Hold On

Dave kept going.

“And I was right. She didn’t have it in her. She wanted smooth, like her daddy gave to her, which meant you had to bust your ass givin’ that to her. You didn’t have that in you and that is not a weakness. That’s a real man. Like no woman should do that for her man, no man should hafta do that for his woman. And no woman should expect that from a man. A marriage is a partnership. Both of you gotta hold on to weather any storm, boy. I was not surprised Mia didn’t go the distance. It hurt seein’ you hurt. But when you lost her, I wasn’t surprised.”

He stopped speaking and Garrett didn’t start. He had nothing to say and he didn’t understand why his father was sharing this now when it should have been shared years ago.

Regardless of that, it was beside the point.

Mia was gone. Everyone now got why, and annoyingly, it seemed a bunch of them, including his father, got why a long time ago.

Discussing her did not have dick to do with holding on to Cher.

“Cher Rivers,” Dave continued, hopefully getting to the point, “that’s a different story. You know it. If you didn’t, you wouldn’t give a shit about your issues. You’d be just as blind, makin’ the same mistakes you’ve been makin’ for years and not givin’ a shit. If you didn’t know she’s a different story, you wouldn’t be here, askin’ an old man who has no idea how to deal how to deal. And the reason I don’t have any idea how to deal, Garrett, is because I learned real good how to weather a storm. And how I learned that is that I could face anything, your mother at my side. When I lost her, I lost that ability. I didn’t get it back. Any time I tried, it reminded me how much I missed her. So I quit tryin’. I don’t know how to tell you how to keep your head together or how to quit havin’ those dreams. All I know is that I’d have those answers if your mother was sittin’ at this table with me.”

Through his dad’s words, Garrett felt his throat close.

He also watched his father’s eyes get bright and felt wet hit his own.

He didn’t move.

He also still didn’t speak.

Dave Merrick cleared his throat, sniffed, and kept talking.

“Last thing I gotta say to you is to repeat, Cher Rivers is a different story. You’re worried about these issues you got. You’re worried you can’t get past them. What you don’t see is that you got your hands on a woman who knows how to weather a storm. So what you got is a woman who knows about your issues. This means you don’t have to do shit, Garrett, except count your lucky stars you’re able to hold tight to your woman so you can weather…the goddamned…storm.”

He knew Dave was done.

Then again, he actually was done because, fucking finally, he’d given Garrett just what he needed.

And it was just plain done because he needed his father to point out that Cher had already given him what he needed. And she did this days before, not putting up with the shit he’d pulled at dinner at her mother’s house.

But Garrett still couldn’t speak because his throat was still closed and he was having trouble with his breathing.

This meant he cleared his throat and sniffed, just like his dad.

“Now, your sister’s pregnant again, which fills me with joy,” Dave declared. “But she’s forty, so I’ll be havin’ words with Tanner about another go with that because, more time passes, it’s gonna start bein’ dangerous for her. And anyway, this kid makes four for Tanner and four is enough for any man, for God’s sake.”

Garrett smiled.

“But I’m not done with grandchildren,” Dave kept on. “Lived empty except for you two kids after we lost Cecelia. Time you two did what you can do to fill me up. Cher’s young, got a lotta baby makin’ in her. But you best get on that because you’re no spring chicken and I ain’t either.”

Garrett stopped smiling even though what Dave said was funny.