Bamboo and Blood

Bamboo and Blood - James Church



PART I

Prologue
Each note was a bell hanging from its own brass hook, an infinity of them cleverly attached to the smooth and rounded edges of the sky. When streams froze, when branches on the trees were solemn and stiff, when every single thing was wrapped in the brutal hush of solitary survival, it was then her song would come to me from where she stood alone on the wooden bridge. No matter how wide I spread my arms, I could not hold the music of her voice. It echoed from the hills, and danced the icy stairways that led, at last, to the emptiness between the northern stars. Strange, what the senses do to each other—how a raw wind against the skin makes the heart uneasy, how in the crystalline black of long nights, memories become voices close beside you. The Russians love to write about it. They think they are the only ones who know the cold.

Chapter One

The muffled whiteness fell in thick flakes, a final quickening before winter settled into the cold, hard rut of death. Halfway up the slope, pine trees shifted under their new mantle. A few sighed. The rest braced without protest. In weather like this, tracks might last an hour; less if the wind picked up. If a man wanted to walk up the mountain and disappear, I told myself, this might be his best chance.
“Fix these lenses, will you, Inspector? They’ve iced up again. Where are the lens caps? Every damn time, same thing—the caps vanish.”
I brushed the snow from my coat and glanced back. Chief Inspector Pak was scrambling up the path, the earflaps on his hat bowed out, chin snaps dangling loose. No matter what, the man would not fasten those snaps. They irritated him, he said; they cut into his skin. Unfastened, they also irritated him. Gloves irritated him. Scarves irritated him. Winter was not a good time to be around Pak, not outside, anyway.
The binoculars hung from his neck by a cracked leather strap already stiff with cold. Twenty years old, maybe thirty, East German made, and not very good because the Germans never sold us anything they wanted for themselves. The focus wheel stuck, even worse in cold weather, so objects jerked into view and then out again. We had bought ourselves two choices: blurred or blurred beyond recognition. Cleaning the snow from the lenses would make no difference.
“Here.” As soon as he caught up, Pak thrust the binoculars at me. “Can’t see a damned thing.” He fiddled with the snaps on his chin strap. “I don’t like snaps, did you know that? Never have. Too damned difficult to undo in the cold, especially when you’re wearing these damned gloves. If you have to take off your gloves to work the snaps, what have you gained? Who invents these things? Does anybody think anymore? Does your scarf itch? Mine is driving me crazy. Do something with these lenses, would you?”
I felt around in my pockets for something to use. There was nothing but a few sandpaper scraps and two wood screws, one a little longer than the other. They both had round heads, with slots that didn’t fit any screwdriver I could ever locate. Not useful, I thought to myself. So why had they been in my pockets for years, transferred from one coat to another? The coats would each be discarded over time, but the contents of the pockets were impossible to throw away. “Simply because you don’t need something at the moment,” my grandfather would mutter when he found whatever I’d put in the trash pile, “doesn’t mean it’s worthless.” I could hear his voice. “Look ahead,” he’d say as he carefully examined the discarded object before handing it back to me. “Don’t forget—bamboo scraps and wood shavings. Even two thousand years ago some damned Chinese carpenter knew enough to save them. When the kingdom ran out of everything else, he used the bamboo scraps to make nails. Got him in good with the Emperor. Do you suppose you’re smarter than he was, do you imagine the present is all you’ll ever have?” I never knew what to say to that.
Maybe that was why so many things ended up in my pockets—a subconscious bid not to run afoul of my grandfather, but also a bid for an unknown future, a sort of materialistic optimism. Maybe even Marxist in a way, a pocket theory of labor. After all, somebody made those two useless screws, though they were metal, not bamboo.
“Inspector.” Many animals hibernate in cold weather; I drift into philosophy. “Inspector!” Pak pointed impatiently at the binoculars I was holding. My thoughts drifted back to the lenses. With what was I supposed to clean them? There was nothing I could use in my pockets. Did I have dried grass in my boots? Was I expected to use my hair, like one of the heroines in a guerrilla band of old, scouting for signs of the Imperial Japanese Army in the icy forests of Manchuria? I stamped my feet to restore a little feeling. The real question was, what were we doing here, hours from anywhere, squinting up at a mountain of frozen rock and groaning trees, our ears burning as the temperature plummeted? Mine were burning. Pak’s earflaps were loose, but at least they were down.
“Never. Mind.” Pak was right beside me, yelling to be heard over the wind that suddenly swept down the slope. The first blast tore his words apart. A second blast hit just as he tried again. To keep my balance, I turned sideways, which may be why I could hear the wind and nothing else. I thought my right ear might be ripped off in the gale, but not before it froze solid. I imagined an ice cube with my ear inside skittering along the ground, bouncing against trees and rocks, until at last it came to rest at the foot of the mountain. It might be deemed a new listening post of substantial value. “Good work, Inspector,” someone in the Ministry would say months hence, after all the paperwork on my commendation was complete, but I would only hear ice melting off the rocks, since my ear would not be in range of commendations.
“No, I’ll do it. I’ll do it,” I said to Pak when the wind died down for a moment and I could feel that my ear was still attached. I brushed more snow off my coat and tried to use the sleeve to clear the lenses. “But we might as well quit. Really, being out here is not healthy.” Then the wind started again, furious at something, howling, smashing any words that dared emerge. The last thing in the world we needed was to climb a mountain in this weather. We weren’t dressed for it, not through lack of foresight on our part. The Ministry just didn’t issue anything fit for climbing mountains in the middle of a blizzard. “The only thing we’re going to find is frostbite,” I said. The lenses were still frosted over, though at least now they were glistening.
