Ryder (A Resisting Love Novella)

Chapter 20



Lexi

After Ryder and I talk about the whole Nikki thing, I'm kind of unsure of where to go from there. He tells me about Saxon and everything they’ve talked about, and how Saxon is finally willing to let me go. After I hear that, I decide to go over to his place, so we could finally talk. I’ve been so angry and bitter at him for so long, I think it’s about time to let it go and move on. I don’t think he and I will ever be close again, but the weight will be off my shoulders. With encouragement from Ryder I get dressed and leave to go see my ex boyfriend.

I knock tentatively on the door, and take a step back when Sax’s older brother Kidd answers it. Kidd's real name is Michael Tate, and I have no idea why everyone calls him Kidd. They just do.

“What are you doing here?” he asks curiously.

“Just wanted to talk to Sax for a minute,” I tell him. Kidd searches my eyes and then nods.

“Come in, AJ, he’s in his room,” he says, opening the door for me.  I take the familiar steps to Sax’s room and open the door, peering in. Sax is lying on his bed, bare-chested, wearing nothing but a pair of jeans. My eyes roam his sculpted abs and the tattoos displayed on his body.

“Sax?” I ask softly. He sits up, looking alert.

“AJ? Is everything okay?” he asks, giving me a quick once over.

“Everything's fine. I just wanted to talk,” I respond.

“Okay, sure. Take a seat,” he says, gesturing to his bed. I sit down and take a deep breath.

“I’m glad you and Ryder talked,” I start.

“I’m sorry I’ve been such a selfish dick, AJ I just didn’t want to let go of you. I’m sorry, for everything,” he says sincerely. This is the Saxon I remember.

“I forgive you, Sax,” I tell him, “but I will never forget. We both need to move on from this. I think this is the first step, so thank you.”

He nods. “I'll always be here for you, though. Okay? Anything you need. Anything. You’re always welcome here.”

I give him a small smile, and walk over and give him a peck on the cheek. I pull back and run my finger over the scar running through his eyebrow.

“I never said sorry for this, did I?” I ask.

Sax chuckles. “I deserved it.”

“Yes, you did. But I’m still sorry. It does give you a more rugged appearance, though,” I tell him.

“Should I warn Ryder that you like to throw things when you’re angry?” he says with a chuckle.

“Hopefully he will never find out,” I say dryly.

“Give Ryder hell, AJ!” he calls out as I leave. Then I do something I never thought I would do again. I walk out of Saxon Tate’s house with a smile on my face.