Born to Ride_A Clubhouse Collection

chapter 14

Madison

A couple of hours later, I woke to the sound of J speaking in a hushed tone on his phone. He was sitting on the edge of the bed with his back to me, running a hand through his hair. I admired his back and the way his muscles rippled as his arm moved. And the Storm tattoo that I had grown up with and knew so well from my father; it held so much meaning to me. I sighed. I was home; J was home, and Storm was home.

J finished his call and stood up. He gave me a quick glance as he walked towards his bathroom; but no smile, just a serious, focused look.

Shit.

My insecurities flared up. Was he having second thoughts about us? Even after the “your p-ssy is mine” speech?

I got up and quickly dressed. I felt the need to be dressed if he was going to reject me now.

He came out of the bathroom and abruptly stopped when he took in my state of dress. “What the f*ck, Madison? I thought we had this sorted. Why are you leaving?”

“I thought -” I stuttered and he shook his head, looking really annoyed now.

“Stop f*cking analysing shit.” He came to me and cupped my cheek, grazing my lips with his thumb. “I told you where I stand. What I want. Take that in, babe, and know it. Feel it. But you’ve gotta f*cking stop over thinking everything ‘cause there’s gonna be times where I might not make sense and things might get messy. I need you to have faith in me, in us. Yeah?”

Shit. I was a neurotic bitch. Note to self, calm that shit down. “Yeah. But it might take me some time to get there so I need you to work with that. Okay?”

He nodded, “Done,” he replied, and then smacked me on the ass, “Now, we’ve got to get to the clubhouse. Marcus is pissed at me, something about wanting to make sure you’re okay, and then we’ve got some club business to deal with.”

I was about to come back with a smartass reply regarding my father, but then I remembered the conversation with my mum today. I had opened my heart to J; perhaps it was time to give my father another chance.

Fifteen minutes later we walked into the clubhouse and J left me at the bar to go in search of Marcus. The bar was full of club members who appeared to be celebrating something, most likely Nix’s death. Yeah, that was something to f*cking celebrate. I smiled at them to let them know I was okay and went to find my Mum.

She was in the kitchen making food, for what I was now guessing was a full blown party, judging by the amount of food she had in there. “Hey, honey,” she stopped what she was doing and searched my face, “You okay?” she asked.

“Yeah, and you?”

She waved her hand at me in a dismissive motion, “You know me, nothing fazes me.” Yep, that was true. My mother was unflappable; a tough bitch who could get through any situation.

“Do you need help with all this food?” I asked, changing the conversation. I hated discussing my feelings; better just to get on and deal with it yourself rather than whining to anyone who would listen.

“Thanks, honey,” she answered and for the next hour we worked together, getting all the boys and their families fed. News of Nix’s demise had spread fast, and loved ones had shown up to celebrate the end of the club’s battle with him. From what people told me it had been a long, hard two years here since I had left. The club had put a lot of work into bringing him down and everyone was glad to see the end of this episode.

Just as Mum and I were finishing up in the kitchen, J wandered in. He hooked an arm around my waist and pulled me to him. “Your dad wants to see you, baby,” he said and the tenderness in his voice made my stomach flutter. J didn’t often do tender so it meant something to me; perhaps it indicated a change in the way he was approaching our new relationship.

I smiled up at him. “Where is he?” I asked, and he told me where to find him. “I won’t be long,” I promised, and gave him a quick kiss as I left the kitchen.

I found my father outside talking to some of the boys. He glanced up when he saw me coming, his jaw set, no smile in place, but I saw the relief that flickered across his face in that moment and noted his shoulders settle out of their tense hold.

“Madison,” he addressed me, and waved the boys away so we could have some privacy.

He exuded an agitated vibe and I didn’t want a confrontation tonight so I silently waited for him to continue, not wanting to say something that might set him off. When dealing with Marcus Cole it was best to let him do most of the talking.

“You’re okay,” he nodded, and it was more of a statement than a question, like he was reassuring himself.

“Yes, Dad, I’m okay,” I confirmed.

Another moment passed between us, with him deliberating over something and then he let out a huge breath, curved his palm around my neck and pulled me to him in a hug. “Thank f*ck,” he uttered, softly.