Pak hunched his shoulders. “Relax, Inspector. Don’t get in a sweat, or you’ll get frostbite for sure.” He reached for the binoculars. “You know, your ears don’t look normal, especially the right one. Funny color for flesh.” He cocked his head. “Are you alright? Pull down those flaps, why don’t you?” He tugged down his own and pointed to his ears. “That’s why they put them on these hats. Costs us extra, you know. Might as well use them, snaps or not.”
To hell with earflaps, I thought and put my hands back in my pockets. To hell with standing in the cold. “This is ugly weather.” I was shouting at the top of my lungs, but from the look on his face, I didn’t think Pak could hear me. “We can’t even see our boots in this wind!” It surprised me that I could still form words; my cheeks were numb, and the feeling had practically drained from my lips. “We’ll be stuck in that miserable hut back there for days.” I jerked my head in the direction of the peaks, made nearly invisible by the snow, unless the wind had become so strong it was actually blowing apart the light. “He’ll freeze to death up there.” I didn’t point because I didn’t want to take my hands from my pockets again. “We’ll be lucky to find him next May.” Pak gave me a blank stare. I shouted louder. “If he’s down here in the next few minutes, we’ll invite him to dine. I’ll warm my ears in the soup.” The wind shrieked and knocked me sideways a step.
Pak shook his head. “What? I can’t hear you with these flaps down.”
2
A figure emerged out of the driving snow, and the three of us were blown back to the hut. Even in the midst of a blizzard, the foreigner’s face held an easy smile, a sense of subtle mischief on his lips. There was something about him that made you think he was far away in his own mind, that he wasn’t buffeted by the same concerns and worries as everyone else. Halfway through the most serious conversation, he might erupt in rich laughter, throwing you off stride. “Sorry,” he would say. “Something struck me as funny.”
His forehead was almost hidden by a lock of black hair; combed back with his fingers, it always fell down again a moment later. The lines on his face creased when he listened, or pretended to listen. The effect was nothing dramatic, but enough to suggest he was paying attention, concentrating on your words even though he was already four moves ahead of where you imagined you were leading him. At odd moments, seemingly out of sync with anything else, his eyebrows arched and danced, sometimes to show pleasure, sometimes not. Just as he slipped into an ironic observation, one eyebrow would leap straight up. A moment later, his mouth would tighten, a bit, not much. He would puff out his cheeks and look down, as if he regretted his words, or at least their tone. That impressed me probably most of all. He paid attention to delivery; there was never anything unguarded in what he said or, more important, how he said it.
When he felt anxious, which was rare, his right hand held the fingers of the left, a source of comfort, perhaps, or an unconscious effort to hide them from harm, maybe a habit from difficult times. After watching him for a few days, I realized that when he paused to think, he always lined up his hands against each other, one finger at a time, meticulously, deliberately. Once everything was perfectly aligned, five fingertips against their twins, it meant he had decided what he wanted to say. Then he put his hands down on the table again, where they lay still, completely comfortable and at ease.
“I thought I was going to die up there.” The foreigner spoke English with a slight accent. Even after two weeks accompanying him several hours a day, I hadn’t been able to place the source. I had heard all sorts of accents before, but none like this. It nagged at me, not being able to place him. His documents said he was from Switzerland. Maybe, but somehow I doubted that was the whole story.
From the beginning, as we stood around waiting for his bags at the airport, he spoke in a soothing cadence, a voice so smooth I wondered if he swallowed a bit of silk every morning—silk pills, maybe. Without fail, he turned complex thoughts into short, simple sentences so I could translate for Pak. That alone told me he had done this many times before. It was not the mark of a tourist, or even a businessman. Western businessmen sometimes spoke slowly, like we were idiots, but there was always an aura of tension around them, a slight odor of calculation. They couldn’t help themselves. Not this visitor. He stood casually in the immigration line, he shook our hands casually when we introduced ourselves, but this was not a casual visit. In the dreary, dangerous winter of 1997, he had been put in our care, under the protection of the Ministry of Public Security. This was inexplicable, at least to me. We didn’t babysit foreigners, we followed them at a discreet distance. If Pak knew anything, as usual he wasn’t saying.
“The wind never let up.” The foreigner took off his scarf. “From down below maybe you couldn’t tell. The trees lower down didn’t move much from what I could see, but the wind near the top was like a knife.” He laughed. “That’s a cliché, isn’t it? I’m sorry. But it cut through my coat, cut through my gloves. You people may be used to this weather. I’m not.”
A worse place to hold a conversation, I thought, would have been hard to find. The hut was small, cold, and dark. The only light came from what little remained of a slate gray day seeping through a tiny window on the far wall. The three of us stood bunched together in one corner, squeezed by a square wooden table with one chair. Normally, I would have looked to see what sort of wood the table was. I was too cold to care.
