The Slippage A Novel

TWO




The rain had eased off, but the river of the audience flowed out onto the street, churning up adjectives. “It was brilliant,” one woman said. She was older and wore a dress covered with flowers. Her friend, in a blazer, tried his hand: “Dark.” Then: “Provocative.”

William and Louisa navigated a traffic of hats and umbrellas. “I thought the movie was slow,” she said. William only nodded and said nothing. “I am telling you my opinion so that you can tell me yours,” Louisa said.

“It’s loosely based on Crime and Punishment,” William said.

“That’s not an opinion,” she said. “You know that scene where his father went to the library to research other robberies before he planned his? That’s how I would do it.”

A man behind them was making a point: “Tragedy becomes trivia more quickly than you would care to admit, and then trivia is rebuilt into history.”

“He’s on a date,” Louisa said in a stage whisper. They slowed and the man went by them: he was older than his voice, with teeth that did not quite line up properly and hands that cleared space for his words. His date seemed not to be a date at all, but a woman a generation older, perhaps his mother.

The sun was going down over town on a Saturday. A traffic cop was posting fliers soliciting information about a recent fire at a bus station that was under construction. Louisa stopped under the coppery sky and breathed in deeply like she was taking a cure. “We could just leave,” she said.

“What?”

“You know, just pick up and go.”

“Go home? I thought you said dinner.”

“No, I mean go for real. Forever. A woman in my office did. She and her husband sold their house and bought one they’d only seen in pictures. They made enough on the sale that they have six months to find jobs.” William pictured himself in a city where they had never lived: Miami, or St. Louis, or Phoenix. He might go to work for a newspaper again and come home every night wrapped in righteousness. But Louisa was just baiting the hook. “She’s going to fail, you know. I give her six months tops.”

“That’s nice.”

“She should have taken smaller steps, the kind that don’t lead you right off the edge of the cliff.”

“What is it they say about the difference between falling and flying?”

“I don’t know,” she said. “Whatever they say, I’m sure it’s wrong.” They were around the corner now, in front of a boutique hotel that had gone in and out of business over the years, always changing its name, never changing anything else. William and Louisa had stayed there on what passed for their honeymoon. The place was shut now, though a sign in the window said it was just for renovation. Louisa stared for a long time at the sign, or at least at the spot in the window where it was hanging. William tried to remember what floor they had stayed on, what Louisa’s hair had looked like then, whether they had fallen asleep at all. Much of life turned out to be a test of how much you could forget without losing the thread entirely.

“You know what I did at work yesterday?” Louisa said. “I reviewed snack-time procedures for classroom visits. There’s actually a written set of rules. Teachers are required to submit lists of any especially slow eaters so they can be served first.” She reached out and touched the window. He was still not sure what she was looking at. For a moment, William imagined that she was ten years younger, or fifteen: that no choices had been made, not even the good ones.

“All this talk of snacks is making me even hungrier,” he said. Now she was the one who only nodded.

The restaurant’s motif was nautical; the small framed cases on the walls held artifacts from shipwrecks. The waiter was chatty; he had a family at home, he said, “if you call a boyfriend and a dog a family.” He listened to old radio dramas every night. He was writing a play about Eisenstein and thought he could take the lead. “Don’t pay me any mind,” he said. He disappeared for a stretch and then returned to set it all down for them: the soups, the salads, the salty fish. William had considered ordering a complicated cocktail, and now that he saw the waiter’s pleasure in serving, he regretted that he hadn’t. “I hope you’re finding everything to your satisfaction,” the waiter said, spreading his hands over the meal in benediction.

“Of course we’re finding it,” William said. “It’s right here on the table.”

Louisa laughed. “Everyone’s a comedian,” she said.

The waiter gave her a mournful look. “But everyone is,” he said.

At the end of dinner, William went down the narrow hall toward the bathroom, took out his telephone, turned it over in his hand. Louisa was waiting for him to come back, but he loitered in the hall, watching her in the stripe of mirror. She was trying to be sad so as not to be angry, but it seemed to make her angry that she couldn’t be sad.


“You’re a nice guy, William.” Karla told him so on the phone, and she said it again when she met William in front of her house on Hardy and deposited the package in the passenger seat. William wasn’t sure what to do with this information, if in fact it was information. Karla shut the door to the car and then rapped on the window until William lowered it. “I just wanted to say bye,” she said.