Shit, first J going all sensitive on me and now, Dad too. And then, out of nowhere, everything slammed into me at once. Relief, gratitude, joy, anger; I felt it all and then some. It unfurled within me, and I was overwhelmed to the point of tears. I started crying and Dad’s hand lightly brushed over my hair, soothing me, and this made me sob even harder.

We stayed like that for what felt like a long time; him calming me with soft reassurances and me clinging to him in a way I never had. I had needed him to be this father many times in my life and he had never come through for me, but this time I felt a shift and it affected me; I let my guard down a little and that was liberating.

Eventually, my tears dried up and I let go. “Thank you,” I said, quietly, looking up into his eyes to see a mixture of concern and love.

He nodded, and brushed his thumbs across my cheeks, wiping away my tears. “Madison, I know you and I haven’t always seen eye to eye, and I f*ckin’ know I can be an a*shole sometimes, but I’m workin’ on it. I’m sorry that you and your mother were put in that situation today; that you had to witness what you did. And I’m f*ckin’ worried about you, worried that this will send you back to that hell you were in after that motherf*cker beat the shit out of you.”

Well, f*ck me. Marcus Cole was going all emotional on me. It was time to put his mind at ease. “You don’t need to worry about me, Dad. Yeah, that was a f*cked up situation, and seeing Nix killed was not on my bucket list, but you know what? I’m happy it’s done because it means you guys can get back to concentrating on club business and we can all breathe easier now. And as far as me losing the plot? It’s not going to happen. I’m stronger now and I have all of you to back me up. This time around, my eyes are wide open and I’m seeing everything in a different light,” I assured him, and then, needing to lighten the mood, I winked at him and said, “I’m not good at asking for help, but I’m working on it, just like you’re working on not being such an a*shole.”

He threw his head back and laughed, and it was so good to see my Dad loosen up a little. “Okay, sweetheart, it’s a deal,” he agreed, “Now, let’s get back inside to the party. We’ve got some celebrating to do.”


The party lasted into the early hours and I was exhausted by two am. It had been a great night though, catching up with everyone after being away for the past couple of years and watching the boys shed the tension that they had obviously been feeling. Even Scott let loose a little and I watched with interest as he flirted with a woman I didn’t know. This was out of character for him; to my knowledge, Scott didn’t usually put the hard yards in with the ladies, he just scored whenever he felt the need.

As I watched him, he caught my eye and smiled. It was a dazzling smile, one that Scott didn’t often bring out. He was far too serious, and shouldered too much responsibility as far as I was concerned. I smiled back and then went looking for J.

“There you are,” he said, as I walked into the pool room. The club had three pool tables and J could often be found in here; he loved playing pool and was pretty good at it.

I was taken aback by the woman who was next to J, leaning over the table getting ready to take her shot, tits falling everywhere and ass barely covered by her animal print mini skirt. J had obviously been about to help her take her shot and their closeness sent a rush of jealousy through me. My fists clenched, and my face flushed with a burning heat. It stopped me dead in my tracks and all clear headed thought escaped me. A primal need to stake out my territory took over, damn the consequences.

“What the f*ck?” I snapped at J.

Irritation spread across J’s face and he stepped away from the skank and came towards me. “You’re kidding, right?” he demanded, grabbing me by the arm and pulling me to the side.

I yanked my arm out of his grip. “No, I’m not f*cking kidding!” I yelled at him, but my eyes were focused solely on the chick who was now looking me up and down as if I was the shit on the bottom of her shoes. “Who is she, J?”

His lips pinched together and I could tell he was fighting to remain calm. “She is no one, and you need to settle the f*ck down,” he warned me.

My head jerked back to look at him. “And you need to stop telling me what to do.”

We glared at each other, neither saying a thing, but my mind was racing. How dare he tell me to settle down! I threw my hands in the air and madly declared, “I’m out of here, I need some space.”

I turned and stalked out of the room, giving the skank a filthy glare on my way. F*cking club whores; they were all the same and I couldn’t believe that J would let one drape herself all over him on the day we got back together.