Who would have put furniture in a room so tiny? There was a piece missing from the side of the table, the side closest the window, as if something had stuck its head in and taken out a bite. Not a rough cut but a clean, symmetrical bite. I looked again at the wood. It was only pine, and not very good pine, either. I was going to freeze to death under a lousy, sappy pine table. I looked more closely. Maybe it had been gnawed, though the light was fading so fast I couldn’t tell for sure. Who ate tables? I thought back to woodworking tools my grandfather had used—cutting tools, chisels, planes. Every night, they were lined up on the wall of his workshop. It was a pleasant, peaceful place, cool in the summer, fragrant with resin that seeped from the pieces of newly cut wood. “You have to keep things neat,” he’d say as he finished putting everything in its place. “Life may not be like that, not for humans, anyway. You’ll find that out someday, to your sorrow. But there is order everywhere else around us. You’ll never come across a disorderly forest, and I’m not talking about trees standing in rows and saluting, either.” He’d point to the tools. “Put them back where they belong,” he’d say. “Let them get a rest, refresh their spirit.” Once the implements were in place, he’d brush the sawdust into a pile and put it in a barrel that sat in the corner. “People don’t treat things right anymore,” he’d say, “don’t ask me why.”
The foreigner’s voice brought me back to the hut. “Why are we standing?” I’d never heard someone sound so friendly even though he was shouting. We had to get out of this place. Everything about it was wrong. We had no psychological edge in here for making this man explain—without games or irony or coatings of vocal friendship—what the hell he had been doing on the mountain in this weather. Trying to start any sort of a serious interrogation, even a short one, was impossible. We might as well be on a minibus in a gale. I had the feeling the foreigner thought he could leave anytime he wanted, just get off at the next stop and disappear into the swirling darkness. There wasn’t even any way to lock the door. It barely shut, and the wind made it rattle and shake the whole time he spoke. “Why are we standing around? There’s nowhere to go for the moment,” he said. It was his way of making sure we knew the score was even—we were trapped just like he was, all equally uncomfortable, and nothing would change that. He looked at us and smiled faintly. It might be two against one, but minus ten centigrade was a good leveler of odds and he knew it. When neither Pak nor I moved, he squeezed himself into the chair. I watched him put his fingers together. He had something more to say.
“Presumably, you’ll kick me out of the country. Just as well, you’ll hear no complaints from me. To tell the truth, I’m anxious to get back to where it is warm, maybe stretch out on a beach and have suntan oil rubbed onto my chest by someone.” He held my eye for a moment and smiled as the wind tore at the roof. Then he turned to Pak. “Someone wearing a bikini.”
Pak moved from one foot to the other. The floor was radiating cold up through the soles of our boots so that my shinbones were starting to ache. “If it were up to me,” Pak said, “you’d be on a plane right away. Even better, you’d have been gone yesterday. But that won’t happen. So your beach will have to wait. You’ll need something warmer than a bikini back in Pyongyang, because they say it’s going to be a cold winter. There will be lots of questions, and they won’t be politely asked, not like the inspector here does. Questions every day, all day, morning, noon, and night. Sun? Even in the unlikely event there are windows in the room you’ll get, you won’t see much sun.” Pak took off his hat and fiddled with the snap for a moment. I knew he was figuring out exactly how to phrase what he wanted to say next. “You were supposed to stay close. That was the agreement. You stay with us; we keep you safe. That’s how it was going to work. An hour here or there out of touch we could explain if we had to. But this time you went too far, disappearing all day long. They’ll be waiting when we get back, believe me, and there’s nothing I can do about it.”
The left hand moved for its shelter. The foreigner shrugged again but offered nothing.
“Don’t be a wise guy,” I said. “You say you’re from Switzerland. That’s nowhere near the Mediterranean, so why don’t we drop this image of suntan oil and bikinis?”
“Ah, very good, Inspector.” He threw back his head and laughed. “As always, perceptive and to the point. You’re right, I was born in Lausanne, but I’m still a Jew.” He paused, calculating the moment of maximum impact. His eyebrows wriggled, just enough to be noticed. “Genetic heritage, sunshine in my bones, a thousand generations in the desert. Can’t deny our genes, can we? What do yours tell you?”
“They’re off duty.” I glanced at Pak. He hadn’t changed expression, but I had no doubt he was digging himself out from the wreckage. A Swiss Jew? A Jew of any sort roaming around Pyongyang? Not just roaming around, but under the protection and observation of the Ministry—our little unit of the Ministry, to be precise, and there was no reason to doubt the precision that would ensue. Maddeningly sarcastic questions, sharpened to a fine and precise point, recorded in painful detail, asked again and again. Fingers would point, and I knew where.
Pak was still chewing things over. I could see his jaws working. The prolonged silence only intensified the cold.
“It could have been a Swiss gene that impelled our guest up that mountain like a goat in this weather,” I said, trying to keep some words aloft. Maybe they would push the air around, keep it from freezing solid. Maybe a touch of anger would help. Anger was heat in another form, after all. Pak didn’t join in. Normally, he would follow up my opening, keep things moving. Fine, I thought, let him come up with something better to get us out of this mess.
Or was it not a mess? Did someone else know exactly who this fellow was? It wouldn’t be the first time someone higher up left us hanging out to dry. I looked at the foreigner. Now there was no choice. Bad place for an interrogation or not, we had to find out something more about him. We needed answers before we got back to Pyongyang.
