32
TRIGENTA DUO
I clatter down the porch steps, just in time to see Dare emerging from his cottage.
Like always, he’s dressed in slim dark jeans and a snug t-shirt. He’s heading for his bike and he looks like he’s going to continue on his way, until he notices my face. His eyes narrow as he sees my state of distress. He immediately changes course and heads for me.
“What’s wrong?” he asks in concern, his hand reaching for mine.
I pull away. “Oh, now you’re worried about that?” I can’t help but ask. The emotions of the day are threatening to overwhelm me.
He shakes his head. “Don’t do that. I’ve already explained. Everything is just complicated.”
I swallow hard. “Finn’s gone. I can’t find him. I think he went to Nocte.”
Dare nods toward his bike without hesitation. “Then let’s go.”
We pull on helmets and are on the road within a minute. My arms wrap around his waist like they belong there, and I suddenly realize that they do. My arms belong wrapped around this man, no matter what. No matter what secrets he might have, or what might be going on with me.
When I’m upset, he calms me. When I’m breathless, he gives me air. When I’m sad, he buoys me. That’s all that matters, right?
I decide that soon, I’ll sit down and tell him all of these things.
But not right now. Because right now, I have to find Finn.
We pull right up outside the hole in the fence and then we duck through it.
I take off at a run through the park, headed straight for the old house of horrors. Dare runs with me, easily keeping pace.
“There isn’t a car here,” he points out to me as we jog. Our wet shoes squeak on the midway.
I know his point is logical, but I know in my heart that Finn is here.
I know like a sister knows, like a twin.
I don’t deviate from my path, and within a couple of minutes, I’m standing on the porch of Nocte, bent over to catch my breath.
Dare runs his hand up and down my back, relaxing my muscles as my lungs fill with air. He’s my air. I give him a grateful look, then push forward, through the door and into the abandoned house.
I hadn’t thought to bring a flashlight this time, but luckily, enough light shines through the dirty windows that we can see where we’re going.
“Finn!” I call out as I race along, over the electric cords and through the rooms. “Where are you?”
There’s no answer. But I still feel him here.
“He’s here,” I tell Dare over my shoulder. “I know it. We have to find him before he hurts himself.”
Dare nods and we race along the darkened pathways, into the part of the house that I hadn’t shown Dare before.
I stop in the middle of a dusty parlor. An empty noose swings from the chandelier above, while gargoyle’s faces leer from the sides of the fireplace. I feel an instant air of relief that Finn isn’t hanging from the rope. Shivering, I scan the place. Once upon a time, a “rotting” butler walked through this room, scaring visitors as they passed through. The room is empty now.
“He’s not here,” Dare tells me needlessly.
My shoulders drop and my breath exhales and I sink into a dusty velvet sofa.
“Where is he?” my voice is frail and threatens to break.
Dare sits next to me, his arm around my shoulders and I turn into his chest because all of a sudden, I can’t keep it together. The weight of it is too heavy.
All of the emotions I’ve been feeling lately come crashing down. The desperation of wanting to help my brother, the rejection I’ve felt from Dare, the anger I’ve felt toward my father. It spirals around me, too much to bear, and I sob into Dare’s shirt.
His hands are large as he comforts me, as he pats my back and strokes my shoulder.
I feel comfort here in his arms, unlike any comfort I’ve ever felt before.
He’s mine. No matter what happens, I can’t lose him.
The fear of that loss, even though it’s imagined, floods me and I grab him.
“I can’t lose you, too,” I tell him, my voice still strained. “I’m sorry that I can’t seem to hold things together. I promise I’ll get a handle on things. If you promise to stay.” I pause and there’s silence and I stare at him. “Promise me, Dare.”
He looks at me oddly, and presses a kiss to my forehead. “Promise.”
His voice is so husky, and it strokes my skin. And it’s not enough. With shaking hands, I reach for him, pulling him to me and his mouth, hot and minty, closes over my own.
He kisses me with abandon, like he’s not afraid of the consequences, like it’s only him and me, and there’s nothing else around us. There is no Finn, there is no funeral home, there is no grief.
There is only Dare and Calla.
I inhale it, breathing it in my throat, and holding it deep inside by my heart.
He starts to pull away, but I stop him with a whisper.
“Please don’t. I need you. Make it all right. Please. Make it all right.”
My whisper is broken and desperate, but I don’t care. Because it gets me what I want. Dare clutches me to him, his hands stroking me everywhere, lingering over my hips, my arms, my ribs, my breasts.
My hips lift to meet him, my pelvis crushing his. But it’s an exquisite pressure, something that builds and builds within me, begging for an eruption, screaming for a release.
“Please.”
I whisper one more time.
Dare groans, and touches me again, his fingers finding me in the dark, long and smooth and cool. I clutch his shoulders, trying to get closer and closer, but I know I’ll never be close enough. Even when he’s finally inside of my body, it won’t be enough. Because I want all of him.
Now.
I pull at the button on his jeans, at his shirt, at his arms.
And he almost lets me.
Almost.
But then, with a ragged breath, he pulls away.
I reach for him, but he shakes off my arm.
“Give me a minute, Cal.”
I sit trying to breathe, as he does the same.
All I can hear is our raspy breath as we breathe and breathe, until finally, Dare looks at me again.
“I’m sorry for that.”
I’m incredulous. “For what? For doing what I want?”
He shakes his head. “Don’t you understand? You’re completely beside yourself over your brother. Do you really want to have sex in in a house of horrors while you’re crying over Finn?”
“Isn’t that up to me?” I ask shakily, trying to reach for him again, because I need him. He won’t let me, though.
“No,” he finally answers. “Not today. You’re not thinking clearly.”
“I’m thinking clearly enough,” I answer firmly, but I don’t move toward him again. His face is set and determined.
“Why do you have to be such a gentleman?” I demand. “Is this a British thing?”
He chuckles, able to laugh now. “I guess it’s just a Dare thing.”
I roll my eyes and rub the chill away.
He stares at me hard. “Calla, when we… when this happens, it’s not going to be in a house of horrors. It’s going to be something you remember.”
I look away, annoyed. “Shouldn’t that be my choice to make?”
He smiles, humoring me. “I’m trying to help you make a good choice here, Cal. Work with me.”
I can’t help but chuckle too because he’s trying to help me, in spite of myself.
“Most guys would’ve jumped at that, no matter what,” I tell him snarkily as we climb to our feet.
Dare pauses, his eyes oh-so-dark. “But those guys don’t love you. I do.”
I’m completely frozen, completely still as that sinks in.
“You do?” I breathe.
He nods. “More every day. You’re like no one I’ve ever met. We’re not going to rush this, Cal. Good things come to those who wait, remember?”
And with those simple words, every single problem I have floats away, off of my neck, off of my chest. I don’t even roll my eyes over the ketchup reference.
Dare loves Calla.
It’s impossible. But it’s real.
My feet and heart are light as we walk back to the door, and just when we’re stepping out into the light, I see something, something fluttering against the porch railing.
A red ticket.
I bend down and grab it, curious.
Quid Quo Pro.
“This is Finn’s favorite band,” I tell Dare. “He was at their concert the night mom died.”
I turn around and stare at him, confusion rippling through me. Confusion, then realization.
“He was here, after all.”
Dare guides my elbow toward the steps.
“Well, he’s not here now.”
I can’t argue with that.
I stuff the ticket in my pocket and we make our way home.