Having no idea where I was going I just kept walking, and eventually found myself in J’s room upstairs. I was mentally and physically exhausted from the day, but I needed a shower so I undressed and submersed myself under the steaming, hot water, letting it wash away the heaviness I was feeling.

Having not been in a relationship for the last two years I had enjoyed the peace of not having to work your way through shit like this. My relationship with J had always been a little volatile; it was the only aspect of it that I wished was different. Something had to give, to change, if we were going to make it work this time. I just didn’t know if either of us was capable of that.

As I was contemplating all this, J’s ragged breathing engulfed the room and I turned to see him standing outside the shower. His wild eyes were on me, raking over my body with an intense passion that shot heat straight to my core and sent whatever thoughts I was having straight out of my mind. All I could think about now was having J; having his cock in me again. He lifted his shirt over his head and discarded it, and then did the same to his shoes and jeans. I watched every movement intently, my hand snaking down to my * to massage it while his body was revealed to me. Once he was naked, he opened the shower door and stepped in next to me, his body filling the small space; us, skin to skin. I continued touching myself and reached my other hand down to take hold of his cock and started stroking it. J was hard and ready, and he emitted a groan with my movement. Slipping his hands around me he ran them over my ass and pulled me closer to him, dipping his head to catch my mouth in a hard, forceful kiss. I kept massaging myself, circling and dipping my finger in my wet folds with one hand, while my other one ran up and down his cock. Our kiss became desperate, our breathing more erratic until J broke away to move his lips down my body, sucking, kissing, licking me on my neck and breasts. His hands were on my ass, my stomach, my tits and finally they were where I wanted them, where I needed them; he took over my p-ssy and began finger f*cking me.

F*ck! It was almost more than I could take. The sensations shooting through my body were electric; J was f*cking electric, and although I was overwhelmed by him, I also couldn’t get enough. I started to climb up his body; the need to have him inside me was taking over. Desperation for his cock, in me, was taking over. He withdrew his fingers from my p-ssy and moved his hands to my ass, helping lift me up and then moved me so that we were leaning up against the shower wall. I wrapped my legs and arms around him, my hands gripping the back of his neck. Needing his mouth on mine I took it, plunging my tongue in. I moaned with pleasure. He felt so f*cking good; I would never get enough of this.

“Baby, I’m gonna f*ck you now but I don’t have a condom,” he grunted in between kisses.

“I’m clean,” I managed to get out, not wanting him to stop; not ever stop.

“Good, me too,” he uttered before thrusting in me hard and fast, to the hilt.

“F*ck!” I cried out, “Don’t f*cking stop, J. F*ck me hard,” I demanded.

J didn’t need further coaxing, he rammed into me repeatedly, our faces mashed side by side, our breathing hard and heavy while we each took what we needed. The rhythmic slapping of our bodies and our grunts were the only noises in the room and it f*cking turned me on even more. J began to move even faster with his thrusts and I felt it build; the divine pleasure intensifying until my p-ssy tightened and clenched and the release hit me, exploding throughout me, and I screamed with satisfaction.

“F*ck, baby,” J grunted, and then he thrust hard one last time, and straightened, and stilled while his release pumped into me. His head fell forward and he stayed like that for a moment, spent.

We eventually pulled apart and he let me down to stand next to him.

J smoothed my hair so it hooked behind my ear and then he kissed me; a slow and lazy kiss and I could feel the smile forming on his lips. “So f*cking good, baby,” he murmured as he ended the kiss.

I laid my palm across his cheek, “I’m sorry that I overreacted,” I apologised.

His face lit up in a wicked grin, “Yeah, me too, but only a little bit because it meant I got to f*ck you like that.”

“You can f*ck me like that anytime you want. In fact, if you don’t, I might just unleash my inner bitch on you so that you do,” I promised.

He grinned at me for a moment longer and then said, “Okay, time to get you clean and then to sleep.”

Fifteen minutes later we were in bed, me on my side and J behind me with his arms and legs wrapped around and over me. He murmured in my ear, “Goodnight, beautiful. I love you.”

Yep, this and J were home. “I love you too, honey,” I replied and drifted off to sleep.