There is no sense questioning a man when you are wearing a hat, however, especially a hat with earflaps. It undermines all sense of authority. I took off my hat, and regretted it instantly. “Why do you wander around all the time? I’ve never seen anything like it. When it rains, you go for a walk. When it’s freezing, you go for a drive. Now it’s storming, it’s miserable, it’s getting worse by the minute, and what do you do? You go mountain climbing? What the hell did you think you’d find up there?” The wind screamed at the door, pulled it open and banged it shut again.
The temperature was still dropping. I didn’t want to be in this storm another minute. We might die, literally where we stood. They’d discover us months later, a threesome frozen in place, a perfect revolutionary tableau to be labeled “Interrogation of an Enemy Spy” and then visited by lines of schoolchildren ever after.
“Where’s your car?” I demanded. It was hopeless; the wind was slamming against the side of the hut. In another second it would send us swirling into the winter sky, earflaps and all, and take our cars with it. Pak looked at the ceiling, which was showing signs of giving way. The foreigner sat unperturbed. I put my face close to Pak’s and shouted, “Didn’t I tell you, letting him have his own car would be trouble?” This self-assured, wandering Jew in Pyongyang had been put in our charge, and what did we do? In response to his silken request, we’d gotten him his own car. His own car! Nothing fancy, but that wouldn’t count in our favor, not in the least. Already I could hear it, the lame route the conversation in the State Security Department’s interrogation room would take. At least I had to hope it would be SSD. Their interrogations rarely got anywhere with us; the plastic chairs became unbearable after an hour or so and no one could concentrate after that. But they would keep hammering on the same point—he had a car, he had his own car, and we had gotten it for him. “Well, how were we supposed to know?” I’d say when they finally gave up and told us to go home so they could stretch and get something hot to drink. “We’re not paid to be mind readers, are we?”
The foreigner looked at me oddly. Something I hadn’t seen from him before, a touch of anger, started across his face, but after a moment the familiar half-smile settled back on his lips. “Let me guess, you’re about to begin asking me questions that could get me into trouble.” One eyebrow waltzed toward the other. “You don’t want to get me in trouble, do you?”
The wind stopped suddenly, leaving nothing but silent, burning cold in the hut. “Questions don’t cause trouble.” Pak shifted his weight again and slapped his arms across his chest. “Only answers do. Save it, would you? We have to walk a kilometer back to our car, and we’d better get there before the temperature falls any more, assuming it has anyplace left to fall. The Ministry will send someone for your vehicle in a day or so if the roads are passable. You won’t be needing it anyway.”
“Let me guess, you’re afraid yours won’t start in the cold.” The foreigner stood up and put his hand on Pak’s shoulder. “You wouldn’t let me bring back a good car battery the last time I went to China. I offered, did I not? But you refused. So stubborn, so stubborn. It must be in the genes.” He didn’t seem fazed by the warning that people—unfriendly, nasty, thick-necked people—would be waiting when we got back to the city. Maybe something had been lost in my rendering of what Pak said. He could be a difficult man to translate. The edge on his thoughts didn’t always survive the journey between languages.
I could see that the more Pak mulled things over, the angrier he was getting. The thought had occurred to him, too. Someone had used us. Pak could forgive almost everything, but not being used. His lips had tightened into a thin line. I wondered how he could accomplish such a feat in this icebox. My teeth had started to ache. Our quarry smiled radiantly. “Is there any coffee, some way to heat water?” he asked. From the look on his face, you’d have thought we were waiting for the menus so we could order dinner and a bottle of wine.

“The warmest things in reach are those genes of yours. Crank them up full blast, because we’re going to need something to keep from freezing while we walk to the car.” I looked at his naked ears. “Here, take my hat.”
Pak shook his head and frowned, but I wasn’t interested.
3
Two men from the special section were waiting when we stumbled into the office, past midnight. One was asleep, his head slack, chin bumping on his chest. The other one was awake, his long, ugly face fatigued and angry. “My, my, look who has returned to the nest.” He pointed at two cups on the desk. “You don’t mind? We helped ourselves to some tea. Maybe you could clean those once in a while. They were all greasy-like.” This was directed at me, an opening shot. People from the special section like to get under your skin first thing; they think it makes them look tough. I was tired and numb beyond saving, but I smiled. “Whatever you say.”
Pak slowly took off his coat. He stood rubbing his hands together for a moment, then pulled out the chair behind his desk and sat down. “I don’t remember setting up an appointment with you two.” He looked from one man to the other. “Or is this a friendly call? Maybe you want to repay the money you owe me. You do, you know. You both do. I haven’t forgotten. And, oh, say, is that your car down there? It’s in my spot.” Pak slammed the flat of his hand down on the desk. “Move it.”
The man who was sleeping yawned and opened his eyes at the sound. He glanced at me without interest. “Yeah, well, we’ll take custody now, so don’t worry about your parking spot.” He stood up and moved toward the foreigner.
“No one is going anywhere until I make a phone call.” Pak rarely balked at surrendering custody. There was something funny in his manner; it made me uneasy when he acted strange like this. “We’ve been tramping around in the snow for hours. I’ll be damned if the two of you will just take over after sitting here and napping all night. You want to play, find yourself some orders, and they better be written orders,” he paused. “Pretend to be useful for a change instead of just pushing people around.” Pak picked up the phone, listened for a moment, then put it down again.
The two of them smiled together, as if one were a mirror image of the other. A moment later, the first one’s face fell back into anger. His mouth moved a few times, but nothing came out.