“Bye,” William said.

“Bye, Mom,” the package said.

After a series of calls thick with implication, Karla had gotten to it. She wanted William to take Christopher out for an afternoon. “He’s been having a rough time ever since Matthew and I split up.”

“You split up?”

“About a month ago. Matthew moved on. I knew he would. It should be his slogan: ‘Matthew moves on.’ He got close to Chris, though, which means that now I have a boy on my hands who wonders why people get close to him, then run away. Will you take him to the park for me?”

“You want me to leave him there?”

A mix of laughter and sadness filled the line. “Just take him out there. Throw some bread at the ducks. I don’t care. He knows you, he feels safe with you. Be a kind of uncle.” And so William had stood looking into a cage in his garage, thinking of how little of what he owned appealed to a boy. He had a baseball glove, but it was plastic, a developer’s giveaway from a promotion a few years before. He had a Frisbee that was also a giveaway, and a kite he’d bought as a birthday present for Graham Kenner’s son but never delivered. He dumped them all into the trunk and went inside to find Louisa. She was in the junk room, on the computer, a catalog open next to her. “I’m heading out to run some errands,” William said. “I have to get some stain for the deck and a few other things. What are you up to?”

“I’m going to try my best to do nothing.”

“Okay,” he said. “See you around four.” She hadn’t mentioned the new house in days. He wondered if the idea had moved on or if it was waiting in the weeds, ready to take him when he wasn’t looking.

Small, dark, with a weight in his gestures, Christopher sat still for most of the drive, staring forward. Karla had let on that Christopher was flourishing in some regards and wilting in others. He could tie knots, more kinds than William knew existed, and he loved to read the newspaper in the old-fashioned way, and he could sketch out the history of the nation from the time of early Indians. He was a devoted if not a good athlete, especially when it came to sports where speed trumped strength. But he was lonely. “He has a hard time making friends,” Karla had said. “Sometimes he’ll be talking about something that interests him, and it’s like his entire being is lit from the inside, and then he’ll suspect that I’m not listening, or giving him my full attention, and he won’t get angry so much as empty. He’ll just vacate the spot where he was a minute before. If that happens with his mom, who’s trying her hardest, I wonder what happens with kids at school.”

William asked Christopher if he preferred music or talk radio. “Talk,” he said, but the first station they found was a pastor suggesting that modern man was in exile from himself, and Christopher grew bored and started to talk about a dead turtle he had found behind his house, its shell beginning to soften. To a series of questions about class, about sports, about girls, Christopher issued brief responses and then was rigid with them for a few seconds. “You love being interviewed, I see,” William said, and the boy surprised him with a smile.

At the park, William popped the trunk and told Christopher to pick out what he wanted. He went right for the kite, a red hexagon with a yellow tail. “This,” he said. “Definitely.”

The park brimmed with children. Teenage girls thumbed cell phones. Small boys offered up die-cast cars to older brothers. William got the kite up in the air and passed Christopher the reel; he played it out or in, trying to keep the thing aloft. Every few minutes it went into irons and came crashing back to the ground. “That’s the thing about kites,” William said.

“I don’t mind,” Christopher said. “It’s fun to get it going again.” He ran to launch it: a successful flight, then an unsuccessful one, then a brief stay in a birch tree. Another boy a few years younger than Christopher came toward them from the far end of the lawn, cradling a mangled delta kite; his father followed, explaining something about inevitability. Then, behind the man, William noticed a man biking around the edge of the park: Stevie. He was wearing the same blue biker shorts he had been in at the door and a bright yellow T-shirt with an Arrow logo. Stevie spotted William, hopped off his bike, and wheeled it over.

“Hey,” William said, trying for neighborly. “You here for the exercise course?”

“No,” Stevie said. “Tweaked a delt the other day moving some furniture. I’m just doing laps. Who’s this?”

“This is Christopher,” William said. “Friend of the family. I’ve known him since he was this high.” He kneeled down and pressed his hand down flat to the ground. The three of them smiled against the light wind. It felt almost like friendship. Then Stevie started telling Christopher how to fly the kite. “Get it up above the tree line,” he said. “That way there’s enough wind to keep it aloft.” He was right, William knew, but Christopher was having fun running back and forth.

