayer for some easy answers to this situation, but I have a feeling things will get a lot more complicated before the unraveling can even begin.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Learning to be the Light
Jesus Freaks: Sins of the Father
Andrea Randall's books
- Sacred Sins
- Sins and Scarlet Lace
- Sins of a Ruthless Rogue
- Bed of Roses
- Son Of The Morning
- Cover Of Night
- Affairs of State
- A Profiler's Case for Seduction
- Because of Rebecca
- Conflict of Interest
- Eclipse of the Heart
- Flames of Attraction
- Illusions of Love
- Keeper of the Moon
- Keeper of the Shadows
- Legacy of Love
- Love Proof (Laws of Attraction)
- Miles of Pleasure
- Of One Heart
- Off Limits
- Off Sides
- Out of the Dark (The Brethren Series)
- Out of the Depths
- Pool of Crimson
- Prince of Wolves
- Rules of Entanglement
- Shadow of My Heart
- Something of a Kind
- Son of a Preacher Man
- Taste of Desire
- Taste of Love
- Translation of Love
- Web of Deception
- Words of Love
- The Lady of Bolton Hill
- The Scars of Us(Scars Series)
- Dreams of Lilacs
- House of Ivy & Sorrow
- A Question of Honor
- The Owner of His Heart
- The Heir of the Castle
- Tower of Glass
- The Last Prince of Dahaar
- Terms of Engagement
- Secrets of a Bollywood Marriage
- David Lord of Honor
- Return of the Prodigal Gilvry
- Killing Me Softly(A Broken Souls Series)
- Starting Over(Hart of Seattle)
- The Resurrection of Aubrey Mill
- OFF SIDES
- Confessions of a Royal Bridegroom
- Stolen: Warriors of Hir, Book 3
- The CEO Buys in (Wager of Hearts #1)
- The Law of Moses
- A Pound of Flesh (A Pound of Flesh #1)
- Arouse: A Spiral of Bliss Novel (Book One)
- Awaken: A Spiral of Bliss Novel (Book Three)
- The Art of French Kissing
- Leo (A Sign of Love Novel)
- Echoes of Scotland Street
- Stinger (A Sign of Love Novel)
- Ten Days of Perfect (November Blue #1)
- The Song of David
- The House of the Stone
- Ashes of Honor: An October Daye Novel
- The Weight of Feathers
- Blood Brothers
- Face the Fire
- Holding the Dream
- The Hollow
- The way Home
- A Father's Name
- All the Right Moves
- After the Fall
- And Then She Fell
- A Mother's Homecoming
- All They Need
- Behind the Courtesan
- Breathe for Me
- Breaking the Rules
- Bluffing the Devil
- Chasing the Sunset
- Feel the Heat (Hot In the Kitchen)
- For the Girls' Sake
- Guarding the Princess
- Happy Mother's Day!
- Meant-To-Be Mother
- In the Market for Love
- In the Rancher's Arms
- Leather and Lace
- Northern Rebel Daring in the Dark
- Seduced The Unexpected Virgin
- Southern Beauty
- St Matthew's Passion
- Straddling the Line
- Taming the Lone Wolff
- Taming the Tycoon
- Tempting the Best Man