“Phones are down,” the second one said and yawned again. His overcoat had a nice fur-lined hood on it. “You know you can’t keep him, and you know why. So don’t be a dope.”
Pak pulled a clean sheet of paper out of a drawer and slapped it on his desk. I’d never seen him make such grand, noisy gestures. “There’s nothing that says I can’t keep him, and there’s nothing that says you get to take him. You’re in my office, this is a Ministry building, and I say nothing happens until I get something with an official stamp that tells me I don’t have jurisdiction. Meantime, go f*ck yourself.”
They both looked at the foreigner. “He doesn’t move; he stays here. If he leaves this building, he’ll be sorry. If he talks to anyone on the phone, he’ll be sorry.” The first one had found his voice again. He turned to Pak. “And you’ll be sorry, comrade, believe me. Real sorry. We’re going now, but we’ll be back.” He picked up one of the cups and tossed it to me. “Wash these, why don’t you?”
They smiled again, in stereo, and slammed the door on their way out.
The foreigner applauded. “Bravo, bravo. A man of principle! I thought you said you were going to toss me into their jaws.”
I put down the cup and rubbed my ears. “Almost thawed out, but I still can’t believe what I just heard. Are you crazy?” I looked at Pak. “They’ll tear us limb from limb. Especially the ugly one.”
Pak shook his head. “I don’t like people helping themselves to my tea, and I don’t like them parking in my spot. Besides, they don’t scare me. I don’t care what they look like. It will take them a couple of hours to find the right person to supply written authorization. No one wants to commit anything to paper these days, too dangerous; there’s no paper trail if there’s no paper. Everyone wants everything verbal. Well, I don’t. I don’t have to take verbal orders from them, and they know it. Meantime, I’ll call the Minister, and we’ll figure out something else to slow them down.” He turned to the foreigner. “You were under my care. You still are, as far as I’m concerned. I don’t sacrifice people under my care, it doesn’t matter how foolish they are.”
“Where does all this leave me, if you don’t mind my asking?” The foreigner did not look grateful or concerned. He sounded even less so.
“You?” Pak stared at the man for a moment. “Where does it leave you? You can go back to your hotel if you want. Pack your suitcase. Sit tight.”
“What if they come for me at the hotel?” Still no note of concern in the voice.
“No problem. The inspector here will look stern. He will be implacable until they back off and go home.”
“And if they don’t?”
Pak looked surprised. “Do I detect a note of worry? I wouldn’t have thought so, you getting worried. But if that’s the case, if you’d rather hide, you can stay here. We’ll dump you at the airport later this morning, and you take the next plane out.” He pointed at the calendar on the wall. “It’s Tuesday, you’re in luck. The plane leaves early, assuming they get the runway cleared and the ice off the wings.”
“What if things play out differently, not so propitiously? It’s not that I’m worried, just running down the options.”
“I’ll bet you have contingency plans.” Pak scratched his head. “Deigeh nisht, I think was the term you used. It’s Swiss, you said, for ‘never mind, it’s covered.’”
The foreigner laughed even before I finished translating. “You were so drunk that night, who could believe you would remember anything. But you did! Maybe my efforts here were not in vain.” He laughed again. “Look, I can get you honorary citizenship someday, if you need it. You and the inspector, both. Who knows, your Korean genes might like the beach, and a little oil, eh, Inspector?” He patted me on the shoulder. “Is there a bed in this place?”
Pak pointed down the hall. “No bed. You can sleep on a chair in the empty office. The bathroom is downstairs; there’s no lightbulb, so try to wait until the sun is up to use it. You need something to eat, but I don’t know where we can find anything right now. Maybe they have some food at the airport. We’ll see what’s possible later this morning. You have your passport with you?”
“No.”
“It figures.” Pak turned to me. “Go get it before those stone heads think to collect the damned thing from the hotel.”
“The clerks won’t hand it over.” I didn’t bother getting up. “‘You lack authorization,’ they’ll say, if I can even rouse them at this hour of the morning. I may not even be able to get in the door. They lock it, and there’s no bell.”
“Be charming, Inspector.” The foreigner handed me a hundred-dollar bill. “Be very charming and give them this as authorization. It might even open the door.”
Pak grunted. “They might not take it…”
I put the bill in my pocket. “Though, then again, they might. Of course, as soon as they give me the passport, they’ll make a call to our grinning friends.” I stood up to go. “Incidentally, keep your honorary citizenship.” I looked at a notch at the top of the window frame and said very deliberately, “I don’t need it.”
“You know, O, you might have been a Jew.” The foreigner craned his neck at the corners of the ceiling and then settled his gaze on the top of the window, which was rattling in the wind. “You see Cossacks everywhere.”
4
Wednesday morning, the two men from the special section were back, carrying a piece of paper and accompanied by two other men, from where they wouldn’t say.
“What do you mean, he’s gone?” The ugly one growled and narrowed his eyes. “I told you, if he left this place, you’d be sorry.”
Pak tipped back in his chair. “Did you? I don’t remember that. Do you remember that, Inspector?” I was standing in the doorway.
“No. I don’t recall.”
The others turned to look at me. One of them licked his lips. “You, of all people, O. It figures, our paths would cross again, someday.” I didn’t recognize the face, but his left hand was missing two fingers. He held it up for me to see.