The wind surged, then faded, and the kite drifted into a dead patch. Christopher and William followed it as it slid slowly downward. “Make sure the bridle is set correctly,” Stevie said. “I think the way you have it, the thing comes down too fast.” Christopher fiddled with the kite and relaunched it. This time it went up over the trees and shone like a deep red place in the bleached-out sky. “Will you look at that?” Stevie said. “I knew it would work.”

A kite up over the trees was good for a minute or so. “After this can we play Frisbee?” Christopher said. William nodded, but he wasn’t sure how he was going to throw the thing; his fist was clenched so tight it felt like it was cramping.


The man from San Diego was named Ruben Whitfield. He was short, with large features that gave him a friendly if slightly vacant aspect. He was careful everywhere he went, the kind of man who looked at a spot before he sat down in it. On his first day, he made a point of going from office to office, acquiring one germane fact about each coworker; by noon, when he stopped by William’s office, he had a clear sense of Baker’s love for Hank Aaron and Harris’s ambition to sketch every skyscraper in the country and Elizondo’s childhood battle with Legg-Calvé-Perthes disease. Susannah Moore had been going to night school in screenwriting and had sold a script about a young woman who had an affair with a senator during Vietnam. “How about you?” Ruben said. He had a strange accent, overly precise, as if he was passing along someone else’s words.

“I’ve never even met the senator.”

“No. What’s one thing about you?”

“Are you writing these down somewhere?”

“Maybe,” Ruben said. He didn’t laugh at all.

“Me? There’s nothing interesting about me. I’m thinking of building my wife a new house.”

“Impressive,” Ruben said. “My great-uncle was a prominent builder in Canada for many years.” William held his left hand in front of him in a burlesque of a notepad and pretended to scribble. Now Ruben laughed. “That’s not really a fact about me, is it? For me, say that when I was eleven years old, I wrote a letter to a famous actress asking her if she would marry me, and she answered and said she would.”

“Did she?” William said.

“A gentleman never kisses and tells,” Ruben said. He shook William’s hand a second time and went back to his office, where he proceeded to work the phones the way that William imagined Fitch or Harris or Elizondo must have when they were first at Hollister, except that none of those men had exactly reached, as Ruben did, the golden mean between patience and persistence, which permitted him to make suggestions to the unheard customer on the other end of the line and then back off of them in such a fashion that the illusion of choice was created, and William, standing in the hall listening to Ruben, felt within himself a desire, almost inexplicable, to locate ten thousand dollars of ready cash and make an investment in this product, which, as Ruben was saying, was “not a guarantee, because there is no such thing as a guarantee, really, but it’s close, as close as you can get without bending the truth.” He was good.

Tuesday morning, feeling inspired or some approximation of it, William arrived early to put the finishing touches on the one-sheet for Gardner, only to find Ruben already burning up the phones. Harris’s new assistant said that she thought he had already signed up close to thirty thousand in new commitments. William went into the break room, where he found Fitch. “What’s up with the new guy?” William said.

“I can’t decide if he’s the spark that will save our division or some kind of demon who’s gunning for all our jobs,” Fitch said.

“Not my job,” William said. “I write copy.”

“But he’s part of something bigger. Don’t you think? Maybe that’s why George Hollister is here again today.”

“I don’t know if that means anything,” William said. “He’s been around the last few weeks. Probably, he’s just sticking close during this Domesta transition.”

This came as a relief to Fitch. “Right,” he said. “Right.” Suddenly he saw everything as if through sunlight. “Anyway, I’m glad the new guy’s doing a good job. After two months he’ll probably be down in the cafeteria with us just like Antonelli was, and I’ll be not quite laughing at his stupid jokes.”

William’s trip back down the hallway was indirect at best; he took pains to avoid Ruben’s office, paused at Elizondo’s door, ducked into the copy room and ran unnecessary copies of the file he was carrying. Baker and Harris were dissecting a movie both had seen on television the night before. William left the copy room and went to the break room, where he set the coffee machine to make him a cup he knew he wouldn’t drink. Louisa’s new coffee machine had arrived a few days before. She had unpacked it, a sleek black cylinder, something to worship. It made coffee in perfect silence and then blinked its small red eye to signal in code that it had done all it was required to do. Drinking other coffee now seemed like a form of failure.

