She was right.
I looked back to the water filling the sink and turned it off. I was shifting to go to the table to grab plates, but I stopped when Mom’s hand caught my forearm.
I gave her my eyes.
“Whole town’s watchin’, you know that,” she said quietly. “Whole town’s waitin’ to see what comes of you and Garrett Merrick. Figure most of ’em are rootin’ for you two. Same’s I figure most of ’em think you’re gonna go down in flames, that bein’ you who ignites that blaze or, due to history in this scenario, more likely it bein’ him.”
Her hand left me, but she didn’t quit talking.
“I know my girl. I know you want everyone to think you don’t care what they think. But I also know you care about that man in there.”
She jerked her head toward the wall on the other side of which was her living room.
She then kept going.
“It is no secret Tanner Layne had his hands full beatin’ back the demons that plagued the woman he loved, demons that drove her away from the only man for her and she knew he was just that. She still let those demons win, sugar. Story told so often in this town, I know. Everyone knows. And what we know is Tanner made one mistake in all that. In the beginning, he gave up. But Raquel put up a hell of a fight to make him quit and they were young so neither of ’em knew better. You and Garrett are not at that place.”
I opened my mouth to tell her she wasn’t wrong, and more (something I had to chew on), Mia’s fatal mistake was giving up too.
But Mom wasn’t done speaking.
“Like I said, I know my girl. So I know my girl’s a fighter. Now, don’t you make the mistake of doin’ somethin’ you’re tellin’ yourself is right, givin’ him space and time to sort his own self out, when you know it’s wrong. Garrett Merrick didn’t sit at my table tonight, honey. And you need not to waste any time findin’ out what took him away from that table, which meant he took himself away from you.”
“There’s a lot goin’ on that you don’t know, Mom,” I shared.
I shared it and it was lame.
“I know this,” she returned instantly. “I know he knows he sat at my table as the man who brought my two babies in his truck to my home to eat my food with the possibility he’d be at that table a lot in future. He knows me, but he knows what tonight meant. So he would know not to mess that up, no matter what’s goin’ on.”
“He was just quiet,” I told her.
“He wasn’t quiet, Cheryl. Half the time he wasn’t even here.”
She was right and she was also telling me not to fuck this up.
I was just so good at fucking things up, I didn’t know another way to be.
And the biggest part about that was, Merry’s retreat scared the shit out of me.
Mia Merrick didn’t have it in her to fight for her man and I had no problem pointing that out.
Faced with just a taste of what she’d had shoved down her throat, the acid of it burned.
And if I let my head go there, the scary it was would be terrifying.
“Talk to him,” Mom urged on a whisper. “I’ll tell you this, baby girl, that happened tonight at my table and you have to deal. Because that man’s got a woman in his life now, a woman with a son. And he’s lookin’ for a house. And that says other things. I’m not tellin’ you to get things straight with him because I want my girl’s hooks in a good man. I’m tellin’ you to get things straight for him because I know what he’s got with you. I know what my grandbaby will give him. I know that man is far from stupid. I know he deserves good in his life. And I know he’ll kick his own behind and not bounce back from that, he lets you slip through his fingers.”
I loved my mom. I’d fucked her over like I’d fucked a lot of shit in my life.
But I loved her because I did all that and she still said what she just said, which meant she loved the hell out of me.
I looked into her eyes. Then I nodded.
Hold On
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