Pak gave me a look, halfway between “You know him?” and “Let me handle this.” I leaned against the wall, a little out of sorts. The man with the left hand had died a long time ago. Fifteen years, maybe more. I remembered the day precisely. I just couldn’t recall the year.
“Where is he?” The ugly one turned back to Pak. “And don’t say you don’t know.”
“I don’t know.” Pak took a nail clipper from his drawer. He clipped the nails on his left hand, and put the parings in a neat little pile on the desk. No one spoke. This is what it is like inside an atomic bomb, I thought to myself. In the millisecond before it blows everything to hell.
Finally, the fourth man laughed. “When we’re through with you, you’ll be lucky to have anything left to clip.” He was taller than the others, older. “But I don’t want to get ahead of myself. So, I’ll give you another chance. Where is the foreigner?”
Pak swept the parings into a trashcan beside the desk before looking up. “He’s gone. I assume he took the flight out of here back to Beijing. From there, your guess is as good as mine.”
“You decided, on your own, not to hold him?” The tall man looked around the office. “Since when do shitty little policemen make decisions about national security matters? Beyond your writ, wouldn’t you say?”
“He had a valid passport, a valid visa, a valid residency stamp, and an airline ticket that didn’t look like it had been forged.” Pak counted on his fingers as he listed each piece of evidence. “As far as I know, he went through the immigration line, looked at the officer in the booth, you know, the girl with the lips like roses in bloom, and was passed. No one said boo. You had a lookout for him, did you?”
“We had reason to hold him. You let him slip away. Tell me why.”
The man with the left hand hadn’t taken his eyes off me. There was no expression in them, but you wouldn’t call it a blank look. I felt pinned to the wall, like a bug. Alright, so he didn’t die fifteen years ago. Good for him. He nodded for me to step outside.
5

We went down the stairs without speaking. When we got outside, he kept walking to the front gate. The guards looked at him and then at me. I shrugged and followed him to the street. Finally, he stopped and turned around. “If I shot you right here, do you think anyone would mind?”
“Nice to see you, too.”
He lit a cigarette. “You still don’t smoke, I assume. No problems of conscience. Just left me for dead and danced home. I wondered what I’d say if I ever saw you again.”
“What did you decide?”
“I forget.” He threw away the cigarette. “You didn’t even look surprised when you saw me.”
“It crossed my mind.” I started to walk. “Let’s keep moving.”
He fell in alongside, but didn’t say anything.
“Where have you been in the meantime? We’d have run into each other sooner if you’d been in-country.”
“Here and there. It took a few years to recover. Pretty good job, the way they put me together again. Good doctors. Very dedicated.” He held up his hand. “Too bad I’m left-handed.”
“Must make it hard to count.”
He stopped. “I think I’ll use two bullets. The first one so that it hurts, really bad. And the second one, so it hurts even more.” He paused. “I can still count to two.”
“You should be able to make it to three, but you’re not even armed, so maybe we can skip through the tough talk.” He’d lit another cigarette; his good hand was shaking a little, not much. “What did your crowd want with the foreigner?”
“Doesn’t concern you.” The smoke from the cigarette drifted slowly out of his mouth, as if he weren’t breathing. “I’ll tell you this, though. There’s going to be hell to pay that he got out of the country. You know where he’s from?”
“He says he’s Swiss.” That was true, as far as it went.
“You believe him? He’s not Swiss. His mother is a Hungarian, that’s why he has a Hungarian name. What did you think Jen? was?”

Actually, I’d checked that with the name trace section. I put in the request on a Wednesday morning, the day after our foreigner arrived. When nothing was back by Friday, I called. Real simple, they said. It’s Italian. “You sure about that? His papers say he’s Swiss.” Don’t worry, they said. We know names; it’s Italian.
“So, maybe his father is Swiss.” I avoided looking at the man’s hand and concentrated on his face. There was nothing in it I recognized.
“His father was Israeli.”
“Was.”
“Dead.”
“Is that so? You seem to know quite a bit.”
“You’d be surprised.” He threw away the second cigarette. “Let me ask you a question. Nothing complicated. Why’d you let him go?”
“We had our orders to be nice, show him around, keep him comfortable. Ending up in one of your holes didn’t match the description. Anyway, he hadn’t done anything wrong.”
“Not in your book.”
“Not in my book.” I stepped off the curb. “You hungry? I’ll buy you lunch.” There hadn’t been food for lunch for a long time, but we still made the offer sometimes, out of habit.
“No, thanks.” He turned around and started walking back toward the gate. “I’d rather choke.”
6
Pak didn’t look up when I stepped into his office. “We’re in a lot of trouble, but you know that. Where you been?”
“I spent some time thinking about noodles. Then I did some walking around. I wanted to clear my head, that sort of thing. Another cold day, we’re due for a little break, wouldn’t you think? Not that I mind. Cold is good for clearing my head.” The cold did nothing for my head besides making my ears ache. Pak knew I was only throwing up chaff in hopes of avoiding the question he was sure to ask.
He asked it. “You know that guy with three fingers?”
“Two fingers, actually; the other one is a thumb. Yes, I do.” I sat down and looked out the only window in Pak’s office. The view wasn’t much, an inner courtyard and, across the way, the Operations Building. It was snowing again, though just a few flakes. Maybe if it snowed more it would warm up a degree or two. My ears still burned from being outside without a hat. This sort of cold gave me an awful headache. “We used to work together.”