Finally, back to his office, where he stared at the one-sheet for a while. Outside, in the hall, Cohoe’s wife had baked cookies, and they sat beneath a loose roof of tinfoil on a table. William watched as Cohoe straightened them and then wandered away. George Hollister came by, humming to himself. “Cookies,” he announced, and then pointed at the plate for emphasis. He removed the tinfoil, lifted one, took a bite. “Raisin,” he said scornfully, and was done with it immediately. He replaced the nibbled cookie on the plate and continued on down the hall a few steps, now whistling softly.

Cohoe returned. He was going at a good clip, eyes set on his office, but the plate caught him up short. “Hey,” he said. “Who took a bite of this cookie and put it back?”

“William did,” Hollister said. “I saw him.”

William was at his door in an instant. “I did not,” he said. “You did!”

“Don’t get so angry,” Hollister said. “It’s nothing to worry about. It’s just a cookie. He doesn’t care if you took a bite out of it.”

“I don’t,” Cohoe said. “I was going to offer them to everybody anyway.”

“Fine,” William said. “But I didn’t. He did. I saw him.” He pointed at Hollister, voice above appropriate office volume now. He could feel a hot flush rising at his collar.

“William,” Hollister said. “I think you’re making an issue out of nothing. Just admit it.”

William stepped toward Hollister. Later, he would tell himself that he was seeing all of it hovering before him in the air—Louisa’s withdrawal, Emma’s arrival, Stevie’s guitar, the dog, the house, the kite, the slight persistent ringing in his left ear, the way he worried whenever he saw hair in the shower drain, the hundred trivial idiocies that filled the corners of each day—but the fact was that he saw only George Hollister’s small isolated nose, and his own fist as it made contact with that nose, twice, the first time tentatively, like he was practicing, the second time like he had perfected the action, feet squared and spread to shoulder width, arm straight, body twisting into the blow as it landed. William had never hit a man in this way before, and he was pleased with the quick result: blood rushed from Hollister’s nose, and though he did not fall, he staggered, cracking his head on the handle of a file drawer. Also surprising was that there was no sound, no crack or thud when fist met nose and no audible reaction from Hollister. He did not moan. He did not cry out. He receded silently from the impact, like a man being taken backward by a wind.

Noise returned. William heard Cohoe’s shocked voice at his back. Susannah Moore appeared from the break room with paper towels and shoved a stack of them forward. Hollister patted the asterisk of blood on the front of his shirt. Fitch, coming down the hall, stopped about twenty yards short of the action; he looked as though he might burst into laughter if he came any closer.

William stood his ground. His fist was still out in front of him, a reminder no one needed. Then he began to sink down slightly, as if he had suffered a slow leak. He opened his fist into a hand that might help Hollister up, but Hollister did not want his help; instead, his hand still out in front of him, William turned and walked down the hall, where he used it to press the button for the elevator and then press the button in the elevator.

On the way home he stopped at a small stucco building on the corner of Torrance and Frost, a few blocks north of the pig on the pole. It had been an upscale Mexican restaurant once but was a dive bar now, filled with dirty light. William ordered a drink and tried to strike up a conversation with an older man who was trying to extract a slice of lemon from his glass with a crooked finger. “I took a swing at my boss,” he said.

“You have a boss?” the man said. “That must mean you have a job.” He hoisted his drink. “Here’s to you.”

“That’s funny,” the bartender said, chuckling. His flesh, which hung loose around his face, shook with mirth.

“I knew you’d think so,” the man said. “You have a job, too. Laugh it up.” He released his drink and went to the bathroom. William made small talk with the bartender. He wanted the older man to return. He had a sense that if he could make even the smallest part of the world right again, the effect might spread. Finally he could wait no longer and he slid two twenties out of his wallet and told the bartender he’d pay for the man’s drinks. “You want to cover his tab, you’ll have to do better than that,” the bartender said, laughing again. He seemed like the kind of man who let nearly everything make him happy.

William stood on legs that were heavier than they should have been after a single drink. At home, on the deck, he called Fitch and asked him to keep the news under his hat. “Don’t even tell Gloria,” he said. “I don’t want to have to answer questions about it until I know exactly what’s happening.”

“Of course,” Fitch said. He was eager to be part of a plot, so long as it did not place him in any danger.

William watched Blondie down the yard, sniffing the bases of trees and putting her paws up on the edge of the tiger tub. “Stay away from that,” William said, but worse things had been in it every day.