And Ian must think that I’m talking about his speech, because he steps forward, as if to convince me otherwise. But that was a mistake, because right as he steps toward me I gag and that plate of blueberry waffles and maple syrup and that pile of sausage links and all that orange juice comes riding up and I spew all over Ian Fortune’s perfect face.
It’s like a scene from a horror movie. There are blueberries in the vomit, and it’s bright orange and chunky from half-digested food. And it keeps coming. I keep gagging and every time I pull in another breath I smell Ian’s cologne and I start up again.
He shouts out in shock and stumbles away from me. He wipes at his face, trying to clear off the vomit, but as he stumbles back, he trips over the rocks at the edge of his ornate indoor koi pond.
I’ve stopped gagging, there’s nothing left in my stomach. So, I wipe my eyes and watch in horror as Ian cartwheels over the rocks and plunges into his fish pond. The water rolls over the edge and splashes onto the floor.
Oh no. Oh no.
I rush forward. But, oh, that makes my stomach hurt. I grab my abdomen and watch as Ian splashes around and then comes sputtering up to the surface of the shallow water. His expensive suit is drenched and a lily pad hangs from his shoulder. There’s a bit of water weed in his hair, which is plastered to his head, and the koi fish have swarmed him and are starting to nibble at the blueberries stuck to his jacket.
I have to say it. Ian Fortune doesn’t look sexy. He looks like a tool. A puke and pond weed-covered tool.
He shakes his head and the water flies from his wet hair and splashes against my sweater. Then he forcefully rubs the water from his eyes and his face.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” he snarls.
My face drains of blood, and I realize that I don’t need any test results, because what’s wrong with me, is…I’m pregnant.
I can’t help it, the biggest, happiest smile breaks out across my face.
This is the best day, the absolute best day of my life.
I can’t wait to tell Josh.
“What are you smiling at?” Ian grinds out through his teeth.
“I’m taking a sick day,” I say with a beaming smile. I start toward the door and call over my shoulder, “Really sorry. Sorry about the fish and…stuff. Also, no thank you. I’m not a loser. The only way I’d be one is if I kept dating you.”
I hear him smacking around in the water, swearing and snarling. But I can’t be bothered to care. I’m pregnant, I think I’m pregnant, puking on your boss is a symptom of being pregnant, isn’t it? I’m pregnant. I can’t wait to tell Josh. I can’t wait to get my results. I can’t wait.
I can’t wait to meet my baby.
24
I call Josh as soon as I leave my office building. I barely feel the winter wind or the cold air. In fact, I can barely feel my feet hitting the sidewalk. I’m floating on a surge of pure happiness.
Like Ian (ugh) says, focus on the positive and life will bring you endless amounts of joy.
He may be a douche, but he has a way with words.
I let the phone ring and ring. I think Josh’s voicemail is about to come on when he picks up.
“Hello?” His voice is thick and sleep-filled.
“Hey.” I grin like a loon, even though he can’t see me. A woman walking a pair of dogs sees my grin, frowns, and crosses to the other side of the sidewalk. Apparently, undiluted happiness is scary.
“Did I wake you?”
“Mmm. I worked late.” I like the sound of his morning voice. It’s deep and gravelly, sort of intimate. A picture of him shirtless, lying in bed, his hair messy and his jaw unshaven flashes through my mind.
Wow. I stop walking, and a heated flush rushes over me. It’s freezing out, but I don’t feel it.
I clear my throat.
“You okay? What’s up?”
Right. Amazing, amazing things are happening. I start hurrying toward my apartment again.
“I puked on Ian.”
I hear a sharp surprised laugh, then a cough, and then Josh drops his phone. I hear the rustling of his sheets, him jumping out of bed, and then putting the phone up to his ear. “Gemma? Did you just say you puked on Ian?”
“Yeah?” Maybe I shouldn’t have started with that.
“Huh. Not what I was expecting.” There’s rustling and then his voice is muffled when he says, “Hang on. I’m throwing on some clothes.”
I try to block my imagination from running rampant with that visual. It already ran wild with Josh’s gravelly morning voice. But I can hear the cotton whoosh of a t-shirt and the zipping up of jeans and it’s hard not to think what’s happening on the other side of the phone line.
“I’m back. Are you alright? You sick?”
“No, no, I feel great.” I’m a little surprised at that, but I feel completely fine. I haven’t actually spoken to Josh since Valentine’s Day, and before anything else is said, I need to clear the air. “Look, I don’t know why you went all Hulk on Ian, but I trust you had a good reason.”
He doesn’t say anything, so I continue, “When we went back to his place there was another woman. She was naked and, well, I left. I won’t be going out with him again.”
There’s a whole lot more pain behind last weekend than those three sentences can convey, but I try to keep it short and light.
He’s quiet for a moment, and then he says in a low voice, “I’m sorry, Gem. You okay?”
It’s funny. I realize that he could’ve said, “I told you so,” or “I could’ve told you he was an ass.” In fact, Leah probably will say that. Brook too.
But Josh doesn’t. He just asks if I’m okay.
And him asking me if I’m okay rather than telling me I should’ve known better is enough to make me wipe at my eyes. “I’m alright. You know me, I’m a true believer that there’s always a bright side, always something positive in every situation.”
That’s been my core belief, the mantra that has kept me afloat for years. It was the first quote I found on Ian’s website all those years ago. I believe it with all my heart.
“That’s true, but I do have one question,” Josh says.
Oh. Here it comes, the “why couldn’t you see Ian was a poser?” question.
“Yeah? What is it?”
I hold my breath as a city bus passes and kicks up a cloud of feather-light snow and city dirt.