Pak said nothing, but he didn’t go to sleep, either.
“He was in an accident.” I didn’t think that would end the conversation. It didn’t.
“And?”
“And it was a bad accident.”
“And?” Pak was going to pull at this, no matter what. He was in that sort of mood.
“The man died. But apparently he didn’t.”
“To review: You worked together. Somewhere, not to be discussed, he was in a bad accident that killed him, but didn’t. And you haven’t seen each other since then. Shall I guess the rest, or are you going to tell me? Normally, I wouldn’t ask, but this nondead friend of yours seems intent on causing us grief. He was standing in my office this morning, and as far as I’m concerned, that means he has crossed the line from the unmentionable past to a place where none of us want to be—the present. Where was this operation you two were conducting?”
“We were where we weren’t supposed to be, not officially, though we had good reason to be there.” When I’d left that group, my final orders on leaving were to tell no one what we did—no one, not ever. So far, I’d stuck to that. But this was different. Resurrection hadn’t been mentioned as a contingency, one way or the other. “It was supposed to have been worked out ahead of time, our entry into the place we were supposed to visit. Only it wasn’t. I thought he was dead, there wasn’t anything I could do.”
“That’s all?”
“More or less. When I got back, they debriefed me, kicked me in the pants, and told me to forget the whole thing. They told me the chief of operations was unhappy, and that if I knew what was good for me, I’d stay as far away from him as I could. We never saw him, so I just assumed that was a fair description of his mood. The man with the fingers must have been overseas until recently; otherwise he’d have shown up sooner on my doorstep. Strange, isn’t it? His appearing at this moment? It gives me a funny feeling.”
“A funny feeling. Unique investigative technique, we’ll have to tell the Minister. These feelings, you get them often?”
“Did I use up my quota for the month already?”
The phone in my office started ringing. I walked down the hall to answer it. “O here.”
“Nice to hear your voice.” It was the dead man. “We need to meet. I’ll see you at the Sosan Hotel, in the coffee shop, let’s say at 4:00 P.M.”
“How about four thirty?” I hung up the phone because he was no longer on the other end. “Perfect,” I said to no one in particular. “Four o’clock is fine.” This meant getting the keys for the car from Pak.
Pak was examining his teeth in a small mirror when I walked in. After a minute, he put down the mirror and looked at me. “What?”
“I need the keys to drive over to meet someone.”
“Who?”
“The dead man.”
“Where?”
“You want to come along? That way you don’t have to ask questions, you can see for yourself. In fact, you can take notes. But you have to pay for your own coffee.”
Pak picked up the mirror again. “No, you go alone.” He smiled into the mirror, a big, phony smile with a lot of teeth. “See, Inspector, with the wrong diet, you can lose your teeth, incisors, molars, the whole works. I’ll probably lose mine by the end of the winter. They’re already getting loose. I think it’s scurvy. And then what will I do? Looks count for a lot, even these days. Everything is in the packaging, you know? At my age, the package isn’t doing so well.”
“You might be right; I hadn’t heard. People in my neighborhood don’t talk much about packaging. They don’t talk much about anything. Things are very quiet these days.” This was a bad conversation to be having. The weather was bad. News from the countryside was bad. I tried to lighten the mood. “I heard somewhere that eating tree bark is healthy for the gums.”
Pak opened a drawer and put the mirror away. “Something wrong with tree bark? Or do you have your own stash of rice somewhere?” He closed his eyes. “Forget it,” he said quietly. “Let’s change the subject.”
“Pick a topic.”
“How about getting back to your friend? His name is”—Pak looked at a paper on his desk—“Mun.” He paused. “That’s the name he uses now, anyway. You knew him as something different, one assumes.”
I reached in my trousers pocket and found two small pieces of wood. One was junk pine. The other was chestnut. Pak’s eyes narrowed.
“Whenever I ask you a question and you reach for that damned wood, I know you are about to hide something from me.”
“Not so.”
Some people think I use wood as worry beads. I do not. Beads are generic; wood is particular. Every type of wood has its own personality. I generally do not say this in the presence of strangers because it is not something they like to hear. They find it offensive, or walk away convinced I am being sarcastic. The truth is, with complete access to every type of tree on the planet, you could probably find a wood for every hue of emotion and then some. My grandfather believed wood was as close to goodness as a person could get. He never said it quite that way. What he said was, “You never saw trees abuse each other, did you?” He’d mutter this to me when we walked on summer afternoons, when the road was dusty and the sun was still hot. “Do they speak meanly? Do they lie? Do they grab more than their share, or sit in the shade while others do their work for them?” He’d walk a little more and then turn to me. “Well, do they, boy?”
“No, Grandfather, they do not.” No other answer was possible, or so it seemed to me at the time. It was manifestly true, the wood he worked with, the furniture he made, none of it ever caused trouble in the village or to our neighbors. The only problem I can recall happened one autumn. A visiting political cadre, a young man with a thin-edged smile, looked into Grandfather’s workshop and said, “This furniture of yours is too ornate. It must be cleaner, simpler to match the lives of the people.” My grandfather continued to sand a piece of wood, a piece for a small writing desk that had been commissioned by an official in Pyongyang, an old friend from the days of the anti-Japanese war when they were guerrillas in the mountains near the Amnok River. The sanding seemed to go on for a long time. The cadre looked at me and pointed to his ears, as if to ask whether the old man was deaf. At last my grandfather raised his head. “It isn’t me that makes the shapes. They come from the wood. There’s a certain truth to wood.” He fixed the cadre with a long, level gaze. “Or would that be the responsibility of another department?” The young man nodded slightly. “You’d better find some simpler truths somewhere, or we’ll have to get rid of these trees you’re using and plant new ones, simple ones.” My grandfather returned to his sanding. The cadre went away, and the neighbors walked over, one at a time, to say hello and comment on the desk. We all watched the road for a few months after that, but no one ever came to touch the village trees.
Pak knew I kept a supply of several varieties of wood, small scraps, in the top drawer of the desk in my office. He sometimes complained, but he never told me to get rid of it. When I needed to calm down, or think, or let my mind go free, I’d go into my desk and search around for a piece of wood. Lately, I had started carrying a couple of pieces with me, in case the duty car broke down when we were out of town. We were being called out of town more and more, to manage crowds at train stations or help out if a local security man became sick, or disappeared. The car wasn’t in good repair, and there wasn’t much maintenance going on. I knew we’d get stuck sooner or later. That’s why I had the piece of chestnut. It was cheerful, in its own way. Chestnut could take your mind off of things. It was a treat I had been saving for a bad day. This had all the makings of a bad day, and I hadn’t even been to the Sosan Hotel yet. I put it back in my pocket.
“No,” I said to Pak. “Mun is what he called himself then, too. We didn’t know each other very well. We met just before the operation started, read the file, asked a few questions. The training was only for a couple of weeks. We didn’t talk much. He kept to himself, and so did I.” I shouldn’t have been revealing even this much about an operation, even an old one that didn’t matter anymore, but Pak could be trusted.
“You weren’t interested in knowing more about someone who might soon have your life in his hands?”
“Nothing seemed very complicated in those days. Just in and out, they said. The less we knew about details, the better. That’s what they said. Like teaching someone enough to jump out of a plane only one time.”
“Not good.”
“Awful. I think about it sometimes. I wonder if we were set up. Nothing went right from the start, nothing. When we got to the target, someone was supposed to have left a door open for us. They didn’t. It was locked, and no one had bothered to teach us how to get past a locked door, not one like this, anyway. We managed to work the lock, but it took extra time we didn’t have to spare. Guard schedules, that sort of thing.”
“Why didn’t you abort? I thought there were hand signals or something.”
“You never went on one of these, did you?” I thought I saw Pak move in an odd way, nothing much, but something suddenly surfaced and then dove back into the deepest part of him. I let it go; it wasn’t my business. He never spoke about what he did before he joined the Ministry, and I never pressed him to find out. Anytime we got to the edge of the subject, he found a way to steer the conversation onto something else. “The one thing they emphasized over and over to us was that there was only this single chance. Miss this and it would never come again, they said. The chief of operations wanted this done, they said, and he wanted it done right away. They never mentioned anything about aborting the mission.”
Pak snorted. “Bunch of crap. There’s no such thing as only one chance.”
“You sound like my grandfather. One of your definitive bugle calls would have been helpful at the time. But you weren’t there, as I recall.”
“Neither was your grandfather.” Pak mused a moment. “What happened to your friend Mun?”
“Something exploded. We finally got in and were looking around. There were some wires I had to cut, and I was concentrating on that. Red wire this, green wire that. Or the other way around. It’s not the sort of thing I’m very good at.”
“Details, you mean.” Pak swiveled his chair to gaze out the window. It never bothered him, that there wasn’t much to see. “No, actually, you’re pretty good at details, Inspector.” He sat for a moment, as if he might want to say something more, then turned his chair back and gestured for me to go on.
“Mun must have spotted something, because he moved a few steps to my left. I remember it was to my left, because I had the red wire in my right hand. One minute I saw him picking up a small box, the next minute he didn’t have a face anymore, or a neck. No hands, either. He dropped like a cow that’s been shot in the head. No moaning, nothing. Just a lot of gore that wasn’t moving. Funny thing, whatever it was barely made a sound. No explosion, none that I remember, anyway.”
“So you left.”
“Not right away. First, I located what we had been sent in for, most of it, anyway. On the way out, I checked again, but he was dead. I stepped over him and walked back to where the escort team was supposed to be waiting. They weren’t at the primary point so I had to go to the backup, which was not easy to find. I cursed the whole way. When I got there, I was sweating buckets. They were sweating, too, looking at their watches and mopping their faces. They didn’t ask why I was alone.”
“Why bother? They could see you were in no mood to talk.”
“No one was, believe me. They were nervous, real edgy. The whole way back they wouldn’t look at me, not even at each other.”
“Now your dead teammate shows up again. In pursuit of this Israeli who tells us he is a Swiss Jew.”
“What makes you think he’s Israeli?”
“What makes you think he’s not?”
“His mother is Hungarian,” I said lamely, “that’s why his name is Jen?. It’s not Italian, by the way.”
“Who cares about his mother? He’s an Israeli as sure as I’m Korean, and he was up here in the cold where there isn’t a camel for a thousand kilometers.”

“I don’t think they have camels in Israel.”
“You know what I mean. He was way out of his territory, and so is your old friend Mun if he’s come back from the dead. You think it’s strange?”
“No, more like fearful symmetry.”
Pak looked thoughtful. “Your phrase?”
“Borrowed.”